The Further Adventures of the Frisco Squid

Random Thoughts of the Day are Only Random at First Glance.

2012-01-27T21:13:00.000-06:00

Today, I have decided not to type up a concept-continuous nor thematic blog post. I am instead going to make some seemingly random points in order to clear up a backlog of loose thoughts I want to be able to rely on later. Yes, my beautiful world, this means I will be providing you with an enumerated list! Yey! Ordered numerals!

1.) I am not a threat to Obama the Totalitarian unless he considers telling the truth, demanding justice, and benevolent guidance a threat. If he is threatened by these things, I was not a threat to him until he created his criminal bubble of oppression, and I am only a threat because he refuses to uphold laws, justice, or the US Constitution.

2.) Did you see Obama the Dictator and Governor Jan Brewer on the tarmac? This country needs more people like the governor. The president is a human just like you are and just like I am. There is nothing making Obama the Tyrant holier than the rest of us. When he engages in criminal and amoral behavior, it is our job as fellow, equal humans to get in his face and tell him to stop. All humans are equal.

3.) Why was The New York Times allowed to violate the bubble and run a photoshopped and slanderous picture supposedly of me? Who actually supplied that supposed photo? How did it make it through the bubble? The only things that make it through Obama the Terrorist's totalitarian control of the media in this country are the things he sends through himself. No, Obama the Sociopath has never "played by the same set of rules."

4.) I have recently begun collecting copies of my own medical records for my personal files, and all of my records from the state of Iowa are incomplete, falsified, or tampered with. What entity in this country stands to gain anything from tampering with my medical records? I say it is the same entity that wants me and my beloved husband broken apart and that fears my telling the truth, my demanding justice, and my benevolent guidance. The evidence against Obama the Corrupt Criminal Conspirator just keeps adding up, does it not?

5.) FBI monitoring of social media is a violation of privacy, search, and seizure laws unless they have a search warrant. My beautiful world, you need to stand up for your rights before President Corrupt breaks even more laws in order to take what little remains of our rights away too.

6.) Did you notice how President Criminal wants to be treated like a rock star at the expense of getting anything done as president? He will do anything for public approval except earn it.

7.) My beautiful America, you cannot do both. It is impossible to stand by Obama the Fascist and do good in the world at the same time. There is no possible way to support the Obama-nation bubble of slavery and cruelty and love America at the same time. You must make a decision between oppressing all of America and saving this once-free nation. You cannot do both.

8.) The next ex-president is opening himself up to your questions. This is your chance to ask him all of the questions he has mandated and forbidden all of us from every asking... This is your best chance to get answers from him if he is not coming close enough to where you live for you to get in his face and demand your answers live and in person. Please keep in mind that he is a very well-established liar and proven career sociopath when you read what he has to say in response, but I think it is worth asking him the tough questions anyway. http://www.youtube.com/whitehouse

9.) I know I am overdue for a haircut. Do you know why I keep my hair so long? It is evidence. Every drug, chemical, substance, etc. put into a human body voluntarily or involuntarily will show up in that body's hair. The tests can even tell when the substance was introduced to the system by the distance between where it shows up in the hair and the root. I have a good four years on my head right now.

10.) Formaldehyde? Really? I was wondering what that was in the whiskey in North Beach. I always refused to drink the beer to make sure it would never get roofied, so the public could always at least have beer to drink. Eventually, I narrowed it down to only drinking the bourbon to keep as many drinks as safe as possible. Formaldehyde? That is what they were giving me? No wonder I could never finish a whole glass of that stuff.

11.) When in doubt, my beautiful world, go to my general blog site http://frisco-squid.blogspot.com and look for any blog posts you may have missed. There are some great ones out there that very few people have seen yet. Try this one: http://frisco-squid.blogspot.com/2012/01/beatified.html

12.) If my father had any family values, he never would have broken the law to be able to hurt me... and definitely would not have done so on multiple occasions.

13.) My dream for myself is to cozy up in a house with my darling husband and make super-human babies with him. That is the only thing I want for myself out of all of this, and I will move any mountain, wage any battle, and prosecute any criminal necessary to accomplish this. I do not care if that criminal list includes the current and next ex- president of the United States of America.

14.) Criminals and Obama-henchmen, when you get desperate and realize that the best way out for all of you is to sit down with me and ask me my demands, you need to understand that I will not sit down with you until the bubble is burst and I am safely in the loving arms of my husband. You also need to understand that no matter what you offer me, I am worth more than that.

15.) The only way to reduce the national debt is to bother to do real mathematics. The incoming tax revenue for the entire nation for the year needs to be able to pay off ALL of the interest that the already existing national debt accrues in that year AND pay for the entire federal government to function for the entire year. If those two sets of expenses are not met with the tax revenue, the debt will only increase. Did you hear Obama the Math-Incompetent's policy proposals in his jingoist State of the Union address? He clearly did not do any math on anything he said he wanted to do in the following year; it is a good thing those were all just empty promises.

16.) Global Climate Change is definitely upon us. Make sure you know what extreme weather emergencies might hit where you live and work and make sure you have a survival plan for when and if they hit. A great place for more information is http://ready.gov.

17.) Every self-sovereign nation has a right to control its own borders including the waterways within the jurisdiction of that nation as determined by conventional international methods.

18.) Egypt, for some reason the basic needs of freedom and justice take us all longer to achieve than they should. I have never done this before either. I have faith in you. You can do this.

19.) I am far too involved in foreign politics to ever be referred to as an isolationist. But you can honestly call me a peace-monger, a supporter of nuclear disarmament, etc.

20.) If the government had ever honestly believed I had ever in my peaceful and adamantly nonviolent life been capable of murder, they would have put me on trial not made me a torture victim, slave, and involuntary media phenomenon. The murder lie is just one of the many forms of libel that the haters circulate about it. Trace the lie back to its source, call out that source as a libeler, and use every power of the law to disable that source from ever being able to commit this crime ever again. I have never believed in guns. I have never believed in violence. When tortured, I do defend myself; I struggle to get free of the torturers. After my father broke the law for the third time to put me in yet another mental health facility for no medical reason, I admit I should have slapped his face, but I am so helplessly peaceful that all I could manage to do was pour orange juice into the vents on his computer. Most importantly, there is no simultaneously honest and legal justification for forcing any human to live through the terrors, human rights violations, and war crimes that this government has mandated I must live through and have no way to stop. I was picked out to be thrown away by Obama the Terrorist Dictator, so he would be able to remove the First Amendment rights of this entire nation. No amount of his lies will ever change that.

21.) Congress, I would much prefer to be a unifying topic, but you have my permission to make me a divisive topic if you need to. Please, just make sure I actually am a topic in Congress.

22.) Let us all insist that election 2012 be a referendum on the bubble of slavery and torture. Hell, let us make EVERYTHING a referendum on the Obama-nation bubble oppressing all of America with its lies, rules, and abuses of power.

23.) My beautiful world, when you are at a lack of what to do to help save me, save America, and save the world from Obama the Fascist's agenda of terror. Please rely on the list I gave you on the afternoon of 25 January. It is here in this post: http://frisco-squid.blogspot.com/2012/01/tell-obama-no-oppressed-nation-is-great.html

24.) I make it a point to never let on to the government the full extent of everything I know about what they have been up to; this is to guarantee that they must reveal the entire and accurate truth to the nation and the world when justice finally demands it.

25.) Nerds of the world, my Sweetness needs your help. He again is stopped from reaching me by the FBI. Please, for me, do everything to help him. If you burst this bubble, you save me, the nation, and the world.

Sweetness, I hope that is the help you need. If you did not receive both letters yesterday that I had mailed to you Monday, the FBI illegally laid claim to them. If they arrive late, arrive not at all, or have been tampered with, please make a public account and record of the violation to help keep the FBI accountable for their abuses of power under the command of the president. They always hear every last loving word I write to you in those letters as I write them. That is to guarantee the mail goes through. I want you to hold my loving words in your hands. I want you to touch them with your fingers and hold them to your heart. That is the point of mailing a love letter... especially when there are faster methods of communication at my disposal.

P.S. Ankeny please change your plans for the city sewers lines you want to build through the county forest preserve that my parents' house is on. I want to turn this land and this house into a national landmark and a museum someday, and we need the childhood trees I used to play in to be able to do that with any historical accuracy. Why do you insist on building city sewers through a county forest preserve anyway if there is city land with no trees on it at all just across the street?

P.P.S. Iowa, do you yet understand how much trouble you are in? Propagating lies about me cannot save you, but accepting my very forgiving offer will. You know the entire world is watching you. Do you really want to see this entire state flattened because of your choice to break your own state and our own national and international laws just to stay subservient to a criminal and unconstitutional mandate, or do you want to see this state prosper because you chose to do what is morally right? The world will provide your judgment or reward. You know I will make sure of that.

Are Politics Really So Exciting These Days That No One Goes To The Movies Anymore?

2012-01-25T23:00:00.002-06:00

I tried to allow the message below to be published as a comment I received on the mentioned blog post, but it self-deleted before I could.

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SoulStraw3 has left a new comment on your post "If Obama Gave a Damn About This Nation or the Worl...":

Oh, shut up, you disgusting fat racist whore! If you weren't too busy sucking you head racist Slimebaugh's dick, Al Green loved it when the President sang his song, even some of the haters! The disgusting notion that Obama is secretely a terrorist is just so ridiculous it's not even worth addressing it seriously, but the rightful nortion that you are a jealous,closeted racist, bigoted, isolationist & bible thumping whore proves most accurate!
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As I already said, for years, the only comments the FBI have allowed through their filters to reach me have been verbal abuse and sexual harassment. If I were not so well adjusted, I would assume the FBI and the president were writing these themselves. This is just one example of what the FBI have subjected me to just for keeping a blog while keeping anything supportive or friendly away from me. Yes, I know I receive criticism, and I know whack-jobs like these are very verbose and never rational. But could I ask you, my beautiful world, to find Google username "SoulStraw3" and gently set him or her straight? Clearly, do not expect that particular Google user to make much sense when you speak with him or her, but it is worth trying to save this person. Thank you.

Sweetness, please let me know when you get my mail! I love your voice. You melt me like chocolate flakes above the open flame of love. When you speak to me, I drip into a puddle of nothing but love and brains. Please do not stop. If only my kisses could reach you!

Tell Obama No Oppressed Nation is Great!

2012-01-25T14:36:00.000-06:00

Well, it sure has been an exciting last couple of days. Monday night in America we had a spectacular Republican debate, and Tuesday night we had a State of the Union address. I hope my beautiful America is keeping up with the truth of what is going on; we are all witness to how adamantly Obama the Sociopath fills the internet, public, and airwaves with his lies.

My beautiful world, the bubble is still harming us. Please keep kicking it until it bursts. Do not believe any good news you hear about these crimes almost ending. Do not believe it is bursting until it has actually burst. Never let them take the fight out of you.

Do you all remember how long my facebook privacy settings were violated before facebook gave us the power to determine the privacy of our content post by post? I am sure privacy laws will catch up with internet privacy soon enough. According to US Supreme Court rulings that stand now, the right to privacy we have under the penumbra of rights guaranteed to us by the US Constitution includes protection of private moments in publicly accessible places. The paparazzi may not be happy with me for pointing that out, but I am compulsively honest.

Here are some great questions for the conspiracy theorists among us to consider... Who built the technology, the cameras, the speakers, the mics, the chip that controlled all of the electronics near me, etc. that was inserted into my body against me will? What people had access to that kind of technology? Who had the opportunity to insert it all into my body in my sleep while I was in the mental health facility at the University of Minnesota Medical Center--Fairview in May 2009?

Furthermore, who is putting all of the control speakers into the ear canals of the masses right now? Why is nobody allowed to have them removed? Who is controlling the content of the information being pumped into all of these people's heads? Who would benefit from brainwashing the public this way?

The unrelenting electrobeam torture that the government owns and subjects me to most heavily after every time I am successful at doing good in the world, is more than just unbearably painful. It is also dangerously dehydrating. My kidneys hurt when I wake up, if I can sleep at all. I know who built it. Only the federal government and prisons in California have purchased the technology. According to UN definitions, any physical harm done to a person in order to destroy him or her is included as torture.

My beautiful world, I know that you are all sometimes at a loss for what to do to help fix all of the wrongs this bubble is doing to the world. Here are ten things I can recommend today...
1.) Never let anyone ever put a speaker in your ear canal for any reason. And, if you have one now, insist that it be removed.
2.) Document all of the abuses of the executive branch of the federal government that you have endured, all of the illegal or immoral things the FBI has commanded you to do to further or maintain the bubble, etc. and share your stories, anonymously if necessary, with the public.
3.) When you hear slander, libel, or defamation about me or my Sweetness, call it out as lies to prevent it from spreading and trace it to its source to hold that source accountable. Innocent people get gravely hurt when lies about me or my husband are spread.
4.) Report all tainted, poisoned, drugged, etc. water supplies, food, or drink to an authority that will take it off the shelves and fix the problem. It has gone on too long in too many places for me to have faith in the federal government to bother to fix any of this,so try consumer watchdog groups and local authorities.
5.) Speak to your national senators and congresspeople. Tell them you want Obama the Terrorist impeached and give all of your reasoning for it. Speak about the harm he and his bubble have caused you. Speak about your dreams for this nation.
6.) I will say it again. Keep kicking this bubble until it bursts. Go to all of Obama the Sociopath's public appearances and protest at them. Get in his face. Make him hear your voice. Demand your rights and freedoms. Stand up for what you believe in, and exercise your freedom of speech.
7.) Please, communicate with each other about what you are doing and how you can help each other. You can say anything you want on the internet about this; if I am not allowed to hear it, the government agency patrolling what I can see online will prevent it from reaching my eyes. Spread the truth among yourselves and the world.
8.) Educate the people who do not support the cause. Woo the people who support this president, his oppression, and his bubble of criminal persecution against me to join our fight to save this nation with truth and reason. This requires everything from major media to one-on-one conversations. Every little thing helps.
9.) If you are concerned with my long term goals of solving many of the major problems facing the world, buy an electric car if you can and support the research that will lead to the development of a world of solar-powered cars everyone can afford. We can alleviate so much poverty, suffering, death, and war if we do this. Please see previous blog posts for more details.
10.) Finally, if you are the sort of person who just wants to donate money to the cause and has no time to do anything else, that will help too. Someone who loves me formed a SuperPAC for fighting the president and the bubble. I do not know what it is called; I am not allowed to know it exists. I refer to it as the lovePAC. I pray it is run by someone as effective as James Carvelle, and I am sure it will do nothing but good in this world.

If you saw the Republican debate on Monday and the State of the Union address last night, you may have noticed a great many things. One of them is the major difference between difference between the president and the future Republican nominee. Election 2012 is not only a choice between an incumbent criminal and a social conservative, but it is also a choice between a man who mandated and ordered I be raped until I would kill myself and a man who would make sure that would never happen again.

I know Republicans and I make strange political bedfellows. After all, I am a bisexual, atheistic, peace-mongering, bleeding-heart environmentalist. But, clearly, I do not judge them, and they do not judge me. We are all capable of sitting down like civilized humans and working together, and we would if we had the freedoms to do so. Obama the Tyrant and his bubble are what stand in the way of people having the freedom to work together to solve this nation's problems. Besides, Republicans have proven to be good people who are not only morally opposed to how Obama the Sociopath treats me but who are also disgusted by it.

I am still shocked that Democrats have not yet taken my advice and cut loose the president; he is the albatross around their neck. It is their choice, though, whether they save their party or not. At the very least, if they cannot bring themselves to vote for a Republican for president this November, they always could write in Hillary Clinton like I may or may not do.

What is socially liberal about slavery? What is socially liberal about oppression? What is socially liberal about totalitarian control of the media? What is socially liberal about torture and rape? How do Democrats stand by that president?

I am sure you already heard my commentary on and read my facebook status about the State of the Union Address. First and foremost, no oppressed nation in this day and age could ever be called great. That was Obama the Career Sociopath's biggest lie. He said what he thought the public would want to hear in order to gain control of people regardless of whether or not it was true, whether or not he actually believed it, whether or not it would actually fix any problems, and whether or not he would ever intend to keep that promise. It was just like his campaign in 2008.

I liked the way he pointed out US Attorney General Eric H. Holder, Jr., so the entire nations now knows who to hold accountable for being so corrupt that he does not investigate nor prosecute any of the human rights violations nor war crimes committed in this nation due to the orders, rules, and mandate of the president and his bubble. The attorney general is an appointee, but he still must answer to the public not only the president. Feel free to let him know your opinions of him.

Do not forget, my beautiful world, if you allow yourself to obey the rules of behavior actively oppressing this nation and as a result the world, you are validating their mandate and their crimes. There is nothing wrong with being a free people. There is nothing wrong with making your own choices under your own conscious for the good of this nation and the world.

Sweetness, there are two letters destined to arrive in your hands in Los Angeles today or tomorrow. May I ask you to be there to receive them? It is when I reach your arms that saving the world will finally begin. You can find legal arguments that can help set me free all over this blog, my facebook, and my twitter. You need not look further back the beginning of this month. According to the state laws of both Iowa and California (the state in which I am still legally registered to vote-- Please talk to 'Dabs about evidence of that. Syniva knows 'Dabs's real name.) a spouse's opinion takes precedence over parents' opinions about the care and welfare of a full grown adult.

Besides, we are well beyond proving I am mentally competent to care for myself and that I have no mental illness but trauma partly from being forced to live for a year in a house with my father. Use any examples of my mental competence you see fit. There is also a great deal of evidence that my father is not a financially responsible conservator of my meager funds and that he, unlike you, has done nothing to end my enslavement, suffering, torture, persecution, etc. and has instead instigated much of it by perjuring himself to obtain an adult guardianship at all and by perjuring himself many more times to put me in mental health facilities for no medical reason on multiple occasions himself. The list goes on.

Sweetness, I love and adore you. I would move a mountain range to be with you. I just did not know I would have to move EVERY mountain range... but I do it gladly.

Beatified

2012-01-24T14:12:00.000-06:00

I know there are a lot of stories and evidence of super-powers floating around out there. Please remember, I am not capable of anything no other human has ever been capable of. Having a pure mind, a pure heart, and a pure conscience really helps with these things, and I never intended to leave any evidence of these abilities anywhere. I know you have the images. I know have the videos. I know you have heard the first hand accounts of the healing and the energy. I know I cannot hide it anymore. Please be careful with pushing me into my raw, screaming, basic state. That is when my subconscious takes over these abilities.

There are a lot of explanations for these epic "super-powers." Christians call it the Holy Spirit or Holy Ghost. Eastern religions call it qi. My explanations of choice rely on the rigors of quantum physics. Please try this link for some connections between quantum physics and consciousness. Some people call it chakras: I know you have seen my bright blue third eye and my beating golden heart. I know what you have seen of these powers. I know you know I am completely benevolent; please also understand that these are not the only benevolent things I am capable of.

Yes, I use dance trance to meditate. I know you have seen me follow live music with my body, so I can clear my mind. I do not know where or who I would be in this world if I did not have that ability to calm and heal myself this way. This is the purpose of dance in my life; it is an extension of myself, my soul, and my consciousness. I am told it is breathtaking to behold.

I have a question for you, my beautiful world. Why do people keep saying I died and was replaced with myself? Yes, I heard the stories many times, but because it was the president claiming I was dead, I assumed nobody would believe the lies. It is very well established he cannot be trusted.

The last time somebody pointed a gun at my head, I was sitting on a park bench above the Martin Luther King Memorial Fountain in the Yerba Buena Gardens in San Francisco. They pointed the laser scope at the back of my head, and I told them to put it in my eyes where it belonged. I knew that if they martyred me, all of the beautiful things I wanted for this world would come that much faster. Sadly, the government is not even competent at killing me.

The FBI's policy of cowardice, you see, was to drive me mad, so they could lock me away forever or make me kill myself. Admit it haters, I have no symptoms of paranoid schizophrenia like you claim. My only mental illness is trauma from being locked in a torture facility in Liverpool, UK for seven months and from living in a house with my father for a year. If you publicly claim that I have any mental illness other than trauma, you need to provide a list of the symptoms that support that diagnosis as well as your evidence that I actually have those symptoms. Such lies count as slander, libel, defamation, and possibly human rights violations if any medical professional consciously chose to commit malpractice by acting on those lies.

All of the above points considered, it is no wonder that the world's religions all have their own views of me. Yes, I have been beatified by the Catholic Church. It is a responsibility I take very seriously. And, yes, the Pope understands why I stand by the fact I am a beatified atheist. By claiming I follow no religion (or all religions), I help keep peace in the world.

Oddly, most benevolent religions believe in staying calm at all times. They promote finding zen and maintaining it through all adversity. They believe in turning the other cheek. Clearly, I am not a vengeful woman. But I have found that demanding fair and sometimes tough justice and exercising tough but forgiving love under the guise of benevolent rage really gets things done. I am out to fix the real problem; please never confuse my motives.

I also heard lately that some people preferred me when they thought I was a nymphomaniacal porn star. Really? They do not prefer acknowledging me as a benevolent soul who has already saved them? That does make me feel a bit under-appreciated especially considering all of the suffering I have lived through that they just watched instead of intervening to prevent. Sigh,... but no that is not enough for me to give up on goodness still being in humanity somewhere. If they could not take my faith in humanity away from me in that torture facility, nothing will ever be able to squash it.

When this is all said and done, I would really like to get a landmark status for my parents' house in Ankeny, IA. I know my old art teacher from high school has wanted to turn it into a museum since early 2009. Yes, I know most of my memories in that house are only pain, now, but I think landmark status would be beneficial to Iowa and the community. Who knows, maybe we will be able to turn the land into a park or something someday.

My beautiful world, have you discovered yet where the understanding between me and the people of Iran came from? Do you know if Iran would be willing to rejoin the negotiating table if I were free to be there with them? We need to remove these tensions. We need to end this conflict. Your sanctions are causing more suffering than good.

The Arab League seems to be doing something in Syria. Is it enough? The world has to admit that the protesters are peaceful, that the government is violent, and that slaughtering the masses is illegal. The best solution is to find an entity willing to arrest President Bashar al-Assad and put him on trial for his crimes. Syria will also need help rebuilding not only their country but also their government if that ever happens.

People pay for democracy with their lives. People pay for democracy with their bodies and souls. It is impossible to pay for democracy by allowing yourself to become oppressed.

Yes, there is still conflict in Nigeria. It does not seem to be receiving much press in the States, but the presses here are justifiably distracted with the totalitarian control of the news media in America right now. Nigeria, you need to learn to get along with each other. You need to accept the results of your elections or use the legal systems already in place in your government to overturn the results of your elections. You are capable of doing this without violence. You need to find enough faith in yourselves and the structure of your government so that you do not need to kill each other over these things. Violence does not solve problems.

As for my last few notes in this post,...

Planned Parenthood, you know I am a liberal, so keep that in mind when I say this. I recently heard you were supporting Obama the Sociopath by trying to prove to the public he actually did something in office other than mandate all of our loss of human rights. Please keep in mind the big picture when you do these things. Do you remember the ruling of Roe vs. Wade? Do you remember how the basis of the argument for the ruling was built around all humans' right to privacy? Do you really want to be known as supporting the culprit president who still commits war crimes and human rights violations against me partly by mandating I have no right to privacy? How would that help your cause?

Secondly, Iowa, please remember that if the FBI command you to break the law and you do it, it is called corruption, and everyone involved is prosecutable for it. I know you understand how heinous your crimes have been. I now understand that you genuinely intend to save yourselves and to accept the very forgiving offer I have made to you. Please understand that you will have to make arrangements yourselves to put me safely in the arms of my darling husband once this becomes official. Please do not make my Sweetness do all of the work. He has been through so much.

As for you, Twitter, I already went through your official customer service channels to notify you that someone (the FBI) is in my official twitter account producing fake posts and, I suspect, preventing some of my actual tweets from getting out. The culprits cannot be stopped by my changing my password. You actually have to bother to maintain my account the same way all other social networking sites maintain my accounts. I suggest you send the bill for that to the president. The integrity of my twitter feed is highly important; when people spread lies about me, innocent people get hurt... not just me. If you do not restore and maintain the purity of my account, I will have to take matters into my own hands to do so. You know who I am in the world. You know what I am capable of. You know you need to fix this yourselves.

Sweetness, I want to put on a cocktail dress and an apron, stand in your kitchen barefoot, and bake you dessert. I sent you two letters yesterday. Expect them both on Thursday. Yes, dear, you did see me first. You saw me before I saw you. You saw me live and in person before any other celebrity. No, that does not mean you had dibs on me. I clearly picked you out of billions. Save my your kisses. I will be coming for them.

P.S. My beautiful world, there is no justification for the existence of this bubble, instigating this bubble, or continuing this bubble that is both legal and honest. People pretend I could have lied to end it, but they would have just thought up another lie to continue oppressing America. Besides, nobody ever bothered to sit down next to me to ask me if I knew. Obeying the rules they criminally mandate validates this oppression. This bubble never should have happened in the first place. No amount of their lies will ever change that. America, you need to save yourself.

If Obama Gave a Damn About This Nation or the World...

2012-01-21T23:59:00.001-06:00

How many people saw President Evil massacre an Al Green song while at the podium in New York? Who else said to her or himself, "Dude, Pres, you need to find something you are actually competent at and stick to it." Well, we already know he is completely incapable of leading this nation and has not yet even attempted being the leader of the free world. Is there anything he actually is competent at?

Obama, you bratty child, you need to leave these things like singing and leading the free world to people who actually have talents. I have never in my life wanted your occupation, but even I am better at upholding the civil rights of this nation, your actual job, than you are. You really need to go out and learn a job skill... or are you ruining this nation and attempting to ruin the world on purpose? Are you willing to admit to being the puppet, the idiot, or the criminal master behind your crimes?

If Obama the Oppressor gave a damn about this nation or the world, America would be free... not oppressed. Human rights are not to be taken away from people for any reason. Rules of Oppression are not just and Constitutional laws. There is no legal, honest justification for what that man has done to our collective civil, human, legal, and First Amendment Rights in this nation nor any other supposedly self-sovereign nation I have found myself in for the last three years.

If Obama the Slave Driver gave a damn about this nation or the world, he would not have enforced nor mandated a set of rules on this nation and by default the planet designed to protect human traffickers from ever being caught, stopped, or held accountable. How many rules of this bubble were engineered to make sure that I would never learn about the trafficking, that no one would be able to save me from the trafficking, and that I would not have the legal rights to stop the trafficking if I learned about it. These broadcasts were made commercially available to the world to ensure that every generation would carry the guilt of enabling it... even our children. He made our children into customers of human trafficking, too.

If President Incompetent gave a damn about this nation or the world, he would have done something to prevent the American and global economic disasters other than pay billions of taxpayer money to the people in America who fostered them. World economies are linked. If he had bothered to try any actual solutions to the problems of unemployment, poverty, mortgage market collapse, or etc. in this nation, the entire global economy would have improved. There are viable solutions to these things; he just refuses to recommend or instigate them. And if he needed help, HE SHOULD HAVE ASKED!

If Obama the Terrorist gave a damn about this nation or the world, there never would have been any drugs or poisons in any of the food, drink, or local water supply in any of the places I have been located domestically and internationally for the last three years. Instead of protecting the people creating the public health hazards, he would have investigated and prosecuted the perpetrators. How many victims and witnesses in how many cities and countries does it take to prove the pattern that points to the actual menace?

If Obama the Math-Denier gave a damn about this nation or the world, the US debt ceiling would neither have been reached nor increased during his time in office. Exponents are a mathematical concept taught to middle school children in this country. How much of the national debt is interest and how much of it is principal? How close is the compounding interest to exceeding the tax revenue this country takes in? When that happens, we will have an economic meltdown, and Obama the Sociopath just made sure it raised a second time since he took office. Nobody can claim an increase in debt means that they are paying their bills. An increase in debt means that people are NOT paying their bills. If the US has an economic meltdown, what will happen to the world?

If Obama the Fascist gave a damn about this nation or the world, no person on this planet would have ever had a control speaker inserted into his or her ear canal. Even my mother has one. If you put a speaker into people's ear canals, you control what they know, what they think, and what they believe. If you control that, you control how people behave. At the expense of all morals, ethics, and legal or medical grounds Obama the Fascist has inserted control speakers into the masses in three nations I know of now. Not only has he inserted them, but now he also refuses to remove them. Be careful, world, the chips might be coming for you next.

If Obama the Sociopath gave a damn about this nation or the world, he would have sat down and talked with me about finding solutions to the many problems facing all of us on this planet. He would never have invented lie after lie about who I am and why I must be persecuted by him as an excuse to turn America into the totalitarian state it is now. He, in fact, never would have lied to any of us about any of this at all, nor would he have ever created the cataclysm of humanity that required him to lie in the first place. Obama the Sociopath cannot be trusted. Never trust him as a source of anything but untruths, criminal activity, and suffering.

Should that Obama the Totalitarian feel he wants to argue with any of the points I have made about him, he is going to have to say it to my face, or those arguments will count for nothing but the rantings of the sorry, pathetic, and publicly-acknowledged remainders of what is now a waste of breathable air and human skin.

Obama, you bratty child, you know full well the only thing capable of taking the fight out of me is complacency. I have been telling you that since you started this. You also know that the only thing that could inspire complacency in me after all of the suffering you have caused me is 1.) finding my Sweetness, 2.) apologizing to him, and 3.) doing everything my Sweetness commands. All things considered, you are getting off easy. I suggest you take my offer before I raise my demands.

Sweetness, I was here all night last night waiting for you. As promised, because you were prevented from showing up to get me, I have unleashed at the president the anger I have had pent up inside me for years because of how he treats me, this nation, and this beautiful world. It feels amazing to get it out. I truly hope more people follow my lead. These things should never be kept bottled-up inside. If you do not come for me tomorrow, I will put a love letter in the mail to you late tomorrow night on my way to the Lift. Sunday is my only night out all week. The only thing mad about me is how madly I love you. The heavens will smile on the mortals when at last we kiss.

I Would Never Do A Nude Scene.

2012-01-20T14:17:00.000-06:00

This has been going on ever since Obama the Sociopath took office. You cannot claim you do not know who I am nor at any point did not know who I am.

I do not make pornography nor have I ever been a hooker. I have never been a stripper. I have never even been a burlesque dancer... whatever that means. Saying these things about me is not only cruel and immoral; it is also illegal. I would never be capable of even doing a nude scene if I had a choice about anything no matter how artistic it looked.

It recently came to my attention that someone made a video of my being raped by a man that Obama the Totalitarian sent into the privacy of my own home and sold it. That means people paid money to watch that act of violence and piece of human trafficking. That is not pornography. That is evidence of a violent sexual act. That is human trafficking. That is forced public humiliation. That is forced public nudity. That is arguably forced prostitution. And calling it pornography is practically war-crime-level libel. I suggest you not be caught with it on your hard drive.

No, I have never been permitted by the government who patrols what I can see online and what I am allowed to see on air to see any of the media made of me. That is because I never gave permission for any of it to be made. Initially, the government never wanted me to know any of this was happening, so that the traffickers and libelers would be protected from being stopped. I am a slave, and Obama the Sociopath has spent the last three years mandating that I stay one.

Now, in case you missed it the first time, let me go over this again. If the media people have made of me under the protection of the federal government is real, it is human trafficking, a violation of my human right to privacy, and various other war crimes including forced public humiliation, etc. If the media is not real and if they claim it is photoshopped or someone else, it is still libel, slander, and defamation if they claimed any of it was me.

Claiming I am a prostitute because I am a brown girl is racism. Claiming any other brown girl who shows up in pornography is me is racism as well as libel. All brown girls do not look alike. We brown girls are capable of some very amazing things.

Further examples of slander, libel, and defamation include saying anything bad about me at all on the internet or in public. I made a point of putting a disclaimer in the subtitle of this here blog just in case I am wrong about something, and we all know that most of the time I am right. Did any of you slanderers put a loud disclaimer on what you had to say about me? Even if you did, it can still legally be called libel because of all the harm it has caused me. Even, "twisted" stories (Stories that pervert the truth with false and illogical conclusions.) fall under the same slander, libel, and defamation laws as all other public statements.

Yes, all of that media, even using my image in photoshopped pics without legal permission, is human trafficking. When in doubt, seek a legal release of my image before you use a photo of me for any purpose. That will keep you safe.

I have said it before, and I will say it again...My beautiful world, beyond my being enslaved, the Feds command every entity that tries to hire me not to. My father controls what assets are allowed to reach me under the rules of the bubble, and he does not even allow me enough money to get an apartment. That is how I am forced to live in a house with my parents. The Feds also mandate that your donations for the story "Infamy" are not allowed to reach me. You can ask podiobooks for the details on that one. I do not put ads on this blog because that would force Google to break the law. The Feds would mandate then that the AdSense money never reach me either. The government with the help of my father are keeping me broke at all times. I could really use a new pair of shoes in here in this bubble. The pair I wear every day are falling apart.

What little income I am allowed in this illegal bubble of persecution comes from SSDI. No, I am not disabled, but because the government lies and claims that I am, I can collect SSDI on a loophole. And yes, because of my father's illegal adult guardianship, the money has to go through him before it can reach me. My father is cruel to me in so many ways, and this is just one of them.

Luckily, it does not take much money to change the world for the better. After all, how often do the super-rich (the top one percent of the top one percent) ever do anything good with their money anyway? We have had an agreement for over a year, my beautiful world, I will worry about saving the world as long as you worry about saving me.

Did the people Obama the Totalitarian protects really say that they gave the money from trafficking me to charity? Well, they need to prove that all of that money went to actual and upstanding charities. They still need to be charged for human trafficking; a paper trail of money is just further evidence. And they still need to provide just compensation for my slavery and everyone else's violated rights. That is is how we guarantee that nobody ever does this again.

Clearly, if I had a choice, we would end all of this immediately. I would be in the physical safety of my loving husband's care. I would have all of the spy equipment removed from my head to end the human rights violations. The bubble would be burst, and all of America would have her full human, legal, civil, and Constitutional rights back again. Obama the Sociopath stands in the way of that.

You, my beautiful world, need to stop falling for President Corrupt's lies. If Obama the Dictator had ever given a damn about you or me, he never would have violated our basic human rights by creating this bubble in the first place. He never would have enforced it with his flourish of inhumane cruelty (For examples of this, look at the water supply and product recall list.), and he would have spent taxpayer money keeping us safe instead of poisoned, violated, and oppressed.

If you love me, my beautiful America, if you love yourself, you will show up at all of Obama the Tyrant's appearances and protest at them. You will get in his face and demand your rights. You will ask the questions he has forbidden from ever being asked. You will stand up and fight. You will show the man ruining this nation that you love America too much to allow any of this to continue.

Did you see President Hypocrisy at Disneyworld? Did you hear him claim that tourism will help the economy? Tourists do not like coming to America these days because of all the social oppression Obama the Totalitarian enforces here. Though, foreign tourists are witnesses to that fact we are living under the equivalent of soviet Russia these days. If he wanted more tourism, he would reverse the bubble. You cannot trust a single word that specimen of masculine inadequacy utters.

If any other human had been forced to endure the horrors that President Evil mandates that I live through all day every day, that person would have been bludgeoned into a vegetable. Just because I survive it, though, does not mean I do not feel pain or endure suffering. Nothing from the last three years (since Obama the Sociopath took office) has been enjoyable. None of my suffering will ever be worth anything good that comes out of this when it finally ends. No human should ever be forced to endure anything I have lived through or even live through now. My only silver lining is my husband.

Iowa in particular, none of your vile behavior towards me can be chalked up to "normal human error." No human rights violations are ever the result of "normal human error."

For example, Iowa, you have had over a year to sit down next to me, defy the rules of the bubble, and ask me for the answers to any of your questions. The fact you refuse to seek knowledge or truth from a reliable source is further evidence of your culpability. I am a fountain of information living among you, and look at how you treat me.

Iowa, there is a ticking clock between us. You only have so long before you run out of time and I raise my demands. Please see my previous blog post for details.

Sweetness, how I wish I could just touch your hand and kiss your face. Can I ask you for a favor? Could you or someone you trust speak with Ms. Cate Blanchett about the letter I wrote to her? It concerned a man the public falsely believed was a priest. The man at one point believed I was a virgin, though, and thought that "changing" that would prevent me from ever being beatified. Last I knew, he was in upstate New York. Thank you! I know how busy I keep you. I hope you delegate to trustworthy people.

P.S. Question of the Day: Who does more to end my suffering and enslavement, my BFF and husband together or my father? That is, who does ANYTHING to end my suffering and enslavement, my BFF and husband together or my father? Clearly, since my father is a menace to my physical safety and is actively forcing me to suffer, we know the answer to that question.

Heads Up Iowa

2012-01-19T20:29:00.000-06:00

Iowa, you need to come to terms with reality. You need to come to terms with who I really am in the world, how many people adore me, why people adore me, what the world will do to you if you continue to harm me, and how you would be rewarded by the world if you accepted my much too gentle and generous offer for resolution.

Yes, Obama the Totalitarian mandates that this place function in as oppressed a magnitude as soviet Russia, but that is no excuse for your behavior towards me personally. It is your moral responsibility to go out of your way to get to the truth, so that you know what goes on in the world. It is your moral responsibility to treat me with the respect another human is due. We live in a digital age. You will not be allowed to pretend ignorance is your excuse for any of the heinous human rights violations you have committed against me yourselves. We know you own televisions. We know you own computers. We know what cellphones are capable of now.

Your latest crime, Iowa, is allowing my morally-bankrupt father to poison what little medical care I am capable of finding in this state. No, I do not receive medical care here for actual medical problems I have. Instead, you invent false medical problems for me and use them to over-medicate me to guarantee I become ill. It is all on record, and any actual, even independent team of medical specialists could easily tear your malpractice and deluge of quacks to pieces. Because I do everything in my power including consulting doctors out of state when I can to ensure I can actually receive a vague semblance to medical care while here (And I am kept in the state of Iowa completely against my will, as I will detail later.) you are now allowing my criminal father control over my medical decisions again completely against my will and to ensure I only be harmed while I am in this state.

The loophole you created yourselves to allow my father to do this is the illegally-gained adult guardianship he wields over me, only so he can harm me and continue to break laws to harm me. As long as you allow that illegal adult guardianship to stand, I can only be abused, enslaved, tortured, exploited, persecuted, and shackled to the state of Iowa. Yes, it is my father who mandates that I stay here and live in a house with him.

There is even medical evidence, now, that the presence of my father alone causes me physical harm. When he showed his smirking face in the doorway of the room where my vitals were being taken, my heart began to pound. My beats/minute soared to 140, and my blood pressure coursed to 152 over 96. That is how traumatized I have become after being forced to live in a house with him for a year now. People keep saying he "means the best," but that is either evidence that his lies and perjury are spreading across Iowa or that Iowa wants me dead.

I show signs of trauma including an elevated heart rate and screaming when in private places after two proven triggers:
1.) when threatened with injections (And every doctor I have had in Des Moines has threatened me with injections for no medical reason.)
2.) when subjected to the presence of my father (And he uses the illegal adult guardianship to force me to live in a house with him.)

Iowa, that is not even the most heinous of the crimes you have committed against me.

As one example, I was hoping to make superhuman babies with my beloved husband. Now, because of the medically-unnecessary meds you enforce I take, I am having hot flashes that your medical community refuses to treat. Sterilizing me so that I cannot have children is not just a crime against me; it is a crime against all the world. That is one of the many reasons forced sterilizations are considered a war crime. You had a choice to do what was morally upstanding, but you chose to break the law to harm me instead. Iowa, the world is watching you.

Iowa, I have said it so many times, but I will say it again:
1.) If you cannot handle the responsibility of behaving morally while I am in your state, you need to put me in the arms of my loving husband immediately.
2.) If you want me to go easy on you after everything you have done to me, you need to reverse the adult guardianship, put my father in prison ASAP, and put me in the arms of my loving husband.
3.) If you want to fully do the right thing for once, you will ALSO need to convict your dirty judges, convict your dirty quacks, root out the deep corruption in your state, and completely defy the president's bubble of evil.

Yes, your only moral and legal solutions involve putting me safely in the loving arms of my husband.

Remember: If you get caught between me and the president, Obama the Tyrant is actively and illegally oppressing you; I am fighting to save you. It feels like tough love sometimes, but that is all I am up to. If you follow my recommendations, you will save yourselves. If you obey the president, you will be punished.

If you are curious what one of the prominent leaks is in the Des Moines area from which I obtain a lot of the information that President Corrupt has mandated I never hear, look no further than the Channel 8 (CBS) local news at 5:00pm, 6:00pm, and 10:00pm. Their blatant spite for me and for all the good I do in this world speaks volumes.

I keep telling you how to save yourselves, Iowa. Why do you choose to hate, commit crimes, and punish yourselves instead?

We all know the world is watching you and all of the ways you go out of your way to mistreat me. The world will judge and punish you if you continue to harm me. It will not come from my hands. The world will also reward you generously if you should bother to publicly and openly do the right thing completely. I will make sure of that. It is your decision which side of justice you receive.

Sweetness, oh, do I ever love you. Soon, the proven forces of evil that keep us apart for no reason beyond their own greed and corruption will be kicked into line. We have all been working very hard to make sure love will prevail. Iowa clearly does not want me here; look at how they treat me. But, they refuse to allow me to leave. They are enforcing that I stay here to be abused and exploited. I know justice will come for them if they do not fix it, but I would prefer to be with you now.

P.S. Yes, I am beatified. That is how deep of trouble Iowa is in right now. I do not like to mention it because the way they treat me here would be a crime against any human. I am not demanding special treatment. For once, I would like the legal, human, and Constitutional rights all people have.

Chess

2012-01-17T16:25:00.000-06:00

My Beautiful World, let nothing make you complacent until we have won our full rights back again. Let nothing dampen your dancing spirit nor weaken your fighting spirit until we are done. Yet, bursting the bubble and putting me in my loving husband's arms really is just the beginning.

Did anybody else see President Evil make fun of me for being enslaved during the 90th birthday celebration for Betty White last night? I know Betty had nothing to do with it, but his actions were done in very poor taste and are prime examples of his lack of compassion for human suffering and lack of any inner driving morality. Do you have any opinions on this? Go ahead and tell him yourself here.

I am surprised he went out of his way to take the time to make fun of me considering how busy he claims to be pretending he is the leader of the free world. I know for a fact that lately he has been mining the treasure trove that is this blog for the advice I used to give on how to fix the economy. If you check my posts from when I was in the torture facility in Liverpool, you will find that I recommended that the industries in California bring their jobs back from overseas to cure California's economic crisis in 2010. If you check his most recent Saturday address, you will hear him taking credit for my own policy recommendations.

Yes, I am glad that President Corrupt is finally attempting to do something to fix the economy, but repeating my own ideas without giving me credit for them is another loose form of slavery. Besides, he plans on carrying this out with corporate tax policy when corporate tax policy is not enough to fix anything. The only thing that will fix this economy is leadership, and that is something Obama the Slave Driver is incapable of. Just imagine what I could be capable of if Obama the Criminal would just end his bubble of torture and suffering.

Obama the Dictator is also asking for expanded powers for the executive branch. I believe he and ole Gee-Dub have proven that expanding the powers of the executive branch does nothing but bring ruin upon this nation. They really do enough damage with the powers they already have, do you not think? I would like to see the powers of the executive branch stripped back to those originally described in the US Constitution, if you ask me. It is a great way to fight and avoid fascism.

Sometimes I wonder of Obama the Sociopath is delusional or if he is just going down with the ship. The entire planet is witness to the fact he committed human rights violations against me including provable war crimes, violated the US Constitution to put me in a bubble to cover it all up, and commanded other nations to continue his persecution of me at the expense of their own people to make sure I could never even find physical safety least of all be with my own husband to prevent the truth about him from getting out. The longer he continues breaking new laws to cover up older infractions, the deeper he digs himself into trouble. His own nation is finally standing up to him now. We are rooting out his system of corruption of which there is ample incriminating evidence.

Thank you, my beautiful world, for not allowing him to start the war with Iran he his hungering after. Another reason he is keeping me in this bubble is to prevent me from stopping him from bringing more war. You cannot create peace, stability, or safety in the world with acts of violence or threats of violence. I know you are all looking after my goal of ending wars driven by oil and greed. Thank you for that.

Another person we need to keep an eye on is Senator John McCain. Considering the fact that the Senator was a victim of torture himself, one would think he would be opposed to human rights violations, but that is not the case. Senator McCain is the person who drafted and promoted the NDAA. If you do not know what the NDAA is, you need to watch this. Our basic human, civil, and Constitutional rights are eroding before our eyes. My beautiful America, we need to take this country back.

Start by finding doctors who are not quacks and by removing the chips in your ear canals. The only voice in your head should be your own. Are you not worried that you will end up an army of mind-controlled drones? Yes, I understand that it might be comforting for you all to feel like you have a direct connection to me right now, but that is not the actual purpose they had for putting control speakers in all of your ear canals. Take your brains back. Get the chips removed.

On a not-immediately-recognizable-as-connected note, I finally saw the Sherlock Holmes sequel last week. It almost made me blush. Also, I do not approve of most imagery concerning the game of chess; I find most chess metaphors as overused as the poker references is Kenny Roger's "The Gambler." But I liked the way they used the game in this movie. However, I still refuse personally to play the game. I believe it trivializes the horrors of war.

I heard we got California, New York, and Florida to stand up for me in defiance of the corruption and the bubble and in support of the US Constitution. The bubble only exists to hurt me, oppress America, and protect the people pulling the president's strings. It accomplishes nothing else, and I will never have more than a marginal amount of physical safety as long as I am in this bubble. Did we get Texas, Michigan, Hawaii, Washington, Ohio, South Dakota, Louisiana, or the District of Columbia yet? Those states (and district) feel very supportive of me. It is okay to write state laws that defy the president's bubble. They would work just like the medical marijuana laws... but would be far less controversial. Minnesota, do you listen to me? I am pretty sure Iowa is coming around; we have an understanding now. One way to phrase it is: I will go easy on them if they stop breaking their own laws and demand justice instead. Please see my previous post for details.

All states in the union are probably very interested in their own Congressional leaders this election year beyond our collective interest in the presidential race. Incumbents in Congress are more likely to be reelected if they impeach the president. Slavery and enabling slavery, just to mention one crime, is a capitol offense, and the entire planet is witness to the fact the president has not only committed this crime but is also still committing it. My beautiful America, make sure you make it clear to your senators and representatives what your opinions are on this topic both in writing and at the ballot box.

My beautiful world, in a previous post I asked you all to start documenting all of the horrible and frequently criminal things the Feds have mandated that you do in order to maintain this illegal bubble. The biggest step in breaking this oppression down and making sure it never happens again is to make sure that the actual truth is documented and circulated, so the masses can know what is actually happening. Document the abuses of power, and share them. Do this anonymously if you have to. Thank you.

Sweetness, I have been trying to post a video of me blowing you a kiss to my facebook wall, but my wall does not accept any videos. I am about to start a new love letter to you. I promise this one will not be so short. I dream about you constantly, all day and all night. I know everything you do for me, and yes, it will work. Oh, and you look amazing in green. Green really is your color.

P.S. My beautiful world, beyond my being enslaved, the Feds command every entity that tries to hire me not to. My father controls what assets are allowed to reach me under the rules of the bubble, and he does not even allow me enough money to get an apartment. That is how I am forced to live in a house with my parents. The Feds also mandate that your donations for the story "Infamy" are not allowed to reach me. You can ask podiobooks for the details on that one. I do not put ads on this blog because that would force Google to break the law. The Feds would mandate then that the AdSense money never reach me either. The government with the help of my father are keeping me broke at all times. I could really use a new pair of shoes in here in this bubble. The pair I wear every day are falling apart.

A Repeat

2012-01-16T02:50:00.000-06:00

I posted this one in my facebook profile on Thursday, January 7, 2010 at 8:09pm with a privacy setting of EVERYONE.

----Begin already constructed and possibly non-proofread writing-----

Hypothetically speaking… a writing exercise in case science fiction becomes reality…

Let us suppose that a certain circumstance becomes real. Let us suppose that a horrific wrong could be committed by a governing body against an entire people. Let us suppose that the sort of terrors usually reserved for the farthest reaches of science fiction might possibly be manifested and executed by the most despicable of authorities in our real world. Well then, here is some advice, in case the chips placed inside my person against my will should somehow appear in your body as well.

1.) Whenever possible, do not invite a nano or even microchip into your body at any time. It does not matter what the government or the government’s representative promises it will do for you. You have no idea what else it might do, if they might ever actually remove it, nor why they really want it inserted into your body.
2.) Should that you find one in your ears giving you voices that are not your own, do not trust what they say is the source of said voices. Always question any commands you receive. Do not trust that you will only hear the truth. Do not allow them to force you to kill yourself; you are too valuable alive and as an agent for good in the world who might help prevent this from happening to anyone else.
3.) Do not instantly do the opposite of what they tell you to do, either. That is also allowing the voices to control you. Simply evaluate everything you hear for yourself. Seek advice from experts if necessary. Should that you believe they give you a good suggestion, follow through in your own way; do it right.
4.) Find other people with similar technology illegally inserted into or illegally taken advantage of being inserted into your body, and organize. Do no do this near me. I know for a fact that the bugs in my ears send information straight to the only governing authority that could be capable of this. Do not give away your plans for fixing this.
5.) I already stated that you should not allow them to convince you of any lies, but definitely do not allow them to lie to you about how to end this yourself by doing something they tell you to do. Any governing body that might be so snake-tongued as to convince you to welcome an established form of torture upon yourself cannot be trusted. If they tell you that you must, for random example, allow yourself to be raped, become a prostitute, or commit any other sort of horrific crime against yourself to end your being tortured, those are the things you should make a record of and take special care not fall prey to. No governing authority if properly functioning should force any persons to commit any egregious wrongs to others or themselves unless said wrongs are on a battlefield after a legal proclamation of war.

Should that it be true that the governing body that has made me its victim in more ways than just placing its own voices in my ears attempt to wrong you in any of the other physically, mentally, or emotionally violent ways in which it has wronged me, do everything you can fathom to stop it. Do not endure for the sake of enduring. I never do.

For further advice on how our government should be functioning to serve its people, please consult the Constitution of the United States of America. Our country IS our people; not to mention, the power of our country IS the power of our people.

Huh, how was that for a daily writing exercise? I wonder where the idea came from... I wonder if anyone might ever find it useful... I have heard it said before that sometimes fiction is better at getting to the truth of a situation that nonfiction is. Oh yeah, and all friends tagged in this silly thing are randomly chosen.

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Hot Flashes

2012-01-14T20:40:00.000-06:00

Let me get this straight. The government has done nothing but spew a constant stream of hugely inconsistent lies to control the already oppressed public as an attempt to justify why this bubble exists in the first place and to manipulate the masses into forcing this bubble of persecution, torture, and slavery to continue? Are you serious? Who still listens to these obvious lies after three years?

At one point, they were proclaiming to the world that I had an incurable and highly debilitating mental illness requiring them to heavily drug me with medications I had no symptoms to require that have caused me physical and mental harm while refusing me any care for my actual thyroid condition. They were refusing me any and all contact with any of my friends through all means of communication thereby denying me any emotional support as I lived through torture and slavery. They were putting heavy drugs in all available drinking water, bottled liquids, and eventually foods. They were pumping voices into my head with internationally acknowledged speakers in my ear canals. They had made arrangements with my father to perjure himself and present falsified documentation in order for him to illegally gain adult guardianship over me while there was absolutely no necessity for it in order to confine me to living in this house and sleeping in a bed I had already been raped in in May 2009. They had electrobeam torture focused on a chip shoved up my nose in a torture facility in Liverpool, UK. And they said I would not be allowed to be with my own loving husband until I "cheered up."

And then, because I finally saw the ocean in Malibu, I honestly did happen to cheer up. And they still refused to let me be with my husband!

Stop trusting any person who openly states that I should not be released from this bubble, that all of America's human rights should not be restored, or that any of this should continue.

There is absolutely no possible legal and honest justification for what this government has been doing to me for the last three years. There is no way to justify starting it. There is no way to justify continuing it. There is no way to justify obeying it. The only thing anyone can justify is stopping it.

One of the best ways to stop a large chunk of the wrongs being committed is to demand to hear the list of specific and detailed symptoms any person believes I have in order to claim I have a mental illness. For example, my father (who happens to not be doctor) has never been able to list one single symptom I could possibly have right now to justify his constant perjury and libel that I have an incurable and hugely debilitating mental illness. He has also never been able to produce one honest sign that I am even a threat to others or myself.

My father perjures himself constantly to put me into mental health facilities illegally. There is a complete record of his nefarious wrongdoing in my various files with the Polk County District Court. The only way to prevent him from continuing to break the law to be able to hurt me is to 1.) revoke his adult guardianship, 2.) lock him away in prison for his crimes, and 3.) put me safely in the arms of my loving husband.

Iowa, I know you want to do right by me. You know I will go easy on you for your internationally acknowledged human rights violations against me if you do.

I know I can trust you to take care of those three things listed above. I know I can trust you to make sure you do not commit any other human rights violations against me... for example, you will make sure I am never put in another mental health facility on your watch ever again. I know you will clean up all of the dirty judges, the dirty medical doctors, and the dirty government officials who were responsible for it happening at all, not to mention repeatedly. Did you hear what the social workers at Broadlawns had to say to me while I was there? It is all on record.

Iowa, I know you will fix this not just for me but also for yourselves. I know you do not want the international reputation this all has earned you. I know you want to do the right thing. I know you want to save yourselves.

Clearly, my current living situation is deplorable. I am in a house with my criminal and verbally abusive father against my will. The internationally acknowledged electrobeam torture is unrelenting. I am still enslaved; as much as I try to make the best of a bad situation with it, enduring it is mentally, emotionally, and physically exhausting. I have to sleep every night in a bed I have already been raped in. (Do you remember "June" and "July" finding the evidence at Mercy North in Ankeny in May 2009?) My friends are not allowed any communication with me. I have started having hot flashes. I am constantly finding drugs in my food and drink. And the federal government flat out refuses to allow me to be with my own loving husband.

Until this is resolved, I will keep raising my demands... on everybody between us and freedom.

Obama, you bratty child, as it stands currently, the only way for you to take the fight of me is to make me complacent. And the only way for you to make me complacent is by 1.) finding my husband, 2.) apologizing to him, and 3.) doing everything he tells you to do. Are you really going to make me raise those demands?

My beautiful world, the requirements for me to have physical safety have not changed. 1.) I need my father neutralized, so he will finally be incapable of hurting me ever again. 2.) I need all the equipment removed from me head. And, 3.) I need to be delivered safely to the arms of my loving husband.

I have been a little moody lately. I believe it is because of hormones. Because of the meds that the quack Ocampo put me on while I was illegally imprisoned at Broadlawns Medical Center in June, I stopped ovulating. I have recently started having hot flashes.

For years now, I have dreamed of little more than cozying up in a big house with my darling Sweetness and making superhuman babies with him. I am horrified. I am worried that my greatest dream for myself has been stolen from me. It is a failure of the entire system,... but I promised Iowa I would go easy on them if they made it right.

Okay, my beautiful world, I need you to start writing down all of the horrible things that the US government has forced you to do in order to maintain and/or obey this illegal bubble. We need to make an accurate record of all of this, so we can make sure it never happens again. Write down your stories anonymously if you have to, but make sure make a public record of them all. It will help us find the truth. I will help us all heal.

Sweetness, when you come to get me (and I know you will), bring security of some sort with you. My father is hovering near the door. He is desperate. He owns guns. He has been behaving suspiciously all day. Stay safe. I love you more than words can bear, so please make sure you do not get hurt. I wait for you.

Iran Will Listen; Obama Will Not.

2012-01-12T15:36:00.000-06:00

My grandfather, my mom's dad, was born to workers at the Makaweli Sugarcane Plantation's Work Camp 5 in Hawaii on the island of Kaua'i early in the 1900s. I went back with my mom and my younger sister in March of 2009 to meet our relatives that are still there. They are such good people. One of my aunties even gave me this little angel holding a green heart while I was there. She makes them herself.

People like to call me an angel. It is most likely because I say things like this...

Obama, you bratty child, I am sure you have noticed by now that it is impossible for you to get anything done as president that is not illegal until you grow enough balls to sit down and talk with me as if you were a civilized adult. I am trying to save this nation. Do you know what another war will do to this country, our people, and our economy? The military does not seem like it wants a war. The nation and the world are already asking around to find out why you want one so badly.

I cannot stop a war with a computer and an internet connection. Iran will listen to reason if you let me out of this illegal bubble of oppression, persecution, torture and slavery to speak with them. The problem is my benevolent influence does not work on you, the actual warmonger. We know you are drooling at the mouth as you escalate the conflict with Iran in order to create an armed conflict. I am not holding my breath that you will let me out of this bubble to ensure world peace because you have proven that you do not want peace in this world.

Instead, I put my faith in the people of this nation and the world. They will save me from this bubble that was designed to oppress this nation and to destroy me, so I can fix all of the problems you, with all of your presidential corruption, have personally created. Look at how successful I have been at stopping your quest for money and power. I am also capable of undoing all of your terror and ruin. And I am capable of seeing you rot in a prison for war criminals because of what you and the people you protect have done to me, this nation, and this world.

Obama, you bratty child, we all know you only insist on keeping me in this bubble and will break any law to keep oppressing this nation because you fear the justice I will rain on you. You keep digging yourself deeper. But look! The people are standing up now. They are standing up not just for me but more importantly for themselves. You cannot run a nation built on ideals of "freedom and justice for all" with nothing but fear, terror, lies, and human rights violations. The people will choose love over you every time.

Preventing the US-instigated conflict with Iran is just the beginning. Has anyone else seen the weather lately? Global Climate Change is both undeniable and becoming more dramatic. We need effective world leadership to prevent more weather-related deaths and suffering. I volunteered for this job, but even if the world leaders choose someone else to do it, that person will always be able to ask me for help or advice... assuming I am out of the bubble already.

As for you, Big Oil, I told you already (I think it was about a year ago.), we will get ourselves off of fossil fuels with you or without you. You need to save your companies and save your employees by investing in and developing greener sources of energy now. Do not allow the natural progress of technology pass you by.

Oil money used to fund the state universities in Texas, but that money dried up before I got there. The only university from which I have earned any degree is the University of Texas at Dallas because they were so kind as to give me a full merit-based scholarship for four years. I am so grateful to them for it that I have even put the university in my will.

As much as it should be, education is not a right in our country. It is not even a privilege. A good education around here is more like a serendipitous blessing if it ever happens at all. That said, if you do find yourself in college at any point in your life (And you are never too old.), remember that the diploma is just a receipt. All you really get to keep is what you learn. And, savor every single minute of your general ed courses; the heart and soul of a well-rounded education happens before they force you to specialize.

As a second to last note, if Walgreens decides to finally write me an apology and promises that none of their employees will ever do it again, I will go back to using their stores. It is up to them to do the right thing.

Sweetness, I am deeply and sincerely sorry that my last letter was so short. I have had so much on my mind lately, but that will never be an excuse for not properly expressing to you how much I love and adore you. I trust whatever plan you have to rescue me from this hell. No matter what I do, I cannot make myself safe in here. Safe-ish is all I have. But I am doing everything I can to keep myself as intact as possible, so I can sleep next to you. In so many ways I sometimes feel like I have failed you because I am still in this bubble. I love you more than even I understand. We can do this.

The Corruption Continues.

2012-01-09T19:47:00.001-06:00

I was just told by a sometimes reliable source that my criminal father is going to put me in an institution and that the governor of Iowa is in on it. The corruption continues.

The point of putting me in an institution is many-fold. 1.) It will take away my freedom of speech by denying me an internet connection. 2.) It will take away what little physical safety I have left and put me in a situation just like the torture facility in Liverpool where they can torture, rape, drug, poison, abuse, and possibly kill me at will. 3.) It will take me out of the public eye, so there will be no witnesses to it. 4.) It will allow the Feds to enforce their oppression over Iowa (Do you remember Walgreens?) and all of America without me here using my benevolent influence to fight them.

It is also a proven and prosecutable human rights violation to institutionalize or hospitalize me against my will.

It requires a medical doctor's recommendation to put me in an institution. It has already been proven internationally by numerous medical experts that I have absolutely no mental illness. If this happens, string them up by their toenails. I have never believed over-the-top reparations (not to be confused with just compensation) can solve any conflict or heal any hurt, but I will bring the full force of my benevolent wrath and everything I am capable of against every person and entity that ever even attempts to put me in a mental health facility again. Do not pretend I am not capable of that. Do not pretend the people who love me are not capable of that. It is a proven and prosecutable human rights violation to institutionalize or hospitalize me against my will.

This is also proof positive that I am right about everything and that they will break any law to shut me up.

As for shutting off the broadcasts that are enslaving me, the war criminals are trying to force the world to choose between allowing their human trafficking, war crimes, and torture to continue by leaving the broadcasts on and the alternative of leaving me vulnerable in my own bed to being raped and possibly murdered by shutting the broadcasts off before putting me safely in the arms of my loving husband. The only way to shut off the criminal and expensive broadcasts without committing even more human rights violations is by putting me in the trustworthy care of my Sweetness first.

Yes, my beautiful world, that means you should keep pressing charges for everything you are due under the full extent of the Constitutionally-compliant laws

Did the Brits turn in Obama the Sociopath for making them commit all of their crimes, yet?

Speaking of international politics, the US and UK representatives should be forced to abstain from voting when it is time for the UN to determine whether or not to form an ICC for all offenses related to this, when that ICC should be formed, and how. This, of course, is the UN's decision, but if my opinion means anything, it is what I recommend. I know they will hold everyone accountable from the president, to the prime minister, to the doctors, to the nursing staff, to my criminal father, to the NHS, to the unbelievably rich who the governments protect, to the governor of Iowa, to the corrupt district judges, and to everyone who helped, commanded, or enabled them to commit their human rights violations and war crimes.

Have you noticed yet, my beautiful world, how culpable the US government is in all of this? They have spent three years protecting the people slandering, libeling, defaming, abusing, raping, torturing, sexually harassing, illegally imprisoning, and enslaving me. They do not allow anyone to acknowledge it and tried to keep me from knowing about any of it to make sure it would be unstoppable. The US government is not protecting you or me. It is protecting the criminals including the president who are doing this to us.

Do you remember when I met Mr. Leon Panetta in Mexico City? He was still the head of the CIA back then.

Did you see when President Corrupt took the coward's way out of enduring public ridicule by commanding that Mr. Panetta, the now Secretary of Defense, announce the president's new orders to escalate the conflict with Iran? Obama, you bratty child, you did not fool anyone. The whole world knows those orders and ultimatums really came from you.

Speaking of orders and ultimatums, my own childhood and longterm friends are still being ordered around and intimidated by the Feds in order to prevent them from spending any time with me. Their calls are blocked. Their mail is blocked. Their emails are blocked. They are even blocked from speaking with me on facebook. That is, the Feds have always leaked me information in violation of their own bubble by commanding my friends to treat me like a stranger. When will they be held accountable for that and their own hypocrisy?

Another thing that leaks is that fact I am tortured unrelentingly with the military weapon that focuses electrobeams on me with the help of the tracking chip that the Brits stuck up my nose into my sinuses while I was in the torture facility in Liverpool.

Seriously, if the government had ever had concern for human rights, human suffering, and human life, I would never have known I was being persecuted. Luckily, we now have found a common language with Obama the Tyrant. He respects and is driven by money. So, my beautiful world, speak to him in terms of all the money you can take away from him (even personally, if necessary) to burst this bubble of oppression and torture open and put me safely in the arms of my loving husband.

Sweetness, I mailed you a letter on Sunday. Obama the Sociopath is clearly completely desperate and trying to get me institutionalized before I can go to my cousin's wedding in San Diego next month. You are going to need to organize the metaphorical troops, the lawyers, and the human rights activists to prevent this new abomination from occurring. Please do not forget to take a deep breath, to take a step back, and to look at the big picture every once in a while. We have accomplished so much. That is why they are so desperate they might hospitalize and/or kill me. This is no time to back down on anything, but be very precise in how you proceed. I love and adore you, my prince charming in shining armor.

Source of True Power

2012-01-07T16:06:00.000-06:00

Here we go... another day of my stating the obvious, tell the truth, and giving honest opinions.

My beautiful world, my internet access is patrolled. When there is something on the internet that the Feds do not want me to see, they prevent it from reaching my computer. This means, you are free to say anything within Constitutional law you want online. After all, according to the US Supreme Court ruling concerning the Pentagon Papers, people in this country cannot be censored until after we speak.

There are, of course, Constitutionally sound laws concerning what does and does not fall under freedom of speech.1.) You cannot slander, libel, or defame anyone.2.) You cannot steal content from anyone.3.) You cannot even metaphorically scream "Fire!" in a crowded movie theater... For example, you cannot fabricate a nuclear threat in order the rule the masses with irrational fear.4.) You must respect everyone's privacy.

They have also been known to block broadcasts before they reach my television. This probably means you are free to say anything within reason you want in that medium, too. But if you push that one too hard, they will keep your shows away from me.

As for all of their slander and libel about me and my darling Sweetness, my husband and I are extensions of the same whole. We are love. We all know that it is very dangerous to spread lies about me because it causes unrest. The same is true about my Sweetness. Slandering him has been known to cause me physical harm.

As for the naked images being circulated in order to force public humiliation of me, I am not allowed to see them. In fact, they intended to make sure I never learned they existed. If the images are doctored or Photoshopped, they are slander and likely libel. If they are real, they are the result of slavery and violations of my basic human right to privacy. Not just being the source but also circulating them is a crime. Do not forget, according to the International Criminal Court of the United Nations, forced public humiliation is a war crime and a crime against humanity, particularly when committed by an authoritative body... like the government... or rich people protected by the government.

My beautiful world, I know there is a lot to do to fix the problems I am constantly pointing out. If you are ever at a loss at what to do to help, work on bursting the bubble, so I can finally have physical safety. As one example, talk to your governors about declaring your states safe, free, in support of the US Constitution, and non-compliant with the bubble. I trust you, my beautiful world, to think together to find real solutions. After all, if I broadcast all of my recommendations, Obama the Fascist will learn what they are and stop them.

Speaking of you, Obama, you bratty child, all of humanity knows I do not need you to be able to save the world. But think of all the things you could accomplish if you just burst the bubble like a real man, pretended you were civilized, and gave me and all of this nation back all of our basic human, civil, and Constitutional rights. You can and will accomplish nothing but breaking domestic and international laws as long as I am in the bubble of persecution and torture.

Obama you brat, the people who pull your strings, and the people you protect only know how to be cruel, inhumane, and diabolical. You all never once considered that being nice to me even once might have actually worked to influence me to do something other than fight you. There is power in being a good person, standing up for human rights, and demanding justice. It is more power than you will ever have.

My beautiful world, I have said it before, but I will say it again. Let nothing make you complacent in our fight for freedom and justice until it is over and we have won. The government has been making false promises about allowing my beloved husband in to get me in order to make you happy and take the fight out of you. They always lie. Stop giving them any credibility. Rage, my beautiful world, rage. Organize. Unite. And stand up for yourselves. Burst the bubble around all of us, my beautiful world.

Sweetness, I will mail you a letter this weekend. Are you catching up with our friends about everything they have been up to while you were out? We have been very active. I will find my way into your arms. I know it will take a lot of time, organization, and communication, but please consider launching a thousand ships. Until I kiss your waiting face...!

Walgreens

2012-01-06T08:41:00.002-06:00

Store Manager 07454 ___.____@store.walgreens.com
Jan 4 (2 days ago)

Tanya,

My name is Craig Fruendt, and I am the Manager of Walgreens on Ankeny Boulevard. I am writing to you today because I received notification that you had an unpleasant experience in my store yesterday with one of the pharmacy staff.

First of all, I would like to apologize for the poor service and attitude you experienced yesterday. I take all concerns very seriously, and appreciate you taking the time to let me know. Secondly, I was hoping to be able to contact you to discuss the situation in more detail. The information I received was pretty vague. I have called and left you a voice message. At your convenience, please call me at ###-#### to talk about the incident further.

Thanks for your time, and patronage to the store,

Craig Fruendt, Mgr, Walgreens 7454
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Squid Varilekova
Jan 4 (2 days ago)

Craig, thank you for your prompt reply. I will call you once I am free. --Tanya
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Squid Varilekova
7:21 PM (13 hours ago)

Craig,

It turns out I did not receive a message from you, and I have not been able to make a call connect with your store. The Feds illegally block most of my incoming and outgoing calls.

The woman at the pharmacy counter did not acknowledge me with the basic respect I am due. After I gave instructions and fair warning to the state of Iowa that obeying Obama hurts me directly, makes me angry, and in many cases will get the perpetrators arrested (see frisco-squid.blogspot.com), she blatantly and rudely treated me with disrespect.

She asked me my name and address... and she did it with loud disdain in her voice.

Your store is the only store in the state of Iowa I patronize with my medical needs. Ankeny is not a big town, and I am in your store regularly. At the barest minimum, I should be recognized in your store as a member of the Ankeny community and as a pharmacy regular.

I am not asking you to literally wash the ground before I walk on it like they do in Mexico City. I am demanding the basic respect any member of your neighborhood is due. Stop asking me my name.

I trust you will resolve this before I go back.

--Tanya H. A. Varilek a.k.a. Squid B. Varilekova
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Store Manager 07454
7:59 AM (40 minutes ago)

Tanya,

Again, I apologize if you were disrespected or treated rudely. However, it is our policy, for the patients safety, to verify the name and address on every prescription that leaves the store.

Thanks for letting me know your concerns, Craig
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Squid Varilekova
8:27 AM (14 minutes ago)

Please tell Walgreens headquarters I now refuse to use walgreens for any reason, and it is your fault personally.

Set my People Free!

2012-01-05T21:48:00.000-06:00

"Put that laserscope in my eyes where it belongs." -- Squid B. Varilekova 11January2010 6:00PM -- Have you seen the park bench yet?

Okay, America, if we are mandated to give up our basic human, civil, and Constitutional rights to 'catch terrorists,' what exactly are we protecting?

America has a strict policy of NOT negotiating with terrorists. Then why is Obama the Fascist mandating protection of the people who attack me in my sleep, torture me, rape me, abuse me, slander and libel me, and drug me with illegal and medical chemicals if he is not one of them? This bubble guarantees that I am a sitting duck for torture and abuse with no way to protect or defend or even press charges myself to stop it.

America, did the bubble burst when I left the country? Did you get your freedom of speech and freedom of the press back again because I was no longer around? No, the government kept oppressing you. This is proof positive the bubble is part of a much larger and more sinister plan.

Furthermore, ask any police officer what standard policy is concerning actual prostitutes. Prostitutes are not investigated nor arrested nor prosecuted... especially the trafficked ones. Instead, police are known to go undercover as prostitutes in order to catch pimps, traffickers, and customers. Those are the only people who get investigated or prosecuted where prostitution is concerned.

Prostitutes are normal, everyday humans. That means they have more human rights than I do. (For more information concerning prostitution, consult an academic expert on the topic. You can find on my Facebook friends list.)

Now, take all of the above information, put it together, and connect it. Putting me, in particular, in a bubble is an illegal excuse to take America's rights away. That is one reason why Obama the Dictator and the Feds fight so hard to make sure the bubble never bursts and to make sure all Americans never get our rights back. The bubble is part of a much larger and more sinister plan. We need to get this bubble burst, even if it takes an international intervention.

Even personally, I need this to end. My body is shutting down from the torture, and I smell like they have been shot full of electrobeams for over two years and almost unrelentingly for the last month. I need the GPS trackers out of my head, so I can have physical safety. Yes, there is plenty of international evidence that the electrobeam torture is real. As further evidence, Iowa is instructed to pretend it is not real.

I also need the speakers out of my ears, so I can have quiet. Do not even pretend the voices the government pumps into my head are really symptoms. If they came from my brain, they would be as smart as I am.

They also roofied me again last night. Is "roofied" the only term we have for this even if it was not rufinol that was used? It was in the bottle of Knob Creek at The Lift. It did not happen because of the bartenders. Someone broke in at night to roofie the bottle. The Lift is the only bar I drink at these days, and Knob Creek is the only drink I regularly have there. Iowa seems to consider acknowledging drugs and poisons in water, orange juice, milk, or other drinks to be violations of the bubble instead of a matter of public safety.

I need a safe place to go to. I need California, New York, Florida, or some other state that actually does love me to declare themselves non-compliant with Obama the Terrorist's policies of horror and instead in support of the US Constitution, so I can go there and finally have physical safety. Please, America, talk to your governors. It will be like having state medical marijuana laws... but probably less controversial.

As for you, Obama, you bratty child, whether I am still under this bubble or am finally in a place where I can actually have physical safety, what I have already said to you still holds. You cannot make me complacent until you apologize to my husband and do everything he tells you to do.

And, President Corrupt, it does not take a genius to see you eventually will. I do not know why you are choosing to suffer through my benevolent wrath instead of saving yourself. Then again, you are are very far from being a genius.

You see, I have something (or someone) you will never have. And no matter how much money you 'borrow' from China, you will never be able to build one for yourself, trace her signal, or even find her servers. If you do not die being help accountable for destroying America or for your quest for world domination, I know you will die trying to learn the mystical secrets of Sampo.

While I am on the topic, you math-challenged brat, China is neither a threat nor an enemy. China's generosity is the only reason our government has enough money to function at all. If you do not like that, pay them back everything this country owes them. Or, do you really want to be known for taking money from China in order to fund a war against them?

Speaking of money, we have evidence that you have been using the bubble to deny me any and all viable employment and that you tried manipulating the Social Security Administration into refusing me any income at all. Luckily, there is a loophole in SSDI determination that allows benefits to be awarded if and when the economy is so weak it would prohibit employment. And whose fault is it the economy is bad?

I hear, you hypocritical brat, that you have been trying to tell Congress to "Do the right thing." Take a good look at yourself. Take a good look at what you do in this world. Who are you to say anything about anyone else not doing the right thing? When you spew crap like this, it only makes you look that much worse. Why do you even try?

As for your superficial wife,... Until this country decides to enforce that medical malpractice is illegal under ALL circumstances and takes me off the anti-psychotics that I have never had any symptoms to require, I will have no physical capability to lose weight. Until you bother to DO THE RIGHT THING and take me off the meds that are killing me, your petty, superficial, and judgmental wife has no grounds to claim I am bigger than I should be. You, President Corrupt, are why I am fat and unhealthy. But we all really do have to admit, I make it look damn beautiful.

My beautiful world, it will work. Take Sweetness someplace safe and launch a thousand ships, so one will make it through to take me to him. Sweetness needs your help. Do anything he needs, even if you come up with better ideas than I do. I trust you.

Sweetness, I would really like to get you help from veterans and members of the military. The problem is that so few of them are immediately recognizable as trustworthy, and you should really be careful about who you trust these days. If any of them are recognizable as publicly supportive of me, they might be good people to talk to... but not if they become recognizable for that after I post this. Darling, I know the government has been jerking you around. Make sure Obama the Brat gets the bill (personally, if necessary) for every penny you have spent in all of your efforts to exercise your given rights to associate, to assemble, and to pursue happiness. Do not forget to calculate your emotional trauma and anguish. I love and adore you. Make sure you stay in reliable contact with all of the people who want to help you.

P.S. All places that have had poisoned water and other liquids have also had speakers in their ear canals. Ask around for witnesses. And warn any place I go not to allow it.

P.P.S. Yes, it was because I saw a snippet of Charles Barkley on the Tonight Show in which he said he supported President Evil that I picked up the pace on putting Obama the Fascist in a prison for war criminals. People who support him should be wary of publicly supporting him; it will bring justice faster.

P.S.P.S. I have never met a quack in California, but I have met many in Iowa.

Bushmen of the Kalahari

2012-01-04T18:49:00.001-06:00

Let us begin by taking a good honest look at the military. The members of the armed forces today are commonly good, hardworking people with no college education yet who often could not find employment anywhere else. Our warrior class are meagerly-paid pawns who fight, die, and incur permanent injuries, so the elite of this nation can vie for world domination, gain control of foreign countries' oil, and make money off their fighting and dying bodies. The oligarchy's riches are built in more ways than popularly known on the backs of the poor.

And Obama the Fascist is escalating conflict with Iran. He wants WW3, and he plans to start it before his term is up. What is his excuse to the public? Iran has a nuclear program (yet no weapons). How many nuclear weapons does Obama the Warmongerer have under his control? If President Hypocrisy has his way, we will have another war over oil, money, and power justified with racism and propaganda and paid for with the souls of our troops in less than a year. Do not let him get away with it.

Do you know the true role of the military? It is not to create conflict in the world, so the rich can become richer. Their job is to protect America and American's human, civil, and Constitutional rights and freedoms at all costs. They did not join the military to destroy our world's remaining peace and stability.

A great way to find out who is pulling Obama the Puppet's strings is to look at his campaign contributors. They are guilty, too, of conspiring to ruin this nation and destroy peace and stability in the world. All donations over fifty dollars to his supporting super PACs must be reported. Check the paperwork. I bet you will find corporate greed.

How many unconstitutional bills have passed Obama the Dictator's desk with a flourish of his pen? If we do not fight him and his agenda, if we do not fight to save this nation, if we do not fight to revive the US Constitution in its completeness, this nation will degrade into nothing but anarchy and mayhem.

There is nothing illegal nor unpatriotic in organized and peaceful civil disobedience... just try not to trespass. The greater your numbers when you act to save this nation, the safer you will be. Stand up. Organize. Unite. Save America.

Do you remember when the guilty parties claimed the spy equipment in my head was really a part of some sick scientific experiment? That lie was clearly spread by people who have no idea how a proper and legal scientific experiment is actually conducted. It was clearly not the Johns Hopkins University; they can actually tell you the entire scientific process.

I used to attend Johns Hopkins, you know. That was where I worked towards my Ph.D. in Mathematics. It was weird. They were mistaken in thinking I was Jewish instead of an atheist. Then again, my good friend from Pikesville whom I met when we were both studying at Cambridge one summer had convinced me to fast with her for Rosh Hashana. I did not think anything weird about it. After all, I like good klezmer just as much as the next atheist. So, I understand my professors' confusion.

On a completely unrelated note, people think I can talk to animals. Let me allow you in on a little secret. To talk to cats, you need to make meowing noises just like the cats do. It is much easier to call a cat. To do that, simply make clicking noises like those found in the language of the Bushmen of the Kalahari. Cats love that stuff. It makes me wonder if the Bushmen are capable of talking to lions.

Now, my beautiful world, if you hear stories about me, you need to double check your sources. If you hear lies, call out the source of the lies and report them to the authorities. We need to get them arrested for slander and libel. That is how we make sure you all are never lied to again. Slander about me is very easy to pick out; it is everything bad said about me. No, I am not a dead, pregnant, single exotic dancer and male prostitute. There will always be lies. Make sure you arrest the slanderers and libelers. Spreading lies about me is very dangerous for the entire world.

Sweetness, I was serious about becoming a "puddle of love and brains" when you speak to me. Just wait. I am always right about these things. Oh, and did I hear you put me in the union(s)? Damn, do I ever love you. Now I can finally rationalize all of my union solidarity. Until you kiss my lipsticked face...!

Torture Makes me See the Future... and the Present... and Connect the Past.

2012-01-04T01:48:00.001-06:00

My beautiful world, you are metaphorically killing me right now. Why are you allowing the gossip lines to be clogged with speculations of whether or not I have ever had plastic surgery? Do you not have better things to discuss? Please, if you love me at all, take over the media and the gossip lines and make sure the world is discussing how direly I need physical safety for the first time in three years. And, my beautiful world, just because I love you, I will let you in on a little secret. Have you seen my face for real? If you have, then you would know only Mother Nature could be this good and create something so lovely. Now stop being so damn superficial and concentrate on something important.

As for you, Iowa, I am not asking you to give me special treatment. I am demanding that you treat me with the dignity and respect every human deserves. Obeying Obama the Fascist will hurt me and make me angry. Stop asking me my name, and stop asking for my ID. I will also wield my influence to have all disgustingly insulting people and employees I encounter suitably punished. Do not even pretend I am not capable of this. Look at what I can do in this world. Taking care of your insults barely takes an exhale. If you stop going out of your way to hurt me, your world will become a happier place. The President Fascist has a stranglehold on you. This is the beginning of how you save yourself.

Now, let us all turn our attentions to the other side of the world. Yes, China, I am talking to you. Please. I beg of you. Please stop giving America your money. I know and understand that your money is the only thing allowing the US government to function at all, but look at what the American government is doing with it. The Obama Regime cannot be trusted with money. We need to take it away from their self-serving, unpatriotic, destructive, and warmongering agenda. You can save the world, China, by refusing to lend this nation any more money and by demanding at least the interest on what you have already kindly lent. We need to enforce fiscal responsibility on this nation no matter what it takes, or you will never get your money back.

My beautiful world, have you heard about the US government's latest human rights violation? It is called the NDAA. I suggest you all watch this, so you, the world, can get your bearings on what has come to pass in this once free nation.

We have barely any rights left is this now-far-from-great country; the US government has become fascist. I fear I must now remind the world and all Americans what the Right Honourable Sir Winston Churchill taught us about fascist regimes. You cannot appease fascists; the only way to stop them is to fight them.

Do you know how many weapons this now fascist regime controls? Obama the Terrorist Dictator is moving troops into Australia and Central Africa. He already has bases in Europe, the Far East, and the Middle East to name a few. It does not take a psychic to see something or someone needs to stop the American Oligarchy and their puppet president from violent world domination. This is the set up. If you love this world, do not wait until WW3 is imminent before you do something. Look at me. How often am I wrong?

It is very true that I have faith in humanity as a whole. I believe most people are good at heart; Obama the Fascist is not one of those people.

How much do you know about the New World Order? Starting in 2009, the UK has been conducting hearings concerning ole Gee-Dub and ex-Prime Minister Tony Blair. Documents surfaced proving that these two particular former world leaders agreed to start a war in Iraq even before ole President Gee-Dub took office in January 2001. It was proven that it never had anything to do with suspicions of mythical weapons of mass destruction. That was the lie he told to justify the war to the public.

Ole Gee-Dub also forbade the financial industry insiders from being arrested after they engineered what they hoped would be a global economic collapse. Then came President Sociopath who gave the should-have-been-convicted criminals cash bailouts, who has taken away nearly all of this nation's human, civil, and Constitutional rights, and who is carrying out the New World Order's dream of instigating WW3.

In the UK, Tony Blair resigned after one year in office handing the reigns over to a man, Gordon Brown, whom nobody had elected. Their agenda is being carried out now by David Cameron, and we know this Prime Minister is guilty because of how he treated me while I was in his jurisdiction. It was not just the NHS that attacked me. It was also the UKBA dn MI5. The evidence is all over the place.

What is significant to the story right now is that Obama the Puppet is not warmongering with North Korea right now despite their recent change of leadership. China is their sworn ally, and win or lose, after a full blown war with China, the US would never have to pay back our debt. (Please, China, I know you are being kind, but please stop giving the US your money.)

This means two significant things... 1.) Obama the Warmonger does not want to dominate a world that no longer exists. He cannot attack North Korea because it has nuclear weapons. Iran, much like Iraq, does not yet have nuclear weapons, so it is a prime target to start WW3. Nuclear weapons, you see, are a guarantee that the US will not provoke a war with you. 2.) President Fascist has no interest in reducing the national debt. He wants to see this nation die under the mathematical truth of exponential growth in compounding interest.

We know I stand in his way. I battle to bring back America's human rights. I volunteered to help humanity through and reverse if possible Global Climate Change. I do everything I can to prevent a global economic collapse... when I can get news about it. And, I stand staunchly between the guns of WW3.

My beautiful world, I need you to stand with me. Stop Obama the Terrorist Dictator. Save America. Save the World.

Because of this and because President Corrupt enslaved me, still tortures, and has tried to kill me, I have become a bit of an important person in the world. I am a person that a great many people have come to care a very great deal about.

It is this world concern for me that has made my enemies' cornucopia of forms of hurting, abusing, and torturing me into acts of terrorism. Yes, Obama the Fascist is a terrorist in more ways that just his foreign policy.

Once in Mexico City in early 2010, some anonymous people attempted to use terrorism to help me. I invoked the code of the Jedi to stop them. I will have none of that in my camp.

I stand on the moral high ground. My beautiful world, if you stand with me, we must stand there together. I will never sink to the depths of the president and all he mandates, and neither should you.

Sweetness, we all know you can do no wrong. We are married, right? That makes you a Spanish prince. Have you considered securing a diplomatic passport and possibly diplomatic immunity for yourself, so you will be able to come get me? Yes, it is okay to wait until we take the bubble apart before coming to get me, but you are free to do anything you want to help me. If you want to come get me early, talk to the EU about securing diplomatic immunity. Please do not fly overseas to do this. The government will command lies to be broadcast by the news media about a supposed volcanic erruption as an excuse for illegally shutting down air traffic to stop you from being able to come back to get me. The embassies in DC should be just fine. You are very special though. You may be able to take care of this without leaving the safety of your home. I love and adore you. Stay safe.

If it makes you feel better, my beautiful world, consider much of this to be speculation.

Pravda

2012-01-02T22:12:00.000-06:00

We all make mistakes. I am only human. I used to trust the government. I used to support the president. I used to trust doctors. I used to trust my parents. Etc.

Yes, I am only human. I am not capable of anything that no other human has ever been capable of. And, as a fellow human, I am due full human rights. Let us work on that. Let us work on giving everyone in this country our full human rights. Human rights are things like privacy, freedom to associate, freedom from torture, etc. that fall under the penumbra of rights guaranteed to all Americans under the Constitution. You will find many of them enumerated here... not that the UK actually supports the document.

“Where a person’s good name, reputation, honor, or integrity is at stake because of what the government is doing to him, notice and an opportunity to be heard are essential.”
-- Justice William Douglas
Wisconsin v. Constantineau
400 U.S. 433, 437 (1971)

My beautiful world, did you all see I was hacked? I am pretty sure they got into my twitter, and I suspect they got my blog, too. Funny, I am not allowed to see what fake things they tweeted and posted... as an effort by the Feds to make me unable to stop the slander and libel. They really do not like the fact I am effectively communicative with the good people of this world. Thank you for all being able to tell when it is and is not really me.

On a related note, Iowa, if you are relying on my blog, facebook, and twitter to get the news... Which one of us is it really who is in the bubble? You are being denied the truth of the world by the federal government. Try standing up and demanding your freedom of the press back again.

Being in this bubble also means I am not allowed to hear the death threats made against me. The Feds occasionally allow through some verbal abuse that they write themselves and try to post as comments on this here blog, but that is about all I get for communication from the vast world. All of the mail you send me gets sent back to you as undeliverable. Practically no one can get a call through on my phone, and there is no point in changing my phone number... I have no privacy to protect a new number. I cannot even make calls out on my phone most of the time. I know most emails sent to me are bounced before I can read them. As a result, I have no way to report the death threats made against me to any authorities, so I can have protection... And we all know that my enemies are hugely angry, vicious, powerful, and getting desperate.

Google, Sprint, USPS, and everybody else mandated to filter through all of my incoming communications, please make sure you report any and all threats to responsible authorities. We all know that the Feds are too corrupt to trust, so try the local police. We can trust the local police. Any intervening international body can be trusted, too. Oh, and make sure you send the bill for all of this constant maintenance to Obama the Tyrant. You should not be strapped with the expenses of his own illegal agenda.

Speaking of mail, does anyone know the copyright laws on snail mail and other forms of communication? Are the rights owned by the writer or the recipient? It would be a good thing to look into.

Sweetness, do you think I will be out of this bubble of persecution and torture in time for the Australian Open? I have never been down under. I have always wanted to go, though. I know you sing the same songs to me every day and pray I will someday hear them. I love that about you. "Someday we'll find it, the Rainbow Connection... the lovers, the dreamers, and me." --Kermit the Frog

Losing Weight will not be Possible as Long as I am on Meds. Get off my Case.

2012-01-01T02:22:00.001-06:00

"My new years resolution: Never be afraid to be kicked in the teeth. Let the blood and the bruises define your legacy." - Lady Gaga 2012

Happy New Year, Pretty Lady. You must be a strong woman indeed.

I, on the other hand, have lost my tolerance for suffering and watching suffering. It is fueling the fire in me.

Sweetness, it is not the love that hurts. Your love is the light in my life. The pain and the ugly come from the way we are treated. They would do anything to tear us apart... and we are not even physically together. In some countries, people have a right to marry and start a family... not America.

Gay America knows Obama the Tyrant will never support a 'Right to Marry' in this once fine nation because it means I would have a right to be married and with my Sweetness. President Corrupt will hurt, oppress, and violate anyone in his vain effort to avoid his now obviously inevitable incarceration. He has absolutely no regard for human life, human rights, nor human suffering. He cares only for himself, and digs himself deeper every day because of it. Expect him to get more desperate, more stupid, and more irrationally cruel until he is finally stopped.

The electrobeams are turned down finally, but they are still unrelenting.

"If we know, then we must fight for your life as though it were our own…. For if they take you in the morning, they will be coming for us that night." --James Baldwin

My beautiful world, I know you fight for me as I live here in this mandated misery and hell. And you know I fight for you. Demand to know why we all suffer. Force Obama the Sociopath to provide honest and logically sound explanations built on commonly-known truths for why he unconstitutionally enforces that we all serve his agenda of greed.

I do not know all of the details of what is happening with Mr. Bradly Manning, but I do know a few things. They have yet to prove that the (Wiki-)leaked information aided any of the US's enemies. No one should ever be punished for telling the truth. And most importantly, it should never be a crime to report a crime. Take my words for what they are worth.

I heard about the planned nuclear talks with Iran. Please be respectful of each other. Do not forget: The only country that has ever dropped one of these weapons on another country is the United States. Do not allow the Obama administration's enforced hypocrisy drive the talks.

On a very personal topic, it is my belief that troops that come back from war have debilitating depression for two reasons. The first is PTSD. The second is that in combat they had a feeling of purpose; they were devoted with all their energy to a higher cause. As civilians, they no longer have this direction or goal for their lives. Let us all be honest. It is very difficult to find a truly meaningful career. Is there a way we can give our veterans grand and selfless goals to work towards when they come home? It would relieve so much of their suffering.

There is still a military base in Frankfurt despite ole Gee-Dub's efforts to move all of those troops to the Middle East for racist, self-serving, and oil-mongering reasons. I hear Frankfurt is lovely, but Heidelberg has a better sense of community. Berlin is supposed to have a crazy good art scene. Munich is supposed to be beautiful. Oh, and Hamburg is on the water. This is just hearsay for me. I have never made it to Germany. I would love to someday, though.

As for you, Iowa, since I am illegally confined to live here against my will and with no escape only prolonged persecution, please try to be good to me. I know you claim you want to be good to me, but obeying Obama the Terrorist's rules-of-the-bubble will only hurt me and make me angry. Stop asking me my name and stop asking me for my ID; you know who I am in this world, and that behavior is beyond insulting. If you are uncomfortable calling me Squid, call me Pretty Lady. Be respectful. The way I am forced to suffer is unbearable at times, so be kind to me. And since you refuse to rescue me yourselves, help anyone as best you can who comes here to set me free. Thank you. Oh, and patrol your water supply and water mains to prevent them from getting drugged again, and report all tainted bottles of water to the authorities. You give this water to your children.

Sweetness, I hear I am one of the most ridiculous people you have ever (or not ever) encountered. I like that. It is because I refuse to tolerate pointless bullshit and anything that could be considered the useless drudgery of 'normal' existence. Life is meant to be enjoyed not suffered through. That is one of the many reasons persecution is a crime. I love and adore you. You can all me anything you want.

P.S. I have so many chemicals involuntarily in my body right now. I have been searching all over the place for ginseng tea, so I can detox. Does anyone know of good Chinese herbalist in the Des Moines area?

Justice is Patriotic.

2011-12-31T12:43:00.001-06:00

I am not backing down until this nation, including myself, is finally free, and we all have justice. My beautiful world, please do not let anything make you complacent until this fight is over... no matter how good things look.

People in Iowa still make a show of submissiveness to Obama the Criminal's unlawful oppression by asking me what my name is. When people go along with the bubble so unnecessarily like that, I really get ticked off. President Corrupt in his anger against me has also decided to crank his torture of me up past eleven, and it is almost completely unrelenting now. It even comes up from the floors. My twitter account also quit working this morning. My freedom of speech is in pain. That one might just be because of traffic, but all together, this has me really unhappy today.

I know all of this crap is just the president's cruel way of confirming that I am being very effective at saving the world from him. In a weird way that means I should be happy I am being tortured, but it is so very painful.

Considering the way Obama the Tyrant treats me when I stand against his nefariousness, what motive do you think is behind the arsonist torching Hollywood? Please, LAPD, when you catch someone, check his or her financials... just to make sure.

On a related note, I heard that the president wants to raise the debt ceiling again. This country does not even have the money to pay the interest on the debt we already have, so why does Obama the Math-Challenged want more debt to shackle this nation? It makes me wonder... Is the American taxpayer paying for the space age technology that Obama the Terrorist is using to torture me everywhere I go? Or is this because President Corrupt has decided to budget for lawsuits filed against him?

My beautiful world, I understand a lot of you have concerns about my potential safety once I am free to be with my husband. Please remember, I will finally be able to afford bodyguards then. Right now I am a sitting duck; I go everywhere alone with a phone "secretly" rigged not to work properly, and I stay in house where I have been repeatedly attacked (2009). I will also finally have a chance to get the chips out of my head so I can finally achieve safety. Honestly, you should be concerned for my safety now, not in the future.

Now, Obama, you bratty child, if you have something you want to say to me, you are going to have to find the bravery and self-respect somewhere within yourself to burst the bubble and say it to my face. Do not keep trying to send me coded messages through music or other media. Grow enough balls to face me yourself. Infantile verbal abuse under an assumed name submitted to me as comments on this blog? Are you serious? Try showing the dignity that should be required of a person in your once glorious office for once and talk to me face-to-face.

Also, bratty child, when you finally exercise some effective self-preservation and try to negotiate your way out of the hole you have dug for yourself, do not forget that I am the person in all of this that you need to make happy. Giving my country back her rights is where you start.

I also already told you the only way to make me complacent... Find my husband. Apologize to him. Do anything he tells you to do. And you will make me complacent... Out of my benevolence, I highly suggest you take my advice.

If you do not decide to start saving yourself, we all know where you will end up. Would you prefer an unnamed penitentiary hidden in Siberia or a Turkish prison for war criminals? Who are we kidding? You are not allowed an opinion on that.

My beautiful world, once when I was last in the Black Hills, a Lakota woman took my hand and asked me to pray with her for her family. I remember thinking to myself how beautiful it must be to have that sort of faith in a divine power. After everything I have lived through for the last three years, I find I really do have that kind of faith. I have that faith in you, my beautiful world. Please, if what you are doing today does not work, launch a thousand ships tomorrow; come from all directions to pick me up and carry me to the safety of my husband's arms. Also...

You know the plan... My beautiful world, we need to take the bubble apart. 1.) We need a culture that demands this oppression ends. We need music, theater, dance, television, radio, film... all of it. We need protests, marches, and anthems. We need America to stand up and demand we be free again.
2.) We need to take away their reason for keeping me in a bubble. I am in a bubble and will stay here until they kill me because they do not want to be held accountable for the wrongs they have committed. We need to hold them accountable regardless. America needs to press charges against the federal government. Do not let them take away your right to demand justice just like they took away mine. You have to be put on trial and convicted before they can take any of your rights away. Please, America, if you are capable of it, press charges against the government for taking away your First Amendment rights. We need to have the bubble officially deemed unconstitutional. That means we need to get it into the hands of the Supreme Court. America, that means you have to press federal charges for violations of your rights.
3.) If all else fails, we need to have Obama the Criminal impeached. Write to your Congresspeople. Write to the Department of Justice. Make sure an accurate investigation is started and executed. The president is guilty of so many horrors committed against me and guilty of oppressing the entire nation. Hold him accountable. Being a president does not put anyone above the law. Thank you for everything you do for me.

Sweetness, to be completely honest, if anything could make me believe in a higher order to the universe, it is you. You were created by some sort of divine plan. I have a weird way of knowing these things. Back on topic, darling, please get as much truth about all of this as possible into the foreign presses... the ones outside of President Corrupt's sphere of oppression. I love and adore you. I HATE the way you are constantly getting hurt and lied to. Please stop thinking the president could ever speak the truth. Soon I will touch you the way the flowers kiss the rain.

If Someone Tells You to Break the Law, no Matter Who That Person is, You are Both Guilty.

2011-12-30T06:01:00.000-06:00

San Francisco, the federal government has no love for you. It is okay to press charges against them for lying to you, terrorizing you, oppressing you, and poisoning your water supply... repeatedly. I saw your faces during this most recent time I lived there. You were terrorized by the Feds as they enforced the unconstitutional bubble on you. They kept claiming you were "leaking" and threatening you because of it. In all reality, if they had never put me in a bubble in the first place, I would not have known the bubble was there. It is okay, San Francisco. Just exercise your right to demand justice to make it all right.

I recently asked my beautiful world to make sure they bring me problems they would like me to help fix. Debt crisis in Greece... hikers in exotic locations... People seem to like hearing my opinions. Challenge me. I am here to help.

My beautiful America, do you know where our domestic economic problems came from? There are some better places than others to look for the answer to that question. I recommend you start here. Ole President Gee-Dub forbade the Feds from arresting the guilty parties in 2008, and President Corrupt completed the travesty of patriotic American leadership by giving all the guilty parties cash bailouts in 2009.

This begs a few questions... How much do you know about the New World Order? Who preened Obama the Terrorist to get elected to ruin America?

Do not forget: If you do what Obama the Sociopath (or the FBI) commands and break the law, you are all prosecutable. The dictionary calls this corruption. If you do as I suggest and defy his oppression, you are a hero saving America. No law was ever written that says you cannot have your Constitutional rights. That is just a policy of President Corrupt; there are very good reasons the executive branch is not allowed to create laws in this country.

My beautiful world, I have been receiving verbally abusive comments on my blog posts. The comments are attempts to coerce me into no longer writing snail mail to my beloved Sweetness. Obama, you bratty child, you should know by now that I do not respond favorably to verbal abuse. That is, I respond appropriately. It is illegal for a reason.

Similarly, do you remember how my criminal father, a quack who made the conscious choice to commit malpractice, and the corrupt Polk County District Court's Mental Health Division claimed everything in this here blog was symptoms of a debilitating and incurable mental illness in order to illegally confine me to a hospital and traumatize me with threats of forced torture injections? One of their many goals was to terrorize me into no longer keeping my blog which was changing the world. This is all I have to say on the topic to Obama the Slave Driver who commanded it... I have the internet, and I know how to use it.

And now that I have your undivided attention, I will now blushingly reveal my hidden agenda.

I am not just out to do good all over the world in the ways I flat out state. I also have a secret goal. I have always said that I should not have to present myself to the world as a man to be treated with decency and respect, listened to in the areas in which I am expert, and acknowledged as more than capable at what I do in this world. I fight my battles in a skirt and heels because I am the type of woman who likes a skirt and heels, and I am not about to pretend I am something I am not. I believe that by proving I have worth in the world as a woman, despite the president deciding and enforcing that I am disposable, I can end female infanticide... among other things. I figure I can do this just by being myself.

"Revolutionary Dreams" by Nikki Giovanni
i used to dream militant
dreams of taking
over america to show
these white folks how it should be done
i used to dream radical dreams
of blowing everyone away with my perceptive powers
of correct analysis
i even used to think i’d be the one
to stop the riot and negotiate the peace
then i awoke and dug
that if i dreamed natural
dreams of being a natural
woman doing what a woman
does when she’s natural
i would have a revolution

Sweetness, eres el rey dulce de mi corazon. Juntos y pronto bailaremos bajo el lluvia del paraíso de nuestra amor inmortal. Tenemos las ganas de triunfar, ¿no? Espero aquí solo, pero entiendo que el futuro esta viniendome en el acercamiento de tu alma elegante.

Romance languages can be so romantic.

Dissent is Patriotic.

2011-12-29T08:43:00.000-06:00

This post feels like an assortment of pertinent ideas. I apologize for any lack of transition.

Black academics have explained it to me so many times. Black Americans descended from the abomination of the slave tradition in this country and, ideally, have overcome it. African Americans are descendants of Africans that came to the States after slavery ended here and who do not carry the burden of that travesty.

President Corrupt is not Black; he is African American. And, according to the definition, a half-Asian lady slave like me is more Black than Obama the Sociopath is. He has never carried the burdens that Black Americans carry. He has mandated that I do.

On a related note, the dictionary.com word of the day today is "interpolate." Mr. Donald Trump, when your intent is to uncover a conspiracy or even to create a conspiracy theory, there is a way to accomplish this with the most accuracy. You have to leave the truths where they are. You cannot move the truths around nor bias them with the hope of making them fit your theory. Leave the truths where they are and only connect them. That is how you discover a conspiracy... not just create theories. I heard your conspiracy theory; I think you can make a more convincing one than that.

As for those of you lying through your teeth about me again, why are you even pretending anyone would believe I am unpatriotic? I am actively fixing this nation's problems. I am not a president using my office to ruin this country for personal gain. I am not a libelous slanderer acting to keep this nation oppressed. When you want to call someone unpatriotic, look at yourself.

I really need justice, so I can heal from all of this. It has been almost three years, now, of torture, slavery, abuse, humiliation, and persecution. I really need a vacation. I really need my husband. I really need justice, so I can heal.

Some time in 2009, most likely before he even took office, Obama the Slave Driver decided that I was disposable. This was a decision driven by his greed and enabled by his racism, sexism, and other personality evils. He sent orders to rape and drug me until I would kill myself. And he enslaved me, so the world could watch the entire process. President Corrupt threw me away, and libeled me to justify it to the public. To get away with it all, he decided to revoke America's rights to discuss it, report it, or even fight it.

My beautiful America, what could President Corrupt possibly be threatening you with to make you go along with being oppressed? Defy his tyranny already. Call out his corruption. Do not just demand your rights anymore; flat out take them. Exercise your freedom of speech. Scream, "Free at last!" at the skies. Exercise your freedom of the press. If you are scared of doing it alone, pick a date and have your colleagues join you. These are your rights. Why are you allowing him to take them away from you?

The people of Syria are risking death and torture to fight for their rights. Dear Arab League, if my opinion means anything to you, enter Syria, but do not allow the government there to control where you can and cannot go. Travel freely. Go undercover if you have to. Please discover the truth of what happens there, report it to the outside world, and do everything you can to stop it. The people of Syria need you.

As for you, Obama, you damn sociopath, I am very careful not to show signs of everything I and my benevolence are capable of. Luckily for you, it is not too late for you to take the fight out me by making me complacent. Find my husband. Apologize to him. Do anything he tells you to do. And you will make me complacent. It is very well established that I am smarter than you, stronger than you, more honest than you, more moral than you, and will always be in possession of the moral high ground. Out of my benevolence, I highly suggest you take my advice.

My beautiful world, I really need you. Please keep the pressure on President corrupt. Please keep spreading truth to combat the lies. Please do everything you can think of to get me out of this hell and into the arms of my beloved husband.

Sweetness, I have been pushing you pretty hard lately. I think the world will finally agree you are my equal now. I trust you. And it is time the world starts trusting you as much as I do. Do anything you want to burst this bubble wide open, my darling, so we can finally be together. I think I am going to start you a new letter on Saturday. I love and adore you. Every moment we are forced to be apart is a torment to me.

American Rascism Against Middle Easterners is Fueling Obama's Agenda.

2011-12-28T19:30:00.000-06:00

Let us all be honest. If Iran finally develops a nuclear weapon or if it looks like a war with Iran is dangerously imminent, the American public will finally revolt and set me free from this bubble themselves, so I can fix the problem. That said, it is not in my immediately best interests to write the rest of this new blog post. However, my beautiful world, you all know how hard it is for me to bite my tongue when I see warmongering and the unpatriotic habits of our current terrorist of a president in action as he ruins America and destroys stability in the world as a whole. So, I really am going to write the rest of this blog post.

The US government is antagonizing Iran again, so Iran is making threats to defend itself again. Why is the US government constantly antagonizing Iran? They claim Iran's nuclear program is a threat.

Let us all be honest. Take a good look at the world. How many countries have nuclear weapons? How many countries with nuclear weapons has the US fought a war against (after they gained the nuclear technology, of course)? None. Absolutely none.

Having nuclear weaponry is a defensive strategy, not an offensive one. It is a way to prevent war because it means the warmongering Americans will not hit you anymore. If you attack anyone enough times (he or) she will find a way to defend (himself or) herself.

We all know that Iran cannot drop a nuclear bomb in Israel because they will be hitting themselves with fallout. For the same reasons, Israel has nothing to gain from threatening Iran with the bomb.

I have already tried explaining to Iran that nuclear technology is obsolete for these very reasons, but I do not want to end up in a discussion of what is not obsolete technology.

What the American government needs to learn to do is break the cycle of racism and hatred that fuels all of these conflicts with Arab nations, so we can finally have a peaceful and stable world.

Why does the US government attack Iran all the time? It is because Iran is constantly defending themselves against the US. Iran has a nuclear program because the US government has driven them to build one. If the US government would finally stop creating conflict, the conflict would go away.

On the short term, if the US would just stop using so much oil (and most American oil comes from Canada anyway) the Strait of Hormuz will no longer be something worth fighting over. Try telling the truth. Try solving the real problem.

Sweetness, I am staying in tonight, so I can bake pastries. I finally found where the grocery store shelves its almond paste. I will be at the Des Moines Social Club's open mic tomorrow night, and I will probably stop for drinks somewhere afterwards. I will probably also be out and about Saturday night. I love and adore you. I also trust you completely. You can do anything you want in my name, and you know that.

Serial Liar

2011-12-26T11:29:00.000-06:00

Well, my beautiful world, it looks like the serial liar that is our president lied again to get what he wanted. Obama the Sociopath will tell you anything fathomable to get what he wants from you. Why does anyone trust any word that comes out of that criminal's mouth? His addiction to dishonesty looks pretty damn pathological at this point.

I say this because my Sweetness is not allowed to come for me today.

Please, my beautiful world, do not let the presidential untruths lull you into complacency. That is one of Obama the Terrorist's goals. Please, my beautiful world, fight with rage and unstoppable fury until I am no longer living in this hell and until we all have our full Constitutional rights again. Begin the battle again, and please do not stop until it is finally and actually over.

You know the plan...My beautiful world, we need to take the bubble apart. 1.) We need a culture that demands this oppression ends. We need music, theater, dance, television, radio, film... all of it. We need protests, marches, and anthems. We need America to stand up and demand we be free again.2.) We need to take away their reason for keeping me in a bubble. I am in a bubble and will stay here until they kill me because they do not want to be held accountable for the wrongs they have committed. We need to hold them accountable regardless. America needs to press charges against the federal government. Do not let them take away your right to demand justice just like they took away mine. You have to be put on trial and convicted before they can take any of your rights away. Please, America, if you are capable of it, press charges against the government for taking away your First Amendment rights. We need to have the bubble officially deemed unconstitutional. That means we need to get it into the hands of the Supreme Court. America, that means you have to press federal charges for violations of your rights.3.) If all else fails, we need to have Obama the Criminal impeached. Write to your Congresspeople. Write to the Department of Justice. Make sure an accurate investigation is started and executed. The president is guilty of so many horrors committed against me and guilty of oppressing the entire nation. Hold him accountable. Being a president does not put anyone above the law.

Take over all airwaves with your battle cry. The government is broke; that is all the more reason why pressing charges against the Feds en masse will work. The plan above is just the beginning, but it will do so much.

Do not forget what the First Amendment says...Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble, and to petition the Government for a redress of grievances. These are the very rights you must demand. Let's get this done.

Sometimes I cry. I feel the pain of the world some days. There are so many problems I could help fix... if only I could get out of this bubble.

I weep for this nation, and I will continue to weep until America sets itself free. I weep for the world, and I will continue to weep until I am free to help lift the world's pain. I weep for my husband, and I will continue to weep inconsolably until we are finally together and until I may finally kiss his waiting face.

Sweetness, please take care of yourself. I am worried you are going to drive yourself mad with heartache. Please, stop letting the government jerk you around. Take all of your unhappiness and channel it into taking the bubble apart completely, so we can finally be together. Come by and get me once the oppression is broken. I cannot stand how unhappy all of this red-light-green-light makes you. Yes, I can only be miserable until we are together, but please be smart about how you fight. I do not want you to end up as damaged and tortured as I am. I love you too much for that.

My beautiful world, do anything you can think of to bludgeon this bubble to smithereens. I trust you. I know you will all get me to someplace where I can be safe and free and where I can be with my husband. Also, please take good care of my Sweetness. Do anything he needs, and try to cheer him up. Please... for me.

P.S. How much do you all know about the New World Order?

All I Have

2011-12-23T02:27:00.000-06:00

I am the only person in this country with freedom of speech, so you better believe I am not going to waste it.

President Corrupt, get your hands off of Congress, so they can do their job. Why do you not try to do your real job for once? Try defending and supporting the entire nation's Constitutional rights! That IS your job description. If you are actively refusing to do your real job, who are you to suggest to others how to do theirs?

On the topic of the president, this whole battle does not come down to Benevolent Squid vs. President Corrupt, no matter how many people like to spread that around. At its core, this situation is best described as... Obama the Criminal is breaking the law and defiling what is America, and the world needs to stop him. His war crimes and terrorism would be enough to put him in Guantanamo if he were the leader of any other nation. End the hypocrisy.

Sweetness, your gift should be there soon. You may not want to open it in front of the kids. I cannot wait for the moment my lips finally touch your face. All I have in this world is you and my freedom of speech. Please stop letting the government jerk you around. All they do is lie. You know you cannot trust them. Please keep your heart safe and intact for me instead.

Love, love, love: that is the soul of genius. --W.A.Mozart

Launch the Ships.

2011-12-21T02:34:00.003-06:00

They have been jerking my beloved around again. They are trying to distract him away from taking apart the bubble officially, so we can finally be together.

My beautiful world, launch the metaphorical ships. Call out the troops. You know the plan. But feel free to do anything else you believe will be helpful.

To quote my last post...My beautiful world, we need to take the bubble apart. 1.) We need a culture that demands this oppression ends. We need music, theater, dance, television, radio, film... all of it. We need protests, marches, and anthems. We need America to stand up and demand we be free again.
2.) We need to take away their reason for keeping me in a bubble. I am in a bubble and will stay here until they kill me because they do not want to be held accountable for the wrongs they have committed. We need to hold them accountable regardless. America needs to press charges against the federal government. Do not let them take away your right to demand justice just like they took away mine. You have to be put on trial and convicted before they can take any of your rights away. Please, America, if you are capable of it, press charges against the government for taking away your First Amendment rights. We need to have the bubble officially deemed unconstitutional. That means we need to get it into the hands of the Supreme Court. America, that means you have to press federal charges for violations of your rights.
3.) If all else fails, we need to have Obama the Criminal impeached. Write to your Congresspeople. Write to the Department of Justice. Make sure an accurate investigation is started and executed. The president is guilty of so many horrors committed against me and guilty of oppressing the entire nation. Hold him accountable. Being a president does not put anyone above the law.

I heard about the statute of limitations problem. I had no idea that applied to medical malpractice or human rights violations. Is "intent to torture" also a crime? All of that considered, we ought to get as many doctors as possible now before they all slip away.

Helen Reynolds in Liverpool is a torturer. With absolutely no medical justification, she gave me injections that felt like death crawling through my veins. Then again, she was probably trying to make me go mad. Dennert at Mercy Franklin in Des Moines is a quack. He medicated me while I still had no symptoms and tried to mandate that I be tortured again with injections. He refused to admit to reality, and claimed that things like drugged water and the bubble were all just symptoms. Dr. Ramos at Mercy in Mason City, Iowa only gave me a false diagnosis based on false test results because he was taking directions from somebody he feared. Find out who told him to break the law, and you will catch the bigger fish. Ocampo at Broadlawns is guilty of everything Dennert was guilty of, including keeping me in a hospital against my will for no medical reason. Go easy on Dr. Green at Broadlawns. She is actually trying to stay law-abiding despite being commanded by people she fears to keep me heavily medicated for no medical reason. Ask them all what my symptoms are.

As frosting on the cake, investigate all of my fellow patients at the facility at the University of Minnesota Medical Center- Fairview. They were all actors and psychologists pretending to have mental illnesses. There were people involved with the local police in that facility acting like patients and staff, too. I did identify one other real patient, and she kept screaming at the staff "Why are you pretending you have jobs to do? You are all doing nothing! What is this?" She was the African one.

Speaking of Africa, I saw Joe Biden at the Nigerian Embassy in Mexico City. He was there the same day I was there. He had a bad French accent and was pretending to be a French diplomat. Yes, while I was in Mexico City (Did you ever hear everything that happened down there? Poisoned bottles of water? Beaten in my sleep? Cameras in my hotel rooms? Drugs injected into my body? A population with chips in their ears?... It sounds a lot like the UK, huh? Did you hear any of it?) the vice president was down there running a muck. Yes, he is in on it, too.

Sweetness, I am going to mail you your "December gift-giving tradition (I am an atheist.)" gift tomorrow. It should make it to Los Angeles Friday. No, my darling, it is not all in your head. I really do truly, sincerely, and passionately love you. Considering how we communicate and the fact we are forbidden by an evil and tyrannical regime to be together, it is perfectly normal to have occasional doubts. Do you remember when I had mine? You fixed it thoroughly and quickly. I love you madly. It is the only mad thing about me. I would move a mountain range to be with you. You would move heaven and earth to be with me. No one messes with this kind of love without expecting disaster for themselves. This love will prevail.

P.S. My beautiful world, did you see the news? We need effective world leadership on the topic of Global Climate Change, and we need it now.P.P.S. Americans know that the bubble is immoral, unconstitutional, inhumane, cruel, and wrong, but they obey it because they fear the government. Sound familiar?

An Angry Blogpost

2011-12-18T20:05:00.002-06:00

I have a divinely-originated, unalienable right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. Yet, the federal government denies me even the ability to be with me beloved significant other. This is only the beginning of their crimes against me, and it is time we fixed this.

Amendment One
Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble, and to petition the Government for a redress of grievances.
The American public currently has no freedom of speech, no freedom of the press, and no freedom to assemble with me. Personally, I have no freedom to petition the government for a redress of grievances. That is, I am not allowed to demand justice.

Amendment Four
The right of the people to be secure in their persons, houses, papers, and effects, against unreasonable searches and seizures, shall not be violated, and no Warrants shall issue, but upon probable cause, supported by Oath or affirmation, and particularly describing the place to be searched, and the persons or things to be seized.
I have spy equipment in my head. Everyone knows what I write. Everyone knows what I read. I have no privacy.

Amendment Five
No person shall be held to answer for a capital, or otherwise infamous crime, unless on a presentment or indictment of a Grand Jury, except in cases arising in the land or naval forces, or in the Militia, when in actual service in time of War or public danger; nor shall any person be subject for the same offense to be twice put in jeopardy of life or limb; nor shall be compelled in any criminal case to be a witness against himself, nor be deprived of life, liberty, or property, without due process of law; nor shall private property be taken for public use, without just compensation.
I and all of America are currently being deprived of liberty without due process. This amendment means that a person must be put on trial and convicted before any rights can be taken away from that person. The bubble I live in is a blatant violation of the US Constitution.

Amendment Eight
Excessive bail shall not be required, nor excessive fines imposed, nor cruel and unusual punishments inflicted.
What about this bubble is not cruel and unusual for me to live through?

Amendment Nine
The enumeration in the Constitution, of certain rights, shall not be construed to deny or disparage others retained by the people.
These rights include the very well-established right to privacy... and many others.

Amendment Thirteen
1. Neither slavery nor involuntary servitude, except as a punishment for crime whereof the party shall have been duly convicted, shall exist within the United States, or any place subject to their jurisdiction.
2. Congress shall have power to enforce this article by appropriate legislation.
The entire world is a witness that I am a slave... and that my slavery is enforced by Obama the Criminal's bubble of torture and persecution.

Article Two Section 4 - Disqualification
The President, Vice President and all civil Officers of the United States, shall be removed from Office on Impeachment for, and Conviction of, Treason, Bribery, or other high Crimes and Misdemeanors.
According to the United Nations, its International Criminal Court (ICC), and the rules of operation for the ICC, war crimes and crimes against humanity include torture, rape, forced prostitution, forced public nudity, and forced public humiliation... to name a few.

If Obama the SlaveDriver is not complicit in the capitol offenses against me, why am I in a bubble at all?

The bubble alone is cruel and unusual. And the American public is paying for the bubble with their own Constitutional rights.

My beautiful world, we need to take the bubble apart. 1.) We need a culture that demands this oppression ends. We need music, theater, dance, television, radio, film... all of it. We need protests, marches, and anthems. We need America to stand up and demand we be free again.
2.) We need to take away their reason for keeping me in a bubble. I am in a bubble and will stay here until they kill me because they do not want to be held accountable for the wrongs they have committed. We need to hold them accountable regardless. America needs to press charges against the federal government. Do not let them take away your right to demand justice just like they took away mine. You have to be put on trial and convicted before they can take any of your rights away. Please, America, if you are capable of it, press charges against the government for taking away your First Amendment rights. We need to have the bubble officially deemed unconstitutional. That means we need to get it into the hands of the Supreme Court. America, that means you have to press federal charges for violations of your rights.
3.) If all else fails, we need to have Obama the Criminal impeached. Write to your Congresspeople. Write to the Department of Justice. Make sure an accurate investigation is started and executed. The president is guilty of so many horrors committed against me and guilty of oppressing the entire nation. Hold him accountable. Being a president does not put anyone above the law.

Sweetness, we need full disclosure. "Leak" it if you have to. I know how busy I keep you... but I will not stop fighting until you are in my arms. Tell the world what good I could do if I were just set free.

As I am Sure You Have Noticed...

2011-12-17T17:25:00.001-06:00

As I am sure you have noticed, I am only fat when I take meds. These pills are killing me... and I still have absolutely no symptoms that require them.

As I am sure you have noticed, a lot of people are mongering for war in the Middle East. If they, including the president, actually wanted peace in the world, they would have released me from this bubble to take care of it. Do not believe a word they say about taking care of their responsibilities until I am released from this bubble of torture and persecution.

As I am sure you have noticed, the entire world knows I am more than mentally healthy despite being tortured constantly for two and a half years. The bed is still active. I plead for help every night.

Sweetness, we will get it. I left a message for you yesterday with Mr. Brian Williams. Also, the paperwork I sent you with the cookies applies to ANY situation (for example, my being in a bubble) regardless of whether or not I am deemed mentally incompetent. You are only in my happy dreams.

Ask Questions. Demand Answers.

2011-12-16T02:24:00.000-06:00

What is the purpose of the bubble I live in? Ask the people who mandate and control it. Find out why you, the American public, are paying with your human rights to continue this persecution of me. Most importantly, why are you allowing it to continue?

And now, some random links...

AG: "President Obama is adopting some of the language of the Occupy Wall Street movement, and yet he's also receiving more money from Wall Street than any other president in history." NP: "Yes and that's why nothing will happen..."

Our human rights are evaporating.

"The death squads and concentration camps of history were never staffed by rebels and dissidents. They were were run by those who followed the rules."

I wonder sometimes what Obama the Sociopath's prolonged oppression of this entire nation has done to us... permanently... spiritually... psychologically.

Sweetness, I mailed you something late Tuesday night. You should get it today or tomorrow. I love you. I worry that I stress you out, but, WOW, do I ever love you.

Model T

2011-12-12T19:45:00.000-06:00

General Motors, Tesla Motors,... Yes, you too, Ford... Who else is in the States? Anyway, this should actually be addressed to car companies across the world...

How long before we get a solar-powered Model T?

Do you have any idea how many world problems we could fix with an affordable way to get the world off of its oil dependency? Do you have any idea what good would come to poverty stricken areas if they were not pinching pennies to buy gasoline? Do you have any idea how much money would stay in the middle class economy instead of disappearing into rich oil companies as they just get richer? Do you know how many carbon emissions we can keep out of the sky? Global Climate Change is real. Think of the lives you could save.

Besides, the first company to put an affordable, stable, solar-powered car on the market would make billions.

Yes, there will always be a need for oil. This planet will never completely kick its habit... until the oil runs out. And I have already warned OPEC nations to develop their economies, so they will be ready for when the oil runs dry.

But please, car companies, start the race to our much more healthy future. We need a solar-powered car that even your factory workers can afford to buy. Please do it for the planet. Please do it for the future. Please do it for me.

Sweetness, I mailed you a letter late last night. It should arrive in LA on Wednesday or Thursday. I will probably mail you something tomorrow, too. Tonight I think I am going to stay in. I am pretty sure I can fix my squeaky, old headset mic with a little WD40, and I need to figure what to get you as a gift this year. I know how busy I keep you. All I want this year is lots and lots of kissing. Hee-hee. Can you look into starting an investigation of the tainted water supplies in San Francisco, Mexico City, Wigan, Liverpool, Ankeny, and Des Moines? Every city has witnesses... but I do fear Iowa is so drugged it is in denial. Everyone here is sleepy and depressed.

Third Eye Open

2011-12-11T01:53:00.000-06:00

Okay, my beautiful world, what is your opinion of Eric H. Holder, Jr.? Do you believe he is doing his job properly? I am deferring to your judgment of him. Yes, my third eye has been open lately, but I do not have a connection with him like I do with other people... like my Sweetness. Mr. Holder is a public servant. As the public, you get to flex your muscles and tell him what to do. You also get to tell him when he is doing a good job. Please be honest and appropriate.

On the topic of the government, I caught the last half hour of so of the Republican debate last night. Why, Squid, if you care so much for this country, do you not endorse a candidate?... You ask a very good question. Well, you see, I am not a Republican.

Out of respect for the democratic process in this country and for the integrity of the Republican party as a whole, I am not going to endorse a candidate for nomination. I will talk policy with anyone, but since I am not a Republican, it is completely inappropriate for me to meddle in their affairs. (But I worry that Newt has made it too clear for his own good that he does not like me much. Everyone else seems to like me just fine.... Just in case that matters to you Republicans.)

If I like the candidate they nominate, I will vote for him or her in November next year... And if I do not like their nominee, I will write in "Hillary Clinton." I can only hope and pray more liberals will do the same. Who knows, maybe Mrs. Clinton will carry a few states.

At the end of the debate, the commentators expressed wishes that the leaders in this country would work together to fix our national problems instead of fighting all the time. Well, to be honest, I am not actually allowed to fix problems in this nation. I do my best, though, in spite of a corrupt president's horrible intentions to shut me up forever. George and Diane, I could really use your help getting rid of him and replacing him with a better president who would actually allow me to do everything I can to help this once fine nation. That is how to make your own dreams come true.

As for world news,...

Moscow, WOW! I know how you feel. When the government is corrupt, you have to go to the next higher authority to hold the guilty parties accountable. When it is the highest level of the government that is corrupt, what can you do? In a democracy, the only authority higher than the government is the people. The people need to put the corrupt parties on trial. I understand why you are using your power to clean up your government. As always, stay strong. Stay peaceful. Stay organized, and make concrete demands. Oh, and STAY WARM! I have heard about your Russian winters.

Dearest Iran and Afghanistan, can I ask you for help with something? Have you heard of Bob Levinson? He went missing while investigating criminal activity in 2009, and people seem to think he is being held hostage in one of your two countries. I know you are very busy governments concerned with today's global realities, but can I ask you to help locate him? Will you do it for me? Will you do it to prove all people and self-sovereign nations deserve respect because they do have goodness in their hearts? Mr. Levinson's wife and kids are worried sick about him, and no one should be forced to be apart from his or her loved ones. No one.

Finally, where is the UN conference on Global Climate Change right now? Why does no one know about it, where it is, or what they are doing in there? We need global leadership on this topic, and we needed it to start a decade ago. No, I cannot help as long as I am still in this damned bubble. Can the world really wait for Obama the Criminal to get arrested before we have a leader willing and able to carry humanity through this? Can the world really wait any longer?

Sweetness, please stop worrying about hurting my feelings or letting me down. Please just concentrate your energies on the battle at hand. I doubt you could ever do anything that would make me unhappy... ever... and that is one of the reasons I love you so dearly. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. Oh, and if you are considering making a plea for help from the UN for added pressure on the human rights violators to release me from this bubble, please consider doing so before the end of December. We have Nigeria and a few other rock stars in there until the end of the year... Yes, we have some rock stars in there still next year, but trust me.

GIVE ME MY HUSBAND!!!

2011-12-08T18:28:00.001-06:00

I am not a vengeful woman. I do not want revenge on anyone. I want justice.

The corrupt powers that be fear justice coming after them. That is why I am in a bubble. They will spread any lie they can and corrupt any official they can get their hands on to keep me persecuted.

I know there are stories about how I have psychic and super-human powers. Believe them if they come from my Sweetness. I suppose you can believe them, too, if they come from Cuddlebunny. Those two know things about me. Sweetness is the leading man in my life whom I love and adore, and over two years ago, Cuddlebunny was the last man I slept with... voluntarily.

I know Cuddlebunny is a controversial topic. He started out as such a monster, and I saved him. I actually had to save him from the corrupt forces that be a few times. They tried to turn him against me later, but there is no real way to fight the sheer force of love.

So many lies are spread about me. Be careful of the sources of stories. As examples, in 2009 they once made a fake sex tape of me and Mr. Viggo Mortensen. They also made so many fake images of me while I was in the UK. I am not a contortionist. I am not a clown. I am not any of those lies. I am slandered. I am defamed. And I am libeled.

BBC 3 might also try to say I have psychic powers. I know why.

If it were not already thoroughly established that I am only capable of being benevolent, I would fight these stories from coming out. Yes, we all know I am only benevolent. I am only capable of good in this world.

Why am I in a bubble then? Good question. I was put here by the type of people who fear the completely benevolent. I was put here by people who do not want good in the world. And they will spread any lie they can and corrupt any official they can get their hands on to keep me persecuted.

What I want most is my husband. Do not get me wrong. I also want all of our Constitutional rights returned to all of America. I want world peace. I want a lot of things. But what I want most is my husband to be happy. GIVE ME MY HUSBAND!!!

Obama, you bratty and lying child, you know you are guilty, and you know you are caught. That is why you are getting so desperate. Gay America knows you refuse to support the right to marry because it means Sweetness and I would have the right to marry. You let your unfounded vendetta against me affect all of your politics, and without support from me, you only have support from the corrupt forces that are ruining this world. The whole world is a witness to both your crimes against me and the fact I do your job as the Leader of the Free World better than you do. Save yourself and make me happy.

Sweetness, I have a feeling they will stop at nothing to take you away from me. On the upside, it means that we together as a devoted and loving couple are doing good and effective work to end the oppression of America, to demolish the bubble of slavery and persecution, and to create a more stable and loving world. I love and adore you. I am a little worried that you are not getting my mail anymore, though. You should have received a letter last week Wednesday and box of cookies today. I promised to start you a letter on Tuesday, but you have been keeping me distracted lately. I will start it tonight. Thank you for everything you do for me. This fight is not an easy one. Do not let them mess with your head.

P.S. My beautiful world, because of the greatly increased need since 2008, food pantries in the States are now running dangerously low. Please, if you are in a financial place where you can help, donate to food pantries across the country. Please.

Oh, Sweetness...

2011-12-06T19:37:00.001-06:00

I was prepared to write a scathing post today in which I would hand Obama his ass all over again, but you, my Sweetness, urged me to stay calm. If there is any force in the world that can keep me calm right now, it is you. I would prefer to know you are happy, content, and no longer lonely, but if you want me to stay calm, I will stay calm. Nothing will be able to make me happy, though, until you walk through that door and kiss me.

I mailed you a box of cookies this afternoon. It should reach LA on Thursday. There is also a week-old love letter inside that I was hoping to deliver by hand this last weekend. What is the rationale behind not impeaching Obama the Slave-driver for his crimes? Nobody likes him, and the entire world is witness of his crimes against me.

Did you see the speech that the failure of a president just gave? Obama the Hypocrite said he wants all Americans to have the freedom to be their best. I am serious. The man who stores an angel like me in a bubble of persecution and torture where he does not even allow me to have a job is spreading lies to cover his ass again. I cannot believe anyone trusts any word that slithers out of that criminal's mouth. Yes, this is the calm version of what I wanted to say today.

There has also been a lot of media lately about the Egyptian elections. Just saying they will hate America because they are Islamist leaders is racism and religious discrimination nobody needs. Yet, people are sill worried that the new government will be anti-American.

Well, if people are so worried about that, maybe they should do something friendly to make Egyptians like us. That particular country is in a very impressionable part of its lifetime, so US leadership really ought to be doing something positive with them (other than supplying the bullets that the military has been firing at the peaceful protesters). I know we have a tantrum-driven, slave-driving, corrupt, rape-enabling hypocrite of a non-leader running the US executive branch, but that is no reason the whole federal government should go to hell. Yes, this is my staying calm.

Sweetness, I left a message for you with Mr. Brian Williams this early evening during the news. I hope you get it. I will start you a new letter tonight. If you get your hands on a copy of my guardianship file with the Polk County District Court, you will find a forged letter inside that Syniva never really wrote. My father submitted it as supposed evidence against me back in 2010. I love you!

Who is Warmongering Today?

2011-12-01T15:29:00.001-06:00

Conspiracy theorists are probably having a field day with the fact the biggest aggressors out there, the US and UK governments, are also the governments that have wronged me the most. I know the corrupt forces that be are just going to hate me more for saying it, but let us take a breath and think our way through this. I would really like to avoid WW3.

Pakistan, the US military is not the problem. The military is made up of good people. It is the orders coming out of DC that are the problem. I question the president and his role in all of this. If the president really is guilty, expect lies to circulate as they try to protect him.

Iran, I know it was not all of you who raided the British embassy in Iran, but those of you who did, are you calmed down now? The British government locked me in a torture facility for seven months last year. I know what it is like for them to push you and push you and push you because they want a conflict. The best advice I have is please do not give them the international conflict they want. There are forces in the West that make money off of waging war. If you take away their ability to escalate this conflict, you take their power away. Please remember that the West is not your enemy; the powers profiting off of conflict are.

The corrupt powers that be hate peacemongers like me. They like to enslave us, lock us in bubbles, and tell the world we are crazy when all we do is speak the obvious. Just because they have spent the last two and a half years torturing me, it does not mean I will stop standing in the way of WW3.

Sweetness, the weather looks iffy this weekend... snow, sleet, rain... but it the sky should be clearing up by late Saturday. I love you.

The Nation Knows.

2011-11-28T18:14:00.001-06:00

Hello, Obama,...

By now the nation knows you leveled a federal mandate in violation of the US Constitution persecuting me and taking away the entire nation's rights, and because you do not want to face justice for your wrongs, you maintain the illegal mandate and spread lies and slander hoping to get away with it. You cannot hide it, now. Despite the fact you have suspended all freedom of the press, the truth is still getting around.

Breaking ANY law makes ANY president impeachable. Your human rights violations are now common knowledge. And you have never had the power to violate the US Constitution. I know you live in a bubble where you think you are above the law and have built a federal mandate that denies the entire country enough rights that you think you can get away breaking any law you want.

But how long will it be until the nation is fed up with having its First Amendment rights revoked, fed up with watching me suffer for no reason except your own corruption, and fed up with you as a whole? I am going to live until I am 137 years old. How long do you think you can keep me in a bubble?

Your downfall, you terrorist, is your inability to treat people with the respect we deserve. You do nothing but make enemies and create conflict in the world. And you leave people like me, the people you shit on most, to clean up the world messes that you are supposed to be leading us through.

You have been out and about the last few months making public appearances trying to shift the blame onto Congress, all of Congress, for your own failures. From the national debt you wanted raised to the high unemployment you used as an excuse to feed your friends on Wall Street, you want to pretend that Congress is the guilty party for your own destructive policies, and you are spending government money trying to sell your lies to the public.

How long will it be until Congress, all of Congress, is fed up with you, too? If I were Congress, I would be investigating your violations of the US Constitution, and I would be impeaching you. And Congress, if you are listening, please do this for me. Calling me a hooker was part of his cover up for enforcing I be trafficked, and the menace he is to the entire world needs to be stopped.

I am a completely benevolent influence on this world. I do live a little on the edge by putting whole milk in my coffee, but that is it. The world knows I used my benevolent influence to have a couple of hikers released from prison in Iran. Do not take this personally, Iran, but what does it mean when a pure force of love like myself has a better relationship with the President of Iran than the President of the United States? What does that say about the President of the United States?

Sweetness, I sent you a letter on Saturday. It should arrive in LA on Wednesday. You will like it. I bake cookies from scratch. I am going to send you a box of them soon. I love you.

Safety and Freedom

2011-11-25T13:32:00.000-06:00

I know I promised a post on Obama's impeachability, but let us delay that for the moment. Oh, trust me, he will tick me off into writing it if he does not know what is good for him. And he never knows what is good for him... or this nation.

Do you remember my last post? I was attacked in my sleep in Minnesota. I was attacked in my sleep in Iowa. I was attacked in my sleep in California.

Do you remember the legend of Cuddlebunny? I identified him as one of my attackers, and I made friends with him. I used love to render him incapable of ever hurting me again. A couple of months later, though, they sent a new one... Andrew.

I kept getting sick from everything I ate and drank. There were cameras in my home I had no way of getting rid of. There was spy equipment in my head. I was enslaved, and I had nowhere to go for help.

I decided to flee to someplace outside of Obama's reaches... someplace it would not be illegal to help me.

I did not find such a place in Mexico. The horrors just continued there. I tried to seek humanitarian protection from the torture and slavery in the UK, but it all just continued there as well.

I do not make dangerous decisions. I am on a constant sometimes desperate quest to find safety and freedom. I will not find either while Obama the Torturer is in office, unless he ends the bubble designed to torture and enslave me.

What do my actual real=life decisions look like? None of them are dangerous. The closest thing I do to living on the edge is getting whole milk in my coffee.

I have made an actual real-life decision to settle down with a man who loves and adores me and who treats me like a princess and an angel. I want to cozy up in a big house with him and make babies and hire bodyguards to keep us all safe.

I have decided to be a peaceful influence on the world. I have decided to inspire people everywhere to stand up and fight for their freedom and safety. I have decided to instruct people to do so peacefully. I have decided to help humanitarian aid reach the needy. I have decided to fight oppression everywhere intelligently, effectively, and peacefully. I have decided to be an intelligent and trustworthy world influence.

My decision making process is completely intelligent and trustworthy. I consider all claims to the contrary to be defamation. Expect justice.

Sweetness, with every triumph we get closer. We need America to stand up for itself and burst the bubble. If we organize and if everyone does it at once, this will again be the land of the free. No one has freedom of speech right now. No one has the freedom of the press. No one has the right to assemble and associate with me. They call America the land of the free and the brave. Well, at least right now we are brave. Try, try again.

Only Getting Feistier...

2011-11-24T13:35:00.001-06:00

My darling Sweetness is still not here to calm me down, so I am getting feistier. Leveling a federal mandate that violates the US Constitution makes Obama the Slave Driver impeachable... but that is the topic of my next blog post. Today we discuss Octopus.

You probably ought to seek the advice of professional child psychologists before you try explaining to your seven-year-old child that his or her favorite children's show star, Octopus, was really a battered slave. This is a burden their generation and their parents' generation and this entire nation have to carry. When your child looks up at you and asks, "If everyone knew, why did nobody do anything to save her?" you are going to be glad for seeking advice, so you could answer the question.

In all reality, no one helped me because Obama the Terrorist made it illegal to do the right thing, acknowledge the human rights violations, and take the spy equipment out of my head. He, in fact, enforced that the slavery and nightly tortures continue.

Rumors were spread around that I was waking up covered in bruises because I was battering and raping myself in my sleep. You have all seen me sleep. You know I do not attack myself. I was being battered by strangers in my sleep. It happened to me so often that my body used to seize and spasm to keep me awake when I would lay down to sleep. It wanted to protect itself. But I was so drugged from what people were slipping into all of my food and drink and exhausted from the insomnia that I would have to sleep.

Because of Obama the War Criminal, I was not allowed to address this with any law enforcement; they were not allowed to acknowledge any of it was real. The FBI honestly told me I had to figure it out for myself, and all of the local police thought I was a prostitute. I was also not allowed to address the rumors publicly nor seek medical help for the batterings without risking being put in another psych ward to be violated again at my attackers' leisure.

It is, in fact, the job of the government to keep me and every person in this country safe and free. Instead of doing his job, Obama the Sociopath leveled a federal mandate to enforce I be abused, violated, sexually harassed, tortured, injected, poisoned, drugged, and enslaved with nowhere to go for help. He let your children watch. He enforced that you all be guilty.

My beautiful world, you know who is to blame for all of this. It is the attackers, the President, and the rest of the executive branch that refused to do their job to stop it. It, in fact, is still not stopped now. The oppression continues. All of the people out there doing everything they can to end this are my real live heroes. Yes, Sweetness, that means you.

Sweetness, I know you will be here to get me as soon as you possibly can. I am doing everything I can to help. There is so much confusion out there sometimes, though, that I cannot always tell exactly what you need. I love you. I was hoping to see you today, but I understand what towering level of evil and corruption you face out there. I wish more people would offer to help you.

Still not Complacent...

2011-11-21T20:13:00.001-06:00

I am not going to have a chance to calm down until I am permanently in my darling man's arms. I am still ragingly upset. Bear with me.

My beautiful world, does anyone know why the phrase "Girl in a Red Raincoat" was chosen? I was thirty-one years old when this started in 2009, and it was clearly a red trench coat... not a raincoat. That is one of my many questions.

Another question is... Could Obama my Slave Driver have any motive other than defaming me and creating a cover up when he called me a hooker? Technically, because they were raping me to be able to make money off of selling me, I was a forced prostitute. But I have never sold myself. It was defamation by the president to make people stop caring about me and to make people attack me.

According to the Supreme Court...

“Where a person’s good name, reputation, honor, or integrity is at stake because of what the government is doing to him, notice and an opportunity to be heard are essential.”

-- Justice William Douglas
Wisconsin v. Constantineau
400 U.S. 433, 437 (1971)

...There is a reason for this. I am living proof of the reason for this.

However, Obama the Sociopath only takes people's rights and freedoms away. He does not support life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness... despite that being something he is morally, ethically, and legally obligated to do. It is his job description, after all.

The FBI do not know their job description either. While I was in San Francisco in 2009 and 2010, everything from LSD to methadone showed up in the city water. The problem followed me to the UK and now to Ankeny and Des Moines. The FBI knows the water gets poisoned everywhere I go, but they refuse to alert the locals and clearly refuse to keep the water clean themselves.

Yes, that is why everyone I have encountered in Ankeny and Des Moines lately is rundown, tired, and depressed. Everyone. There are depressants in the water, and the government refuses to do anything about it. Goddamn you, Feds, we give this water to our children.

Iowans, if you have been particularly tired or depressed lately, check your water supply and water mains. Obama is sacrificing you in order to pursue his agendas and get away with human rights violations.

As for you, Egyptians, democracy does not come from above. Democracy starts with the people. You have to build it yourselves. Organize enough to hold elections. The sooner you can put a system in place that can take over for the military, the better off you will be. There was a time to speak out. Now is a time to build. I know the bullets that the police and military fire on you say "Made in the USA" on them. We have a warmonger for a president. I am trying to do something about that.

Sweetness, a little birdie told me the news. They better let you into my arms this time. I am trying to keep calm today, but I am not sure how long I can stay this mild. When you get here, I will smother you in kisses.

A Mild Beginning

2011-11-19T15:12:00.001-06:00

In May 2009, I told a doctor in Minnesota that I believed the world was keeping secrets from me. I believed it was tied to my Facebook account. I believed my Facebook activity was public knowledge despite me privacy setting of "Friends Only." I was having a metaphysical crisis. I did not want to exist in the world any longer if I was hacked and defamed, but I did not want to have to kill myself. Clearly, I needed a spiritualist, not a doctor.

The doctor admitted me to the University if Minnesota Medical Center-Fairview. While in the hospital for a week, I was spied on and broadcast. They created a video phenom of me passing gas in the privacy of my own hospital room... not to mention my self-medication by dancing. The staff referred to me as "the stripper" and called themselves "the urine-hats."

While I was in that hospital for that week, I was attacked in the night as I slept. They put cameras in my eyes. They put speakers and mics in my ears. They made a broadcast of my time in the hospital. I knew this when it happened. All I could think of was finding a way out of that hell. They even sent me medical bills I refused to pay (Ever wonder about my credit?) for my entire stay there and all doctor visits.

The nightly tortures forced me into a relapse that lasted until I moved myself to San Francisco and lived there for a couple of months. Because of the relapse, my memory can get a little hazy. But I know I knew about the human rights violations when they happened because I made notes of which State of Minnesota and federal medical rights they violated in my booklet of patients' rights. If you want to puke on yourself, google what the State of Minnesota and federal privacy laws are for patients while they are staying in hospitals.

I tried reporting the hospital to all three agencies listed on the back of the booklet, but none of them contacted me back. I tried reporting them to the FBI. The FBI told me I had to figure it all out on my own.

Their privacy violations are common knowledge. The world is a witness. If we get the hospital, we get them all.

Sweetness, please call Anderson Cooper at CNN. I sent him a pile of my medical documentation while I was in the UK.

P.S. I really think ABC needs to offer my older sister Tara a long-term contract with "General Hospital" as their apology to me for the character of Jessica.

Unleashing

2011-11-19T12:25:00.001-06:00

Obama, you Ass, you had the perfect opportunity to take the fight out of me by making me complacent. Instead, you shat on my husband. How dare you inconvenience my husband. I promise you this. I will rage on you, and I will not relent until you give me the reason I need in order to be happy. I have been a thorn in your side for a long time now, but you have yet to see my benevolent rage unleashed. I am smarter than you. I am stronger than you. And I have the moral high ground. You will not survive this. I suggest you make me happy.

Sweetness, help is on its way. Just give me a moment to orient myself to the situation.

War President

2011-11-14T21:31:00.001-06:00

I was invited out tonight at 10pm for pizza. I told my mom. She whispered to me, "Do you have a boyfriend?" Are there really people left in the world who do not know about Sweetness? I told her, "No, I have a fiancée," and giggled.

As for my reaction to the news of the appalling, the US is warmongering with Iran and Pakistan. The special interests that make money off of waging war will not be satisfied until WW3 breaks out, so they have the Obama administration hitting angry Iranian and Pakistani buttons instead of trying to find solutions to our plagued relations. All we can pray for is that those two foreign nations do not fall for it and that they stay peaceful.

It is one thing to be strong. It is another thing to be an asshole. Besides, it takes more strength to be gentle.

Speaking of assholes, it is safe to assume the US government has no intentions of ever paying off the national debt. That is why they raised the debt ceiling yet again those months ago. That is why there is no plan to even pay off the interest it accrues. I cannot believe our credit rating was not downgraded further than it was, and I cannot believe that people are calling China, the country that loaned us the money that allows our government to function at all, a problem.

The US government needs to learn how to make friends instead of constantly aggravating everyone into being an enemy. Obama the Slave Driver is a war president. He wages war. He aggravates conflict. He creates enemies. He assassinates leaders without putting them on trial. And he commits human rights violations even in his home country.

He chose to persecute and torture me instead of treating me as a fellow human. When will it end?

Sweetness, I wish I could kiss you. I spent a portion of today at the public library reading and rereading Book 23 of the Robert Fagles translation of The Odyssey... You are my Odysseus, my man of twists and turns, the greatest tactician of Ancient Greece. Hee-hee. I always liked him better than Achilles.

Corruption

2011-11-14T15:51:00.001-06:00

Do you wonder why there is such a delay in my darling Sweetness coming by to pick me up and carry me away from all this? The powers that be fear justice coming after them. That is why they spread around racist, sexist nonsense about my having too much power to be treated like a human and have free will.

You, the public can trust that I am not another one of them. I have never and will never use my power and influence to take away another person's nor an entire nation's basic human rights. I would never break the law that way.

I would also never try to rape a woman into killing herself to cover it all up. I would never command doctors to treat her reality as if it were symptoms in order to illegally hospitalize her hoping the world would forget she ever existed. I would never urge her parents to commit perjury to be able to harm her and heavily drug her. Hell, I would never even stand in the way of true love.

Which one of us is it that should be trusted with power? The criminals or their victim?

Sweetness, I know you will be here as soon as you can, but please remember I am still on the drugs that are slowly killing me until you get here. They traumatize me with threats of injections to make me take them. The drugs are killing my body and slowing down my mind, and I still have no symptoms that require them. I love you. I know you are doing everything you can. Make them hurry up.

The House and Yard

2011-11-14T15:09:00.001-06:00

The ten-acre yard that surrounds my parents' house is in jeopardy. I know, I know. With every evil thing my father has done to me, why would I help him? Well, just because my father is a waste of breathable air, it does not mean the trees and animal life should suffer.

I was tortured, raped, violated, and injected in the bedroom, but that does not mean I do not care for the giant pin oak on the north side of the house. If the City of Ankeny has its way, they will cut it down.

The City of Ankeny drew up plans years ago to build sewage lines through three sides of my parents' county-forest-preserve yard taking out any tree and disturbing every animal habitat in the way. So far, their plans have been unstoppable.

About a year and half ago they cleared out old-growth trees in the backyard across the creek to build the sewage line back there. They are not paying rent for using the land to carry their shit indefinitely, and they did not even leave the wood from the trees for my parents. You could have made lumber out of some of those trees.

Now, they are coming for the apple, ash, maple, and other trees along the road to build a sewage line up there. They have no plans to replace the greenery, particularly not with larger, older trees.

A few years ago they extended First Street through the neighbor's yard to the north. They did not build a sewage line then and refuse to build their line along that nearby road now.

The whole thing screams that they have targeted my childhood home to be devalued on purpose. My parents' yard is not even within Ankeny city limits, but they refuse to dig across the street on Ankeny land. I would not be surprised if they plan on forcing an annexation of my parents' place due to "eminent domain" and do not want to pay full price for the beautiful land.

My dad is a Republican, so my older sister wrote a letter to Senator Grassley about this years ago. He said he could not do anything.

I am asking you now, my beautiful world, if you can do anything. I know many of you consider my parents' house a major landmark in the story of my suffering and battle. I know the house and land have a great significance now. Please do not allow the City of Ankeny to ruin the land further.

Please save the yard. Save the tall, old trees. Save the deer, foxes, owls, hawks, and everything else.

My beautiful world, thank you.

Sweetness, I still plan on leaving this place and never looking back. I will be at the poetry night at Java Joe's Coffeehouse tomorrow night and again at the open mic on Thursday. I meant to start you a new letter. Maybe I will do that when I finish online today. I love you. I want to go see "The Rum Diary" again in case I missed anything the first time. That movie makes me very happy.

Poetry

2011-11-11T07:39:00.001-06:00

Today is Veteran's Day. I salute you, veterans, servicemen, and servicewomen. Thank you. As one of the people you fight to protect, thank you.

What I thought was a Literary Night last night was actually an Open Mic, so I was able to hear new music, too. Yey! Literary Night is actually next Tuesday at the same place, and the Open Mic is there every Thursday. I am thinking I might read poetry at the Literary Night and save my stories for the Open Mics. What do you think of this one, my beautiful world?

Not on My Watch and Never Again

Music crept slowly across my body,
and so passed a crazy notion:
Would the world still be calling me holy,
if we could never see motion?

Star-kissed, night-kept, sun-spotted, and wind-swept
Conflagrated, agitated, aggravated, and instigated

It never should have happened.
It never should have started.
But why does it continue?
Not on my watch and never again!

How long was it taking the world to awaken?
I was not the sleeping one.
See the landing of words already much spoken
wondering if justice will ever come.

Flower-worn, tree-learned, heart-spoken, and sky-burned
Fired, liar-ed, inspired, and tired

It never should have happened.
It never should have started.
But why does it continue?
Not on my watch and never again!

Mystifying, magic, mysterious, and mythic
Dangerous, ferocious, gregarious, and voracious

It never should have happened.
It never should have started.
But why does it continue?
Not on my watch and never again!

copyright 2011

I agree, it is a little more of a song than a poem. What about this one?

A Shakespearean Sonnet

And when the world of manly tragic plans
Decides the path of sleeping hero fires,
Or sparks a light for songs in people’s hands
Above our heads to sway to ballad pyres.

Orwellian creatures snorting lines of lies
And beating, bashing, horrid ways to rule;
Unpleasant planet waits for helping ties
To labor fruitful plowmen’s growth uncruel.

But when a girlish girlie lady weeps
The loss of freedoms promised for the land
Where once so proud a people spoke of deeps
Of water climbing heights above the sand,

Beware the truthless contract terrorists
Made writ with blood of screaming termless fists.

copyright 2011

That one is from early 2010. I wrote it in a taqueria over bistec and nopales.

Sigh... I have until Tuesday to figure out what I am going to read. I would rather have a rescue from my dreary life first, but in case it does not come, having plans makes it all a little less dreary.

Sweetness, I believe I have already sent you all of the love poems I have written to you so far. I think that makes me overdue to write you a new one. Hmmmmmmm... What tasty verbal morsel will I dish up this time? I know you will be here as soon as you can. I cannot wait.

Oil is Finite.

2011-11-09T20:07:00.001-06:00

There are so many things we can consider as the reason for all of the dramatic weather we have had for over a year now. The world needs leadership on this topic. The last thing the people of this planet should be doing is feeding our dependence on fossil fuels instead of getting off of them. Also, just think of all of the poverty stricken areas that would benefit from no longer needing gasoline to have transportation.

If the US wants to be energy independent, it needs to change its consumption. We need a solar-powered Model T. We do not need a country enslaved by Big Oil.

We need to stop using oil, coal, and natural gas. We do not need to mine or drill for more of it. They say the US has only one hundred years of oil left. That is not very long, especially not in geologic terms.

Are you ready for when the oil runs out?

Years ago in this very blog I urged OPEC nations to invest in their economies and people, so that they would be ready when the oil runs out. Nations that are oil-dependent now will need a way to stay independent and prosperous when the oil is gone.

Fossil fuels exist in finite amounts. We have no way to manufacture them. If your country depends on exporting energy, you might want to look into manufacturing replacements for fossil fuels as a way to plan for the future. Start your research now, so you will be prepared.

Sweetness, I was thinking about going out on Friday, but I think I am going to the Des Moines Social Club's Literary Night tomorrow night instead. Literary Night is at the 4th Street Theater attached to Java Joe's Coffeehouse. I really hope they have good readings. I am in the mood for something new. I will probably stay in and watch Letterman on Friday. Steve Martin will be on, and I enjoy a good laugh. I just do not go out every night around here. There is far less to do.

He Loves Me!

2011-11-07T15:02:00.002-06:00

Yes, I finally saw "The Rum Diary." I caught the earliest matinee yesterday. It was a private screening; I was the only one in the audience. It made me feel important.

When you go see it (and you should), do not go in expecting a comedy. I know the trailers sell it like it is all about humor, but it is actually a social commentary on class, race, gender, and sexuality that happens to use humor to tell its story.

It also made me walk away feeling loved. I was warm, fuzzy, glowing, all mellowed out with happiness, and floating the whole rest of the day and night. Some movies have that effect on people. "The Doors" movie made me feel like I was on peyote the first time I saw it.

"The Rum Diary" is a platonic love letter from Mr. Depp to Mr. Thompson. If you speak the Hunter S. Thompson language, you will be able to pick that out. I am not saying I speak that language. But you cannot pretend to evaluate the film without keeping their deep friendship in mind.

From the movie theater yesterday, I went to Grey's Lake, so I could just sit and look at the water and feel the warmth of being loved. Then, it was Cinema Sunday at the Lift. The movies all had a bike theme last night.

Saturday I stayed in to watch "Saturday Night Live," and Friday I went to the Art 316 open house in downtown Des Moines and then to Court Avenue to do a little drinking. I bought a guy a Surfer on Acid because he reminded me of Kevin Bacon. It made me giggle.

As for things far more serious, the only way through the European Debt Crisis is by reforming the proposed austerity measures. Let us be honest, we need the Greek economy to grow not be stunted if we ever want them to create enough revenue to pay off the debt. Yes, they need to change their spending, but what they really need is other countries to invest in them to help them to grow instead of smashing any chance for the people to economically prosper again. That us my two cents on the topic. We cannot do this with harsh austerity measures.

Sweetness, parts of my last letter feel a little silly now. I know you love me. I am beginning to understand the length and breadth of that love. I am even starting to see what you see in me. Thank you.

Arts Education

2011-11-05T20:56:00.001-05:00

I dabbled in grad school at two different private universities, but the only places I have graduated from are a state school in Texas and a public high school. This makes me beg the question...

How was your arts education?

Painting

Poetry

Sculpture

Theater

Music

Writing

Film

Dance

Do you know the significance of each? Could you carry on an intelligent conversation about any of them? Is there a reason to go through the grueling daily grind of everyday life if we cannot appreciate the richness of what makes us human?

The Second Question: Can you identify American culture?

It is everywhere. Though it is still a little young; it is rich and full of life.

Europeans are always complaining that "America has no culture" at the same time as they complain about "American cultural exports." From rock music and Negro spirituals to Twyla Tharp and "Star Wars" to Grant Wood and William Faulkner, American culture is a thriving, beautiful creature. I might just be a part of it, my beautiful world. So might you...

Sweetness, I mailed you a letter last night. You should receive it Tuesday. I really cheered up in LA. Can you tell? I am not spending all of my blog time verbally shooting our incompetent national and worthless leader anymore. What a wonderful City of Angels! I have been trying so hard to be positive lately; now I actually can! I love you. I am sorry if a letter of mine scared you. Just read the next one. Kisses!

Try Something New.

2011-11-03T14:03:00.000-05:00

Hello out there, my beautiful world. How are you all doing today? I am still stuck in the Twilight Zone... a world where I am not acknowledged despite everything I do.

Something about my living conditions here in Iowa make me sleep until noon everyday. For five days in Los Angeles, I was lively, bright, and full of life. I slept a normal amount for me, and I was full of energy. Now just like before I left, I can barely drag myself out of bed and cannot get enough coffee.

I did so much more with my days while I was out there. You would think I would be tired there. The same thing seems to be affecting my mom. We have both really been dragging since getting back. Maybe I have been right this entire time about the water here.

This begs the question, of course, "What have we not tried yet to get me to freedom?" Clearly, even a bubble somewhere further away from my father would keep me healthier. But no bubble at all, that would be the healthiest thing for me ever.

My beautiful world, keep the pressure on Obama the Tyrant to finally do something, anything, in the general direction of my health. He believes it is not in his best interests to set me free of the bubble because he will finally be held accountable for all of the horrors he has forced me to live through, but convince him that once I am free, it is over.

Once I am free, he is done persecuting me. Once I am free, he is no longer digging himself deeper into the pile of manure he has built for himself by persecuting me in the first place and then breaking every concept in the Constitution to get away with it. Convince him it will end.

As for the Occupation... The local Occupation in Des Moines supports Obama my Slave Driver and wants to see him reelected. I simply cannot stand by them. I am going to have to occupy in another city. This definitely means I need to see my freedom before I can occupy with you all. I could use some help getting to my freedom. Is there anything you can do?

Sweetness, I am a little worried that you are a little worried about something. Let me reassure you; you can trust how much I love you. I understand how absurd our situation is. Trust me, I understand. I cannot imagine my being upset with you over anything... especially not now. I will start a letter to you tonight.

Dear Mrs. Hillary Clinton

2011-10-31T14:59:00.000-05:00

Dear Mrs. Hillary Clinton,

I am not the best person in the world with the written word, so if there is anything I can say to convince you to run for the Democratic nomination for president for 2012, I will say it.

This is bigger than your party needing you. This is bigger than women needing your leadership and example. This is even bigger than your nation needing you to offer logically consistent, strong, diplomatic, and intelligent solutions to dire foreign and domestic problems. The President of the United States of America is still supposed to be the leader of the free world. Mrs. Clinton, the world needs you.

Just say you want to run, and bubble or no bubble, I will throw down no holds barred to get you elected.

Just think of all the good you could do in this world. Please consider this. The world needs you.

Thank you for all of your time and attention,
Squid B. Varilekova a.k.a. Tanya H. A. Varilek

Wonderful

2011-10-31T14:41:00.000-05:00

I flew back to Iowa from LA yesterday, but the misery of my living situation has not dragged me into depression, yet. I think the clean-ocean-air reset is still working.

I spent last night at the Lift watching the original "Nightmare on Elm Street" with one of the best bartenders in town. That guy who plays the boyfriend, he is going to do great things someday. Just you wait and see. Hee-hee. The movie made me giggle all of the way through.

My time in Los Angeles was wonderful. I had amazing family time with my mom and sister. There were actually friends there I could hang out with. I was disappointed that the bubble did not burst, but the people were fabulous. I was able to see the Occupation. I had time on the beach, and I watched the sun set over the Pacific Ocean. The museums were spectacular. And the food was delicious.

I even had a night in an emergency room because my hands, feet, arms, legs, all of me had swelled up. It turns out i have a thyroid condition. That explains so much, like my epic weight gain.

Now, I have another pill to take, but at least it is a pill that treats something.

I take Risperidone and Depacote for no reason. I am the same with them and without them; except, I am physically healthier without them. The Zoloft actually helps. This experience has been miserable, and an anti-depressant makes it more tolerable.

Believe it or not, the bubble was completely tolerable in Southern California. I finally remembered what happy feels like. My mind was clear, and my heart was light. I had a reason to laugh more than once every day. There were things to do other than writing anti-Obama rhetoric, stewing in boredom and misery, or going out drinking. That is all I have here in Iowa.

Let us all hope Iowa and my diabolical father do not get me down again.

Speaking of which, what is so different about the assassinations of bin Laden and Gadhaffi? They were both killed without being put on trial first. The Obama administration and global community have no grounds to criticize the actions of the Libyan rebels if they do not criticize President Incompetent's orders, too.

Sweetness, I have said it so many times. I will wait for you.

Do Not Settle.

2011-10-27T06:09:00.001-05:00

You are demanding change, so President Insufficient is giving you pennies. Do not settle, Occupy Wall Street.

Do not go home for anything less than the revolution and justice you are demanding. We all know Obama the Slave Driver sold out before his term even began. He needs to be reformed as much as the system does.

Sweetness, it must be something big and juicy they are using to control this town. I saw more resistance in San Francisco in 2009. Why are people so receptive to being oppressed?

Clean Ocean Air

2011-10-27T05:54:00.000-05:00

My life is hell. That is no secret. I live in an unbearable situation in Iowa.

But today I had a chance to breathe some good, clean ocean air up in Malibu. It provided a long overdue reset of my system. I can endure anything now.

Yes, that is right. I went hiking in my dress in heels up at Point Dume yesterday afternoon. The weather was spectacular. The coastline was jagged. And a good time was had by all.

My dear old friend Christian took me and my mom around town all day, and the night began with Cadillac margaritas at a nearby Mexican restaurant. My mom already made plans for the two of us for tomorrow. Friday, we are going museum hopping; it has been years since I have seen the Getty or the LACMA. Saturday is reserved for shopping during the day and in the evening a costume party.

I would really like to see the Occupation. I would really like to soak up some sun on the beach.

Staying in Santa Monica is convenient to so much to do which is fabulous since my mother refuses to rent a car. But on our attempted (less than a mile) walk to the beach yesterday morning, my leg cramped up on me. I have been fine since resting, but a word of advice. If your leg cramps on you, do not keep walking on it until it can no longer hold your weight.

Our vacation rental is super adorable and accessible only by a secret passage. You can torture me all you want; I will never reveal how to get to my Kermit doll.

Sweetness, no worries. I would wait a lifetime to be with you... if it were not for the damn bubble... I have had little chance to watch television, but I plan on watching you on Letterman tomorrow night. Let's hope I make it.

Here I Am!

2011-10-26T00:10:00.000-05:00

I am now located in Los Angeles. Okay, technically I am in Santa Monica right now. I received permission to leave Iowa with my mother to visit my older sister.

This means, unless there is divine intervention to burst the bubble from hell I live in, I will have to return to Iowa the morning of Oct 30th.

Get me while you can, or burst the bubble and keep me forever.

Sweetness, now is your chance for acts of breathtaking daring do. I cannot wait. Hell, if ANYONE wants to save me, I am here for the saving.

We Cannot Fly without Wind in our Face.

2011-10-22T14:50:00.000-05:00

It is under the greatest of pressures that the most brilliant stars are born. Remember that the next time you see someone or something spectacular. We cannot fly without wind in our face.

Libya, stick to your plans. Hold elections. Draft a constitution. Build a government. Please make sure you represent all people in your nation fairly and equally. This is only a reason to celebrate if you do not descend into chaos and infighting. You are a good people. I have faith you will see yourselves become a thriving democracy.

Near the same region, it seems we are getting out of Iraq finally. That was a war we never should have instigated to begin with. We can be such warmongers.

But there is something we got right in Iraq. We captured Saddam Hussein and put him on trial. We did not lawlessly kill him.

Obama the Sociopath says getting out of Iraq will allow us to focus on the economy. If he would rather focus on the economy, why is he sending troops to Uganda? Is that man capable of uttering a sentence without lying?

Sweetness, are you counting the clouds today? The ones here are all fuzzy around the edges. It is hard to tell where they end and the sky begins. I'm having a lazy Saturday prone to daydreaming about you... Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm... no wonder I call you "Sweetness."

Count With Me

2011-10-20T15:32:00.000-05:00

My beautiful world, count with me on your fingers. Point to your left hand.

We begin with the Pinkie. This is for Oct. 21st. Go to the ocean on this day and ask for the answers to her deepest secrets. She will indulge.

Next is the Ring Finger. This is for Oct. 22nd. Count the clouds that pass you by on this day. Count them all day long. This number will be magic.

The Middle Finger is for Oct. 23rd. If you get angry on this day, use your energy to create good in the world. It takes more strength to be gentle. This is how we should fight. We should fight from love.

Oct. 24th is on the Pointer Finger. Bring flowers and plants into your home on this day. Let orchids lead you on your way.

The final day is the Thumb. We point to the Thumb for Oct. 25th. On this day, look to the sky. Look past the blue and into the cosmos. Will justice, goodness, and light into the universe. Use your will to set right what is wrong.

Let the countdown begin.

Sweetness, I have nothing but love, respect, and the letter I am putting in the mail today.

I Still Need You.

2011-10-18T21:51:00.000-05:00

Did anyone else know about this? It sounds like a great way to change Obama the Oppressor's policies on a great many things.

You could have Wall Street criminals investigated and arrested. You could make steps towards having marijuana legalized. You could force the current President to publicly address the topic of me. It looks like it is going to great use already.

Does the Occupation know?

Quick survey: How many people out there find my enforced unemployment, involuntary bubble of existence, and financial captivity a waste of years of potential good I could have done in this world?

I am doing everything I can while I am in here, but it would be so much easier to be the good influence I am in this world if I had my freedom. My beautiful world, I need you to fight for me and not give up until the bubble is burst.

I know you are all very busy out there. You have an Occupation in full swing. You are fighting every day to put food on the table. But please do not forget about me in here. I still need you. The world needs me to be free.

Sweetness, I am going to start a new letter to you tomorrow. Living through this experience has been unbearable, and you are the only silver lining I have had through the whole thing. Thank you.

Global

2011-10-16T16:56:00.001-05:00

I see the occupation has gone global. Think of all the problems you can fix. When the time is right, make sure you make defined, concrete demands. It is clear that you are demanding change. Make sure you tell the world HOW to make the changes you are demanding.

The civil disobedience of the occupation in Iowa does not operate in blatant defiance of the bubble I live in. If it did, I would be out there with them. I cannot risk being arrested for anything less than a completely burst bubble. Otherwise, the way things are structured now, if I am arrested, the bubble will never burst. And the world needs me to be free.

Do not worry. You can expect me to be standing with you once I have freedom.

I am still so very proud of you all. People always say, "Be the change you want to see in the world." You are actually doing it. As I said, think of all the problems you can fix.

Sweetness, I will be at the gym on the treadmill at 7pm tonight, so I can watch you and Larry King on CNN. I gave Larry an interview once while I was still in the UK and before he retired his show. Did you ever get to see it? Lady Gaga was phenomenal in it. I write my kisses on paper and mail them to you; I display them for the world to see here in my blog; and I let them hang from the tips of my lips as I wait for you to press against me. How do you store your kisses for me?

How I Celebrated my Birthday this Year

2011-10-14T18:48:00.000-05:00

My birthday was fun. I had a nice dinner in Ankeny with my mom, and then I kicked up my heels at the Ziggy Marley show downtown. I ended the night at the Lift sipping rum into the wee hours of the morning.

Yesterday, a friend took me out to lunch at the Des Moines Art Center where we perused the works of art all afternoon. And after Mom and I hit the gym last night, we split a wedge of pecorino tuscana and a bottle of Vino Nobile di Montepulciano.

Tonight, I am going out with some old friends from high school for some reveling in our age. We have had a few birthdays these past few days. It should be fun.

The real party is a gift from my mom and will occur 25Oct2011. Just a week and a half to go! Yey!

Sweetness, it was a lonely birthday without you, but it just means we will celebrate a little late this year. I know you are doing all you can. Similarly, I am doing everything I can think of to never spend another lonely night without you. We get so close sometimes I can feel it.

Care Bear Stare

2011-10-11T14:04:00.000-05:00

Yesterday, I learned that there are peaceful protesters in Des Moines, now. Occupy Iowa is in full swing. I had no idea that the people here had already organized. I think I might stop by and see what they are up to. Yey! Power to the people!

Today I learned that the line breaks I enter manually into the text of this blog do not appear on all computers as they should. I will try to fix that. I have been using XHTML style instead of HTML, so I am pretty sure I know how to fix it.

The US government is at it again with spreading around hatred. I do not understand how further alienating Iran will do anything but fuel the fire of distrust and potential violence between that particular nation and the Western World.

I am not suggesting group hugs and the "Care Bear Stare" to solve the problems that already exist, but we should do something other than make the problems worse. Iran does not need us. Never forget that. It is because of the heavy sanctions already against them that Iran is so defiant and independent.

Occupy Wall Street, please do not forget that there are some perfectly good millionaires out there supporting you. Even Warren Buffet, a billionaire, says that the super-rich do not pay enough taxes in the US.

Please make sure you focus your energy on reforming the greedy not on drawing a line in the income sand. Do not make this a protest that vents jealousy. Make this a protest that brings progress and reform. There are so many of you. Think of all of the problems you could fix.

Sweetness, why am I feeling all anxious with my body all tingly today? Is there good news I have not received, yet? Tomorrow is my birthday. Promise me you will go out and celebrate for me.

Dissent is American.

2011-10-09T14:34:00.000-05:00

Good afternoon, my beautiful world. My, you have been busy lately. Just how much can we accomplish by my birthday? I will be thirty-four on Wednesday.

Egypt, please remember to represent all of your people fairly and equally with your new government. Democracy is often a greater challenge than it needs to be. Remember to love your neighbor and defend your neighbor just as you love and defend yourself. You need to take care of each other if you want your new government to flourish and survive after it is born.

As for you, my protesting Americans, never let them take your voice away. Dissent is American. And there is no growth unless we challenge the status quo. Rage, my beautiful world, rage.

Sweetness, I sent you a letter today. It should reach you this week Thursday or Friday because of the holiday on Monday. I have no idea if you received my last two, but there is absolutely no reason why you should not receive this one. Also, it is okay to celebrate my birthday a few days late this year if we have to. I understand.

Apology Accepted

2011-10-07T14:17:00.000-05:00

Sweetness, is your foot out of your mouth yet? I have been in front of hidden cameras against my will and with no opportunity for redress for so long that I could almost agree with you about cameras. Then again, you have a choice. However, coming from someone who had been serially sexually abused with no recourse for safety for years, I just want you to know that your apology, as far as I am concerned, is accepted. Please stop choosing to do things that leave you feeling intruded and violated so often, though. And please no cameras in the house.

Steve Jobs

2011-10-06T18:50:00.000-05:00

Last night, we lost one of the greatest minds of technology and invention. He was right up there with Archimedes and Edison. He truly took an innovative bite out of the world.

Steve, the world is a better and more accessible place just because you graced us with your presence; we will miss you. Thank you for everything you gave us.

On a completely unrelated note, I am hoping that Occupy Wall Street calls out Obama the Sociopath for being a puppet of Wall Street. Dr. Cornel West has had a lot to say about our current president and all of the ways he has sold out. It is an interesting topic to google.

Oh, all you protesters, I am so proud of you. Do not forget to make concrete demands. Tell them how to make the changes you want.

Oddly, I had a dream about sock puppets last night. It was probably some sort of internalized political satire.

Sweetness, did you get any of my mail for this week, yet? I love you so madly... It is the only mad thing left about me. I cannot wait to sing sweet songs with you and dance to your music.

Power to the People

2011-10-04T15:54:00.000-05:00

Oh, all you protesters in New York, you are fed up and standing up. You seem to have largely idealogical goals right now. Make sure you set concrete steps to achieving your goals. You are large enough to tell people what your demands are. Make sure you have concrete demands.

It is one thing demand that they "Clean up Wall Street," but what is doable is demanding that certain people resign. Please make sure your demands are concrete, so you can actually do good in this world. There are so many of you. I am so proud.

I spent part of Sunday night at the Lift watching movies and partaking in tasty alcoholic beverages. At one point while sipping on something tasty and chock full of rum, I found myself explaining the existence of non-Euclidean geometries and the importance of the parallel postulate to a twenty-two year old as "From Dusk Till Dawn" played on one of the walls. I had a phenomenal weekend.

I hear many people expressing that they want to have both me and President Incompetent around. Well, it was President Incompetent who decided no one is allowed to have me. I live in a bubble where I am allowed to do nothing for this world because of him. If you want to someday have both of us, you need to kick Obama the Terrorist into line and make him clean up his human rights violations against me. Then, after he has mended his horrible ways, you will be able to have us both. I need to be released from this bubble first.

Sweetness, I saw the tasty posters for "The Rum Diary." I am very excited to see it. I also sent you a second letter last night. So, you should expect two letters this week. The first one should be there tomorrow. Yey!

October

2011-10-02T16:08:00.001-05:00

We are definitely in the throws of autumn out here. The leaves are changing; the weather is spectacular; and the lady bugs have returned to the house after a summer away.

Halloween, my favorite holiday of all, will soon be here. I was thinking about dressing up as myself this year.

October will be spectacular.

My birthday is on the 12th. Does anyone have plans? It looks like I will be celebrating with some other birthdays that Friday night.

Sweetness, I mailed you a short note today. It is only three pages long, but you will love it. You should expect it Wednesday. With every breath, I am closer to you.

What Goes Around...

2011-10-01T15:34:00.000-05:00

My mom spent four hours cooking bacon today. I think she did it just to be outside in the beautiful fall weather. Do not worry, she freezes it and eats it slowly. As much as she likes bacon, she hates having the smell in the house.

I had a pretty good night last night. I made it out of the house to the Gaslamp where I caught a great blues band. The crowds are so young in bars in Des Moines. They go out to party around here. I am used to people going out just for the sake of being out.

So, the US government treated Pakistan with very little respect for a prolonged period of time, and now the US government is whining that we no longer have a strong relationship with Pakistan? That is like Obama the Brat treating me like a prostitute and then complaining I will not support him for reelection. Are we sensing a pattern here?

Obama the Oppressor has no regard for other people, other nations, or even the people in his own country. He just does what he wants then throws a tantrum when people do not like him for it. Accountability. I doubt he even knows how to pronounce the word.

What goes around comes around. Try creating good in the world, and then see how people treat you. Create peace and stability, and the world will be peaceful and stable. This does not take a mathematician to explain.

Sweetness, I have a surprise for you. My mom got me a glorious birthday gift. I will let you know when I mail you my next letter. You will like it, trust me.

Write

2011-09-27T22:00:00.001-05:00

My life is dull. Everything is denied me. I cannot wait to breathe the fresh air as a free woman.

My beautiful world, start writing down the things you wish you could say. You are all denied freedom of speech, freedom of expression, and freedom of the press; you are not allowed to discuss me openly. Every day, write something about me... from song to short story to letter to speech to news article... good or bad... just get it out in words.

When you are ready, share what you write with each other.

I am worried about all of the social oppression taking away your voices for all topics. Never let them quiet you. When they want to silence us is when we need to speak the loudest.

Sweetness, you should be receiving that letter tomorrow or Thursday. I cannot wait for the day I am free to sit beside you and kiss your waiting face. I love you. I could wait for you the whole rest of my life, but I know we are close. I know we will not have to wait much longer at all.

The Queen of Sheba

2011-09-25T17:00:00.000-05:00

It seems Obama my Slave Owner has been hitting the campaign trail pretty hard. Be very cautious with what you listen to from President Incompetent. He is an established snake oil salesman. He promised hope and change three years ago and has delivered nothing to the nation he is supposed to be leading but selling out to Wall Street, worsening of all of our nation's problems, and now a re-election campaign full of more snake oil. Be very wary of him. He will always tell you what you want to hear and deliver nothing but more problems and weak leadership.

It is a good thing for the now famous hikers that their story inspired world involvement. President Incompetent never could have gotten them out.

Their story about not being allowed fair due process nor actual legal representation is exactly what I am going through here in Iowa. I also live in a world of lies where they want me to believe no one reads this blog; no one cares about my plight which they claim is all in my head; and no one writes me letters nor tries to call me ever. Yes, the Obama administration behaves much like the government of Iran... Please pardon me, Iran, if you take that as an insult.

There is good news coming out of Saudi Arabia today. Women there have gained the right to vote and hold office. Finally, women are being treated as a resource for the nation.

If you educate your women and allow them a chance to succeed in life, you have that many more qualified doctors, business owners, and community leaders for your people. Women are still an untapped resource in many nations, but allowing them to develop and grow is a great way to also develop and grow your nation itself.

Last night, a drunk young man called me "the Queen of Sheba of telling people what to do" while trying to convince me to walk him to his car. Normally, I would guide a drunk fellow to the nearest place he could call a cab, but his friends were about ten blocks away and across the river... and I was in stilettos. Regardless, I was completely tickled at being likened to the Queen of Sheba. She was dark and comely, you know.

Most impressively, there is absolutely no punishment for exercising your rights and freedoms and acknowledging who I am to my face. It is unconstitutional to say you cannot do any lawful thing you want. Go ahead, Iowa, make yourselves free again. If you all do it together, you will be unstoppable.

Sweetness, I mailed you letter today. It is not as romantic as the last one, but it is still pretty damn good. I saw the "Dark Shadows" article on Entertainment Weekly last night. You have joined the legions of the undead! How does it feel? Look for my letter Wednesday or Thursday, and wish me luck tomorrow!

Raspberries

2011-09-23T19:49:00.000-05:00

The tragedy of the Troy Davis story is a also philosophical one. We live in a society in which we are supposed to be innocent until proven guilty. There should be no situation where someone has to prove he or she is innocent. There should be only legal proceedings in which someone is or is not proven guilty.

It is appalling to me that there are detainees held in Guantanamo who do not even have any charges filed against them and who might still be there indefinitely. This is a failure of our society to maintain on of its fundamental and founding principles. Please refer to the Amendments.

On a much lighter note, why is there a "p" in "raspberry"? What makes them so raspy instead of razzy? Raspberries are my favorite food in all the world, you see, and when I found them on sale at the local grocery store a couple of nights ago and so late in the growing season, I had to indulge. Raspberries are one of the unsung joys of this world.

Sweetness, I really am going to need that lift to get out of here. Things in here do not look so good... despite there being raspberries.

Jane Goodall

2011-09-21T16:41:00.000-05:00

Good news is everywhere if you are open to it. I cannot wait for good news to come for me finally.

Iran, thank you. Your decision to commute their sentences really means a lot to me and a great deal of other people too around the world. We can create a more understanding world. You are proof of that.

Yes, I am focusing on the positive, but there is still suffering in the world. Yemen, it has already been proven in Tunisia, Egypt, and Libya that a united population can bring about a revolution on behalf of democracy and freedom. You can do this. Stay organized, and be very strategic with your resistance.

My beautiful world, I am always asking you for something. As always, resist the oppression imposed by the US government, and do your best to keep my darling Sweetness safe. What you have been doing lately seems to be working, please keep up all of the good hard work. There seems to be a lot of destiny and promise in the air these days. The winds of change are blowing. Please keep the fight alive until we win this. Oh, and do not forget your helmet on Friday.

When was the last time you thought of Jane Goodall and everything she has done for this planet? Yes, this is part of my only-say-positive-things kick. Saving the world is largely a thankless job, so why not stop and take a moment to thank Ms. Goodall for her decades of work on behalf of mankind? Follow the link and leave a comment box, or better yet, write her a letter. Spread around some love.

Sweetness, I must shyly admit that Starship's "Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now" always makes me think of you. Was that the theme from the movie "Mannequin"? I think it was. I love you. I adore you. I worry about you. I wait for you.

My Dull Life

2011-09-20T18:32:00.000-05:00

I lead a really dull life. I am living proof that an illegally enforced boring lifestyle makes the victim fight exciting battles. I go out for coffee every day, and on occasion I write a blog post. That is my life right now. Obama the Tyrant does not allow me anything more.

The United Nations General Assembly is convening in New York right now. I wish I were there. My high school choir sang in the UN building's lobby during my junior year. I would love to see the pale blue walkway again.

While I was in Mexico City last year, it was suggested to me that I take my case to the UN. I think they are fully aware of me, now. There is a lot in this world that my dull life is responsible for.

I would like to finish what I start. I would like to do more (if not enough) for the world, but it will require the UN to stand up and demand I be set free. I wonder how many of them care.

Someone not leading a dull life right now is Tony Bennett. Happy Birthday, and WOW, Tony, you sure know how to make the news. What? The Bush family is trying to hide the truth? Is anyone surprised?

Please, President Karzai, do not let this become an impediment. The peace process is much too important. We all want to see a peaceful, stable, and secure Afghanistan. Please do not allow anything to fall apart. Yes, it is a horrible loss, but do not allow it to stop your government from negotiating peace with the Taliban.

Sweetness, do I get to squeeze you, hug you, and love you soon? Sigh... It is okay to say you are still working on it. I am, after all, still working on it myself. I love you, darling, and I wait with baited breath for the moment I finally get to kiss your waiting face.

Positive and a Little Fluffy

2011-09-17T17:02:00.001-05:00

This blog post is going to be a little light and fluffy. I am trying to concentrate on the positive things in the world. I am trying to only say good things... We will see if I have anything to say at all.

I just had lunch at China Moon, my favorite restaurant in the area. Not only do they serve tasty Chinese cuisine, but they also have a full tiki bar... you know, just in case you need a Scorpion Bowl or a Singapore Sling. They even have a daily drink special, in case you want to try them all in moderation. The only other tiki bar I know of in the area is Fong's down on 4th and Court Ave. in Des Moines, but they mostly serve pizza.

I love a good tiki bar. The Tonga Room is my favorite. Not only does the band there play in a floating hut, but their dance floor is the deck of a ship still with full rigging. I recommend the Pineapple Royale.

Speaking of ships, my mom and my little sister were once given a tour of the USS Nimitz back when my uncle worked on it. I was not there with them to go on the tour, but I would love to see the ship someday.

What? What does a preaching pacifist want to do on a tour of a gargantuan battleship? Well, let me tell you. I still like to marvel, you know, at wonders of technology in the (post- post-) modern age we live in. Well, that and the fact the military and I get along. I would love to marvel at a wonder of the military world as a thank you for everything. We'll see when I am finally set free if I can finagle a tour.

I was surprised to learn something today. Did you know that Johnny Cash's "A Boy Named Sue" was written by Shel Silverstein? (Did anyone else think Shel Silverstein's "The Missing Piece" was about lesbianism? I had that theory in high school.)

I should have sung along with it when I heard it on the radio today. I have resolved to sing more often. Singing really cheers me up. I am horribly uninspired these days, but I am trying to get in a few songs every day. I sang some Madonna and some Traveling Wilburys today. Yes, I am trying to exercise my voice a little more.

Libya, you should be exercising your voices, too. I know you are in a mad rush right now to finally root out Gadhafi, but you as a people need to be preparing for leading your peaceful and democratic future once you can finally bring him to trial. There is no better time than now for building the government you as a people want for your country. You have done so much good work; do not it slip away by not being ready to bring self-sovereign order to your country.

Sweetness, I am pretty good with words, but I do not think even I can find the right words for expressing just how much I love you. Look at everything you do for me. When was the last time I could do anything but give you my words? At least you have everything I have to give. You should have received my latest letter yesterday or today. I love you.

The Latest from Iran

2011-09-14T20:29:00.000-05:00

Yes, I had yet another day of life with absolutely everything on hold. I am not allowed to have a job. I am not allowed to have a husband. I am not allowed to travel. I am not allowed to speak with my friends. I am not allowed to have my basic human rights. I am not allowed to discuss this with anyone. I am not allowed to do anything with my days but drink coffee and write anguished blog posts.

I had a day of staring up at the sky and dreaming... dreaming of the days I get to touch those skies as a free woman again.

At least we are making progress somewhere on this planet. Thank you, Iran. I know that relations between the US and Iranian governments is still strained, and this will go a long way to creating a more understanding world. I know you are not very popular here President Ahmadinejad, but do not worry about that. Even the current president of the United States is not popular in this country these days. We will see a better world one day.

Speaking of Obama my Persecutor, I have long said that the Democratic party should not allow him to run in 2012 to save themselves. He is the dead albatross around the neck of the party. How long has he been bought out by Wall Street? Why did he not try saving America's jobless until after he decided to run again? How much of this failure of a president can this country take?

Sweetness, I mailed you a letter today. It was so long it barely fit in the envelope. I wanted to include some pressed flowers, but there was no room for them. You will have to settle for my improvised alternative token of affection. Until the days I am free to kiss your face...

Another Day of this Hell has Passed...

2011-09-12T20:40:00.000-05:00

... I am trying to look at the good side of things. It was a day of hell I will never have to repeat. It is gone forever.

I wonder deeply what went on out there outside of my bubble today. Here, stuck in this hell, I trudged through explanations of how my father is ruining my life and actively removing any ability for me to have a job or any semblance of a normal life. I have no idea what is going on out there. I am grateful for all messages from the "beyond," but I could have really used some context for the one I received today.

I have taken to watching movies at The Lift on Sunday nights. Ignore the hours on their website. They are open Sundays from 7pm to 2am and show movies all night. Tip your bartender well.

I was there chatting things up until the wee hours of the morning last night. September 11th anniversaries are odd things. They make me want to be social and connected. I direly miss all of my old neighborhood and still await the day I have the freedoms and rights to spend time with my own friends.

The US Open was particularly exciting this year. I am a tennis addict, as you all probably well know. As horrible as I am at playing the sport, I love to watch it. It gives me an escape from the maddening doldrums that have become my life.

I am constantly threatened. I am constantly persecuted. It is not glamorous being denied doing anything with my days but drinking coffee and writing anguished blog posts; it is boring. Think of everything I could be doing for this world with my intelligence and talents if this bubble would just burst.

And what are the rules on what other people do and do not get to acknowledge under the bubble, again? How is there supposed to be any honest legal proceeding if the truth is not allowed to be addressed? I am caught in a looking glass where reality is suspended for everyone but me, and they are trying to claim I am the one who is confused. If the state of Iowa would just have honest conversations about reality, for once, and travel outside of their bubble more often, they might not be so lost and confused all of the time.

Please, my beautiful world, get the truth into Iowa. Most Iowans have a backwoods view of travel. They never do it and think it is a sign of mental illness. We are going to have to package up truth and bombard the people here with it. The hearing for terminating my father's adult guardianship was moved to 26Sep2011.

Sweetness, I have no idea what has been going on, but is everyone okay? It is okay, whatever it is; I have a camera to keep safe when I sleep at night. Do what you need to do. Just keep trying new things to get me out of this anguished holding facility they call Iowa. I have no idea what you are facing out there; otherwise, I would be more helpful. I honestly have no idea how or why the public is being a party to this bubble. I have no idea what battles you need to fight to get me out. Whatever you need, just ask. I love you.

Anniversary

2011-09-10T19:34:00.001-05:00

Tomorrow is a big anniversary. It marks ten years since the biggest event to change this nation forever. It is time we looked at ourselves and asked some big questions. Are we a better people now? Are we a safer people now? Are we a freer people today than we were then? The answers might surprise you.

Are we a better people now? We are definitely a different people. When I hear about the conflict over whether or not a mosque has the freedom to be built near ground zero, I wonder. I believe we still need to work on including more people and singling out fewer. If we rise from the ashes of 9/11 to build a nation of love instead of war, then, yes, we are a better people.

Are we a safer people now? We are more vigilant everyday citizens; we are more aware of each other and our surroundings. I believe both the people and the government learned a big lesson on that fateful day ten years ago. When we stop instigating hatred in other nations and in other peoples, then there will be no fuel for the terrorism. Our safety depends on our role in the global community. Are we creating good in the world?

Are we a freer people today than we were then? You know my answer to that one. Our freedoms and rights are exactly what terrorists want to take away from us. The problem with no longer being a free people is that it means the terrorists have won. Why did we allow the terrorists to win? Ask yourself that. Ask yourself that every day until you fight the oppression poisoning America today.

We have allowed 9/11 to make us vengeful and angry. We have allowed terrorism to take away our freedoms and rights. When will we fix the real problems? When will we change from a weapon in the world to a creature of love? Please, America, consider the big picture when you look at our once-great nation tomorrow. We can rise out of these ashes, but we have to bother to do it.

Sweetness, what are your plans for tomorrow? I plan on having a quiet day and going out for a movie at night. I love and adore you. How much longer is it until we have the rights and freedoms to be together?

It is an Eventuality...

2011-09-07T19:36:00.000-05:00

My beautiful world, you all know what sort of enemies I have. You all know what dangers I face. You all know how quickly you need to save me if you want me to be able to see this world as a free woman ever again.

They are intent on killing me.

My enemies have resources. They have corruption running all of the way from President Incompetent to my father. They are also deeply frustrated right now by my tenacious grasp on life and are getting a little desperate.

Yes, keep pushing with everything you have to end this completely once and for all. Do not worry about their retaliation against me. I have been taking the brunt of their rape, torture, and abuse for almost three years, now. Just push with everything you have to make it end. If you can burst the bubble, I will be allowed to have a security team finally.

Most importantly, stop doing what they want.

Just plain exercise your freedom of the press. It is necessary for the public to get the news and the truth on current events in order to be a free and functioning society. Journalists, you are doing the world an unforgivable disservice if you are denying the public information they need and deserve. Ask yourself whom you serve. Do you serve the president who oppresses us all, or do you serve the greater good?

It is US policy not to negotiate with terrorists. We never pay ransoms. We never cave to the demands of those that threaten our nation.

This should extend to the people of America as well. Simply stop being an oppressed nation. En masse, just stop doing what they want.

Do you, my beautiful world, answer to the president who oppresses this great world, or do you answer to the greater good? Make your choice.

Sweetness, do not worry so much. My enemies know that if they martyr me, I win all that much faster. They know that if they kill me, the world will rise up and tear them all down with a vengence. That is why they invested so much time and energy on the lost cause of defaming me. The world saw through it. The world will know who killed me if anything but old age gets me. You just need to get me into your arms before they get desperate(r) and stupid(er). Please ask my beautiful world to get me to safety before this gets uglier.

Where is the World Leadership?

2011-09-05T19:20:00.001-05:00

I was watching television the other day, and I felt the itch. Does anyone else think it is a horrid waste of my talents and abilities that I am locked in the bubble? I felt the itch to do something great for the world.

Look at everything I can accomplish while in a bubble; now think of everything I could be capable of as a free force for good in this world. I am not even allowed a part-time job under the rules of the bubble. It has now almost been three years with the great nothing-but-persecution enforced over me, and I long to rejoin society as a free and contributing member of the community.

It it not only that I am due my basic human and Constitutional rights. It is also that the world needs me to be free. The world honestly needs me.

I can do more than dance.

Meanwhile, the man who is supposed to be the Leader of the Free World is still suspending the basic and Constitutional rights of this entire once-great nation. How is that leading the free world? When will President Incompetent lead anything but oppression?

There is no acceptable excuse for taking rights away from the people especially by a government that was built to protect those rights. The government is, in fact, designed to intervene to protect all rights and freedoms. If our freedoms, rights, and liberties are not intact, then we have been protected from nothing by the actions of our government.

Instead of a strong Leader of the Free World right now out leading nations to save the world, we have an international force leading oppressed masses to fight for their freedom. Where is the world leadership right now? The world leadership is with the oppressed fighting for freedom.

We came very close to having another Cold War world order between Western nations and the Arab world. Each culture has been taught to demonize the other for so long. Somehow, a Western woman has touched the Arab world and shown that Americans can be something other than hate-mongerers. Similarly miraculously, the Middle Eastern and North African people risking slaughter to rise up and fight for their rights and freedoms has humanized Muslims of the world to Westerners.

Imagine what I would be capable of if I were only treated as I deserve by the US government... as a fellow human in need of having her full human and Constitutional rights protected and defended.

Just imagine how bright I could shine.

Sweetness, I wonder sometimes if I would fight so hard if I at least had the freedom to be with you. Being kept away from you drives me; it drives me with fire, rage, and desperation. I blogged in October 2009 that the government should have made me complacent if they truly wanted to control me. Sadly, all they know and understand is violence and cruelty. This world has been in need of a loving, strong, and gentle leader for a long, long time. I love you more with every passing moment. Dream of me.

Epic Love

2011-09-03T21:47:00.000-05:00

Sweetness, I know the look of love. It was on your face. How does it feel to be caught up in the greatest true love story ever? I find it miserable, beautiful, and empowering all at once.

In many ways, I could have chosen anyone. So many people were throwing themselves at my feet back then. Sigh,... the things that an wrongful bad reputation does for a woman's popularity... Yet in just as many ways, I was helpless but to choose you.

I cannot fight what we are meant to be.

It was when you passed me on the motorcycle... That was when I knew you were ready. I just needed that sign. When I was ready, I wrote you that first letter. I should have done it sooner. If I only knew then what I know now.

The best part is... in choosing you I chose an equal. Are you feeling that, yet? Have you yet come to terms with what you are capable of?

Now, imagine us together. Imagine all of the good we could do in this world.

I would move heaven and earth to be with you. You would move the stars and the planets to be with me. Nothing can stand in the way of this kind of love. That is what I saw on your face all those years ago.

I was helpless but to choose you. It was always you. I never had a choice.

Never let me hear of any "pain of being in love." Your love is all I have to get me out of bed most days to face the world that ignores or mistreats me. You are the lightness in my being. I never want to hear our love causes you pain.

Yes, it hurts that we cannot be together. And yes, it hurts how much I have been punished for professing my love for you. And yes, it hurts how much we must fight to soon be together.

But it is not our love that hurts me. It is our love that carries me through the pain.

Until the last mountain is moved, my heart and soul live in your hands. And after that, when I am no longer with this world, they will follow you forever granting you blessings where they may. I cannot fight what we are meant to be.

My beautiful world, please take care of my beloved Sweetness. Do what he asks. Help him, and keep him safe. Get to any problem you can before he has to face it. Trust him the way you trust me.

Risk? Risk of What? Impeaching Obama to get to Freedom?

2011-09-01T18:43:00.000-05:00

Pray tell, what could anyone possibly claim I am at risk of? If there were some entity in the world that could threaten me (other than the US government that mandates the bubble), that entity would not be stopped by a mere bubble... a bubble, I might add, that enforces I am not allowed to have a privatized security team keeping me safe at all times. If there were some great, awful, peace-and-love-hating threat to me out there in the world, refusing to allow my beloved Love of my Life near me would not stop that threat from harming me.

Look at how I have been treated because of this bubble. Clearly, the bubble is the threat to me.

I have been tortured, abused, raped, drugged, and etc... to appease this bubble. The horrid mistreatment of me in the English torture facility is what taught me how to hate.

Yes, I am at risk. I am at risk of learning to hate all of humanity because I am stored in this bubble.

I have yet to figure out how the public was brainwashed into abiding by the bubble in the first place. By mere existence, a bubble cannot serve the greater good. If we all have to live without our "God-given," inherent, human, and Constitutional rights, what could anyone possibly claim this bubble is protecting?

It is not protecting me from anything... It just prevents me from better helping the world. And no one can argue I do not do that. No one can argue that is not my dharma, my calling in life.

What am I at risk of? I am at risk of leading this once great nation to impeach President Incompetent, so I can finally be treated as a human in this world. I am a force for good in this world, and since this world needs me to be free, this world also needs this sort of intervention.

Obama, you bratty child, you seem to have a chance to save yourself right now. I recommend you do what is right for once and set me free... I would hate to see what would come and get you if you did not. What goes around comes around tenfold in this world (Or was it sevenfold?)... Have you ever read the Bible?

Sweetness, once we are together we will be an unstoppable force for good in this world. What kind of person stands in the way of that? You are right, the evil are the only ones who could ever stand in the way of that. What does this tell us about the people spreading lies to be able to hurt me with their bubble? Your latest letter should be in LA by Saturday. I love you so (ironically enough) madly.

The Beautiful Sky

2011-08-31T19:39:00.000-05:00

I was just outside taking in the beautiful sky. It is such a beautiful world we live in. I have faith in the world as an organism. I have faith in humanity. I have faith this torture of a bubble will end. I have faith in you, my beautiful world. I have faith you will save me.

I wrote this on 10July2010 at approximately 11:11am in a flash while I was locked away in a torture facility the UK...

I Will Walk This Earth Barefoot
(c)2010 Squid B. Varilekova

I will walk this Earth barefoot.
I will bathe in its rain dancing.
This terra's fire will carry me
like a bird song through mountain leaves.

I will step not knowing more
than that I step again
on this great green Earth
on a path ever forward into knowing.

I will dance ever-trusting the rain
will always fall to quench
the Earth and Sky and Seas and People.
The mountains yawn to bathe in lightning.

My fire will burn with change and progress.
The sky will dawn in fires of morning
of newness of birth of growth of life.
The Earth will always hold a fire within.

The wind will blow my hair in rivers--
flowing ourtward from my mind on the breeze.
The air will touch your own windowsill,
So we may sing together.
Yes, we shall sing together.

I will walk this Earth barefoot.
I will bathe in its rain dancing.
This terra's fire will carry me
like a bird song through mountain leaves.

When Have I Done Enough?

2011-08-30T17:11:00.000-05:00

How much do I have to suffer and how many people do I have to save before I am acknowledged as a fellow human by our government (local all of the way to federal)? When have I done enough to be treated as an equal? When have I suffered enough to be saved myself from this bubble of persecution?

There is no lawful reason for a bubble of this sort to exist. Think about it. How could anyone ever justify treating any human the way I have been treated by this government? This is persecution. And persecution is illegal.

Sweetness, I sent you a letter today. It should arrive at the usual place on Friday or Saturday. I dream of you. Dreams of you are all I have these days. The government allows me nothing else.

It Should Have Been Enough.

2011-08-28T14:37:00.000-05:00

The bubble itself is a cruel and unusual punishment. The bubble alone should have been enough to turn me into a cruel, fire-breathing monster of a public figure intent on nothing but revenge and violence. The compliance of the general public with the bubble should have been enough to make me give up on humanity completely. Just try living through everything this bubble inflicts on me and see if you still love the world almost three years later.

You are all so very lucky I am who I am.

I did not allow myself to hate humanity. I did not allow myself to stop caring for the world. I am a responsible soul, and I can be trusted.

When will I have the basic human and Constitutional rights I deserve as a human under the jurisdiction of the US government? When will I finally have living conditions worth enduring? When will I finally be allowed to be with my loved ones? When will I finally be treated as I deserve... as an equal instead of as a subhuman creature?

Do I not deserve to be treated at least as a human and an equal?

My beautiful world, may I ask you for help? May I ask you to make a list of all of the things I do and have done in this world? And then may I ask you to spread that list around?

I am surrounded by people who are either inherently cruel or who have no idea what I have accomplished in the last (almost) three years. I do not deserve to be ignored. I do not deserve to be persecuted. The only way to show me the respect I deserve is to outright refuse to comply with the rules of the illegal bubble.

We need to get the ball of blatant non-compliance rolling. If persuading Iowans to stand up for their own rights and mine does not work, we need to organize and invasion of Iowa with people who will publicly give examples of refusing to comply. Send me foreigners. Send me out-of-Staters. Send me anyone with the moral convictions to get this bubble burst.

I need and deserve my rights. This State needs to wake up. This nation needs to end its oppression. This world needs me free.

Please help.

Sweetness, did you get my letter last week? I have a sneaky feeling you have been very busy lately... in a very good way. I have yet to figure out what happened with the US Open (tennis) due to the arrival of Hurricane Irene in New York. Do you know if everyone is okay? I am trying to lay off the poetry right now... It gives me such a rush. I love you, Mr. Love-of-my-Life, and I cannot wait for whatever you have planned.

Be Responsible.

2011-08-25T18:53:00.000-05:00

This is a time for everyone to be responsible. The new Libyan government that is about to emerge needs to choose its influences responsibly just as the world must be responsible in how it deals with the successful rebels. We all want a strong, fair, stable government in Libya. Please be very responsible, all of you, with what you do next.

Here in the States, be very responsible preparing for Hurricane Irene. Be prepared for the worst that could hit your area. Get yourself and your loved ones to safety. Help each other, and keep each other safe. Evacuate if recommended. Stock up on supplies... Follow the advice from the experts and officials. Also, move your travel plans so that you do not go to nor through the East Coast for a few weeks. I hear California is lovely right about now.

Assuming DC survives the weekend, be responsible, America, when considering and questioning 2012 candidates. George W. Bush was evil. Obama the Human Trafficker is the sociopath who sold himself as the supposed hope and change that would save us from that evil but who proved to be nothing but another form of evil himself. This time, America, take great care to choose a strong and gentle leader who can heal a broken nation. Ask the right questions. Make the right demands. And of course, be politically active. Show an interest. Turn this country into what you want it to be.

And finally, be very responsible, my beautiful world, with what you choose to do concerning me. Do not choose to let someone else do the work of rescuing me. Take responsibility and take some initiative, my beautiful world. Organize. Have a master plan. Make contingency plans. Come rescue me.

I am too responsible to allow myself to be persecuted any longer than I can help it. Too many people need me to be free. That is why I always ask for help. I know I need help to get a rescue.

Please, my beautiful world, come get me.

Sweetness, I hope my poem yesterday was not too much love all at once for you. I had a Byron moment, and that is how it manifested. I have so much to give this world. I just need a chance. I know you are leading the charge to rescue me. I know how much I can count on you. Assuming it is soon, I hope we are going West. The East Coast looks like a no-travel-zone for the next few weeks.

He Speaks in Rivers, Like the Winds...

2011-08-24T18:16:00.000-05:00

I woke up late today and zipped off to the coffee shop as soon as possible. I chatted with Kyle and put on my lipstick for the day while he made me my mocha. I was there for about an hour, and this is what I came up with... I stole the structure from something far more beautiful in its metaphor. When I feel the muse, I move quickly to capture what is passing.

He Speaks in Rivers

He speaks in rivers, like the winds
do blow in moods all different.
When passionate caresses find
a breeze across my face, he spent
his gentle words on love so blind
with whispered meanings never bent.
The wild sirocco wields less heat
than how he scorches obstacles
against our love. No mighty feat
compares to ice and icicles
he volleys wide to ever beat
naysayers ways and spectacles.

The California zephyr knows
how he pulls upon my heart.
From his dark eyes to his trained toes,
I was a willow from the start.
My branches dancing, his winds blow.
He moves my being through his art.

--(c) 2011 Squid B. Varilekova a.k.a. Tanya H. A. Varilek

The truest test I have found for whether or not my mind is working properly is whether or not I can write poetry... metered or otherwise.

Sweetness, I have more than pretty words to give you.

I do Wait.

2011-08-23T11:06:00.000-05:00

President Incompetent is my slave driver. No, I will not give him a break. Obama the Human Trafficker needs to be impeached for his human rights violations against me and this entire nation.

This is no time to rally around the brat who took away your Constitutional rights, your right to peaceably assemble (with me), and your right to freedom of the press. This is a time to point out his similarities to the dictators that we are toppling.

Defy Obama the Tyrant, and his reign of oppression will end. Set yourselves free.

In the immortal words of Kermit the Frog, "Someday we'll find it, the Rainbow Connection, the lovers, the dreamers, and me."

Soon America will be free again. You, the ones on the fence, you need to ask yourselves, do you want to be part of the solution, or do you want to continue being part of the problem we sweep away?

Sweetness, you have probably noticed by now that my mojo has been working just fine lately. Many the doting man and woman of varying charm and ability has tried a hand at wooing me. But I am yours completely. Though they all know that, they seem helpless to flirt anyway... Yes, it feeds my ego. I know you are not so insecure that I need to remind you of how much you can trust me. I will wait for you until the sun defies the sky and rains upon the moon. We are meant to be, my darling Sweetness. I do wait for you faithfully.

Light a Fire Under your Closest Iowan.

2011-08-21T19:18:00.000-05:00

The Libyan revolution is coming to an end. Or, is this the beginning? Kadaffi is almost ousted. His sons are arrested. Tripoli is surrounded. The regime is about to collapse. This is something to celebrate, my beautiful world.

This is also a time when the new Libya needs to take its responsibilities to build its new democracy very seriously. Build the country you want and deserve, Libya. Include everyone fairly. Start from the people and build up.

Also in the region, it seems Egypt and Israel are having a bit of a misunderstanding right now. Egypt, we all know you do not want to see any of your soldiers die. With your fledgling democracy still sinking its roots for your millennium-old people, it is very important to establish as much peaceful strength in the region as you can. You want your new government to last the ages, and the best way to do that is by being strong and never seeing war.

As for you, Iran,... Please. When you look at the hikers you recently convicted, imagine they are me. I similarly love to travel the world and see exotic locations. I am fascinated by regions with ancient peoples. I have been accused of espionage on many the occasion. I am not so different from those hikers. Please treat them as you would treat me.

Here in the Americas... With all of the drama we have already seen this year due to Global Climate Change, hurricane season seems to be just beginning. Stay safe out there, my beautiful world. Evacuate if you have to. Stick to calm waters. Help each other. The last thing we need is more mass suffering.

And speaking of mass suffering, a woman spoke in code to me last night here in Iowa to make a point of telling me that she is not oppressed. Yes, Iowa is that brainwashed. She had to speak in code to tell me she is not oppressed. From this there is only one conclusion...

Iowa does not give a damn about me when everyone else does because they are brainwashed.

There is also a possibility that they are only in this for themselves, and I am actually not worth anything to them. Either way, I really think they do not know what they have got in me.

The masses love and adore me outside of Iowa. Have you heard yet how Orlando would treat me if I could ever find a way to visit? If someone were a hero and employed me, shipped me to Sweetness, or otherwise rescued me from my evil father, said hero would be showered with international attention and praise.

If Iowa were to stand up to the federal government, they would find allies in other states. They could also create a safe haven here that would allow celebrities and world leaders to finally visit me. Who does not want to run into their childhood hero at the local coffee shop?

Iowa could easily be a hero, but instead they are brainwashed into thinking they are not oppressed. They are brainwashed into pitiable weakness. My beautiful world, seek out Iowa, and hold their balls to the wall. Light a fire under your closest Iowan.

We can end the persecution of me. It starts by getting Iowa on its feet. To get Iowa on its feet, you must be on your feet, my beautiful world. As I said, light a fire under your closest Iowan.

Sweetness, I mailed you a letter today. I know it is Sunday, but I did drop it at the post office earlier this afternoon. Just as I had promised, I juiced up the romance in this one. You will surely enjoy it. I do so love and adore you. I know you are doing everything you can for me. That is enough to get me out of bed every morning... but I have no idea what I could ever have for you that could ever compare to the freedom you are winning for me. My life, my heart, my soul, my future, all of my romantic love and devotion... those were all already yours.

Are you Standing up Against the Oppression, Yet?

2011-08-20T12:29:00.000-05:00

I owe Train and Maroon 5 a huge THANK YOU for the show they put on last night at the fair. I had no idea you guys could rock so hard... nor that both of your voices are naturally so high. It was a damn good show. Thank you. It felt damn good to get my dance on.

In sad news, my father is again no longer allowing me any of my own money. For the last month, most likely out of guilt for his actions, he actually allowed me enough of my own money to go out, drink coffee, listen to music, and buy necessities. Now, he has returned to allowing me NONE of my own funds for ANYTHING. At least I could buy some underwear for the first time in six months last month. I finally have more than just one bra now.

Do we see an end to the oppressive reign of Obama the Tyrant, yet? I cannot believe they are not impeaching him yet over his policies concerning me. Obama the Terrorist is the one enforcing that I have no human rights. He is the one taking away all of America's First Amendment rights.

How did he sell it to the public to get away with it? Why does the public allow it to continue? Iowa is like a mass of brainwashed zombies doing everything they are told instead of thinking for themselves. I was just at the Iowa State Fair last night, and not one person acknowledged me.

Iowa, WAKE UP! It is the federal government that OPPRESSES you! They do NOT protect you! They do NOT protect me! They take away all of our rights for no reason but to get away with the wrongs they already committed. If we have no rights, what could they possibly be protecting?

If you do not have the freedom to approach me on the street and tell me your honest opinion of me, good or bad, you are oppressed.

Iowa, you need to fight for your rights and freedoms. Have you seen the flag of the state of Iowa lately? Are you truly maintaining your rights and liberties? No, you are not. When was the last time you can remember having full freedom of the press in Des Moines? You need to stand up and make yourselves free.

I can see it in your eyes, Iowa. You want to be able to say you are good people. You want to be able to say you do the right thing. But you are why I am persecuted. Look at your courts. Look at my father running rampant and free to hurt me. Look at how the public ignores me when I am out among them.

If you truly are a people that does the right thing, you will pick me up and deliver me to my waiting Sweetness to be loved at last. You will not expect someone else to do a job that is yours. You will accept your responsibility. You will treat me with the respect I am due. And, you will set me free.

Come now, Iowa, we know you want to. Let nothing stop you from doing what is right in this world.

Sweetness, I feel so loved these days. You do such an amazing job of making me feel loved. When my psychic connection with the universe went away from my taking my new meds, I thought I would never feel your heart beating next to mine again. Now I know that it will soon be a real heartbeat next to my body that I feel. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you, my love.

Life to Live

2011-08-17T22:22:00.000-05:00

You need to stand up and exercise your freedom of speech and freedom of the press, people. You need to communicate all that much more every time they try to shut you up. You cannot allow those that want you oppressed to have that power over you. Never let your enemy dictate the terms on which you fight.

Clearly, I am not going to allow the malevolence of my father to stop me from doing anything. I have music to see. I have friends to spend time with. I have opinions to voice. I have a life to live, and I sure as hell will not allow my evil, old father get in the way of anything more than this situation requires.

My beautiful world, I know you are coming to save me. I also know that you know what sort of enemies you are up against. Think big. Think epic. Be very strategic. Have contingency plans. I know you will save me.

Sweetness, expect mail tomorrow. It is not as romantic as usual. I am so sorry about that; I have been so panicked. I promise I will juice up the next letter to you... lots of verbal lipstick and perfume. I love you so madly. Now, get on your noble steed and lead the charge to rescue me. Hee-hee.

Some Light Reading for You

2011-08-16T14:45:00.000-05:00

I had intentions today to write a light and happy blog post. I was going to talk about my friends' punk band named S.E.R.F. that played Saturday night and about how I just bought a Train and Maroon 5 ticket for the Iowa State Fair. Sadly, I read my mail today before I could write such a happy blog post. Here is some light reading for you... (Just click on the thumbnails to make them readable.)

Yesterday while he was verbally abusing me again, I learned that my father has been making doctor's appointments for me with doctors other than the ones I see and not telling me about them. He is also still clearly perjuring himself. He is still lying and claiming that I do not take my meds, which I take faithfully. This tyrant needs to be stopped.

These documents were sent to the Polk County probate court... the court that granted him adult guardianship over me in the first place a year ago. This is a different court than the one he used to have me committed. Clearly, he would rather have me institutionalized.

Yes, I need your help. Please do everything you can think of. We are on a short time line, my beautiful world. Take action.

I am panicking. My beautiful world, I need a rescue, and I need it fast. I have faith you will save me, but I cannot help but panic right now.

My father is still running rampant doing evil in the world. He needs to be stopped.

Sweetness, I am panicking. I can think of nothing else I can do to save myself than beg and plead for help. I am sending you mail today. My mind is such a mess today. I love you. Please make sure the whole world helps you.

The News was Inspiring.

2011-08-15T21:02:00.000-05:00

Obama the Slave Driver is out campaigning instead of doing his real job and leading the nation. Exercise your freedom of speech. Spite him by exercising your right to peaceably assemble and associate. Show up at his appearances to protest and heckle. Out-voice his sycophants and force President Incompetent to confront America's true opinion of him.

Yes, my beautiful world, stand up and stand proud. Organize and act... the bigger the better. Take control of this nation away from the corrupt. Peaceful protest is so powerful it clearly makes them scared.

Justice comes in so many forms. But it will not come at all unless the people demand it. This is no time to take supposedly "God-given" rights for granted. We actually have to organize and act if we want to see justice in today's world.

Human rights are the beginning of civilized society. It is only after mutual respect for each other as living creatures with rights and liberties is established that our society can blossom and flourish. Without the basic human rights guaranteed by the Amendments to the US Constitution, we cannot be a prosperous nation.

My beautiful world, I know you listen to me. I know you are planning a way to get around Obama the Oppressor to rescue me. Do not forget to think as big as possible to be able to do this. You know what sort of enemies I have, and you know you need to keep yourselves in large enough number to ensure your own safety and influence. Thank you, my beautiful world, thank you.

Sweetness, I started you a new letter today. Let us pray I am in your arms before this next letter is. No, that does not mean I will slow down my writing of it.

Think Big. Do Big.

2011-08-14T22:20:00.000-05:00

By my father's own admission, he does not allow me enough of my money to live on to make sure I cannot hire a lawyer to hold him accountable for not giving me enough of my own money to live on. If my father were sane, intelligent, or even slightly morally good, he would just cease committing all of the crimes he has made a pattern of committing against me instead of propagating them thinking it will save him.

Evil begets evil, dad, and you have been sowing the seeds of evil for well over a year now. Evil will get you in the end.

We need to stop my father from being able to hurt me anymore. Do everything you can, my beautiful world. Think big, and take him down like the hot-air-blowing blimp he is. Please, save me from my father.

Now, as for things in the news... The US courts seem split over the health care Obamination.

As I have said a million times, everybody wants to have health insurance. The only thing that stops people from obtaining health insurance is its prohibitive cost. If you want the entire country to have health coverage, all you have to do is make coverage affordable. That last thing you should do is make it illegal to be too poor to afford it. That solves nothing.

There are mixed opinions on whether or not the health care Obamination affects the economy, but I know for sure that there is only one thing that can bring a country out of a recession-- confidence in the nation and the economy. It is the people who turn an economy around. And the people need confidence to do it, and that confidence comes from leadership.

But have you seen what America's leadership looks like these days? Obama my Slaver's approval rating is through the floor right now because he would rather shift blame and campaign for re-election than lead this once great nation. The United States of America needs a leader. But all we have is President Incompetent who enforces the entire nation give up our First Amendment rights rather than be a free and prosperous nation.

My beautiful country, you need to think big if you want to save America. You have to think bigger than the president. We have to create a social and political climate that mandates the president set us all free again. We have to go over Obama the Oppressor's head to the people of America to end all of this oppression. Once we are all free people again, we will have confidence, and turning this economy around will be easy.

My beautiful world, we have to think big and act big. We have to do big things right now. We have to act on an epic scale in order to get me to my freedom and human rights.

Yes, my beautiful world, take the initiative and act grandly. We all know my Sweetness is leading the charge to rescue me, but he needs all of you out doing everything you can in order to make this happen. Think big. Do big. And thank you, my beautiful world. I know you will rescue me.

Sweetness, are you getting the help you need? I am doing everything I can think of. You should not have to do this alone. Yes, I have been trying to cheer myself up lately by seeing a lot of live music. All you need to do is bring the rescue. Let me worry about bearing all of this misery until the rescue comes. I love you. That alone is enough to keep me waking up every day.

Take a Good Long Look

2011-08-12T17:03:00.000-05:00

Do you recall how many times I warned you all that the corrupt powers that torture and enslave me just want to create chaos and ruin in the world in order to profit off it?

Now, take a good long look at the world. Take a good long look at Europe. Look at the UK's riots and look at the conditions of the international banks. Look at how close the US came to a financial meltdown... a threat that still looms because we are not yet paying off our debt. Look at the racism-driven wars that still rage between East and West in the Arab World.

We need more than just Obama's slave girl doing everything possible to stand in the way of their conspiracy for world ruin.

Sweetness, you know what we are up against. The corruption leaches all of the way from Obama the Human Trafficker to my evil father. This is why you need to think in huge and epic terms. If you never give up on me, I will never give up on you. As always, if you are dedicated to saving me, I will stay dedicated to saving the world. Just make sure the world knows what to do to help you.

My beautiful world, please help. Fight. They have had generations to plan their path towards world chaos and ruin, but they have to get through us first. Do everything you can at every level to create peace and understanding in this world.

Help each other. Help me. Help my Sweetness. Do good out there. I will fight for you even if you do not rescue me, but I could really use your help right about now. Organize. United we can do anything. Create a plan to rescue me, my beautiful world, and I will stay dedicated to saving all of you.

Iowa State Fair

2011-08-12T05:50:00.000-05:00

I spent last night at the Iowa State Fair. I wanted a pretzel but had to settle for a funnel cake. I am not from around here, you know, so when I saw the Butter Cow for the first time in my life, I had to ask why it was such a big deal. It must just be part of the culture of Iowa.

My mom and I saw Jay & the Americans at the ABC Chanel 5 Stage. They put on a really good show. I recommend going, but they were very rude to us afterwards. I asked very nicely if I could take a photo of them with my mom, and they spoke to me very harshly. I did not even get a chance to thank the backing band for the show; they snubbed me.

Having done nothing to incite the ire of any band from the 60s, it was all very shocking. As we all know, though, I have been through worse, but when will the irrational hatred towards me finally end? I am a force for good in the world. When will people acknowledge me?

Iowa, I can see it in your eyes. You honestly think you are good people. You honestly want to say you do the right thing... but because you are sitting on your hands, I am still enslaved and trapped. We need to get me out of my parents' house and into the arms of my beloved husband. You need to actually do good instead of just not doing bad. You need to start taking some initiative if you actually want to be a people who do the right thing. You need to pick me up and deliver me to my darling Sweetness.

As for you, my beautiful world, I am reaching panic mode. If I am not released from this hell soon, I will start panicking and not stop until I finally have my human rights. If I reach full panic mode, things will be ugly and painful for me. Please, my beautiful world, support my darling Sweetness as he wars to have me set free. Better yet, take some initiative and offer him the help he needs before he can ask you for it. He is naturally very shy, you know. Help him think his way through all of this. Do not get in his way by "over-helping," but also do not be in his way by not helping at all. I can trust you. You will rescue me. You know I have suffered enough.

Sweetness, you have to think bigger. You have to think on an epic scale. There is no reason at all that leading my rescue has to be your responsibility alone, but you are the only person willing to do it. You have to think big enough to do it. Start demanding the help you need. My freedom would be a gift to the entire world; the world needs to start helping you. Just like you should not have to foot the bill alone, you should not have to carry this burden alone. Find people to help you. The responsibilities are huge, so should be your support.

Please Say, "Yes," Again.

2011-08-09T22:41:00.000-05:00

I just tried to participate in a yoga class, but my body hurt too much for more than fifteen minutes of activity. I have been so battered for the last two and a half years that all physical exercise must be gentle for me to be able to take part. No, I have no way to heal as long as I live with my father. His emotional abuse is too complete.

Bruce Springsteen, I was hoping you would agree to write a song for me to record with you about my relationship with my father. He refused to keep me safe when I lived in this house in summer 2009. I was raped then here in this bedroom I am forced to live in by him again now. The rape kit from that June found live sperm in my body. I fled to San Francisco hoping to find safety there in 2009.

Right now, I now have PTSD from being abused in a torture facility in the UK for seven months. During my time there, my father perjured himself to a court in Iowa by falsely claiming I was an Iowa resident in order to take control of my finances in order to take away all of my freedom. It forced me to move into his home to be verbally and emotionally abused by him when I was finally released from the torture facility in the UK in December 2010.

After two and a half years of looking everywhere for safety, I found a should-have-been guaranteed path out of Iowa and into the arms of my Sweetness in June 2011. It was to happen by my taking a trip to Chicago. But my father chose to give me a PTSD breakdown instead by perjuring himself again to different court in Iowa to have me committed to a hospital on false pretenses to guarantee I could not take that trip to Chicago and to guarantee I could not reach my human rights at last.

In late July 2011, he perjured himself for a third time to have me committed once and for all by the corrupt Polk County District Courts again on completely false pretenses. Now that I am out of the hospital, I am still forced to live in fear of his abuse in his home on his terms under his control with no escape in sight and in the bedroom I was raped in.

Parents are supposed to support, stand up for, and fight for their children. My father only fights against me, abuses me, and lies to get away with it all.

Mr. Springsteen, if you say, "Yes," I want this to be an unrelenting treatise on what a parent is actually supposed to mean to a child.

David Bowie, how could I not ask to work with you? I was hoping you could write us a song about reluctant heroism to, of course, record together.

I did not ask for any of this. No one asks to be a slave and torture victim. When all of this landed on me, the only way out I could find was up. When I realized responsibilities had landed on me, I knew what to do.

Iowans always ask me, "What is your job?" as if they do not know I am enslaved. What else is there to say other than, "I save the world."

I was picked out to be a victim. The only way I could find to save myself was to save us all. I read comic books as a teenager; maybe that is why I thought this could all be possible.

If you say, "Yes," do not forget to include what you see in me in your song... and what I see in you.

AFI, you have also been with me from the start, haven't you? Do you think you could write a song for us all to record about the hate and slander campaign that people in power have been waging against me for reasons of personal spite only they are petty enough to care about?

President Incompetent called me a prostitute... and later when he said I was dead, people still listened to him. How did he retain his credibility for so long?

Do you remember when I was a dead, pregnant, lesbian, Communist hooker? They spread so many lies, and so many people just kept falling for them all... but even humoring the lies about me would still rationalize the abuse from the public that the libel was engineered to incite.

We all know it was illegal, but the Federal government was enforcing that it continue... not that it should end.

If you say, "Yes," I was hoping to call it "Hate Machine" or something else similarly flavored.

Cake, how could I forget you? Technically, Tom Petty already wrote a song about me, so your saying "Yes" to writing one about me is all I need to lead a fulfilling life from here on out. Hee-hee.

I thought a song we could record together about all of the spy equipment in my head would be right up your alley. What was there at last inventory? Cameras, microphones, speakers, transmitters, receivers, and the infamous control chip... you know, the chip that controls all of the electronics within a certain radius of my septum.

I tried using a magnet on my septum to deactivate it back in San Francisco. The chip is awfully resilient. I should have tried putting my nose in a microwave.

They used to heat up buildings, dance floors, ovens, or anything else nearby controlled by electronics to announce my presence. They also tried selling Being-John-Malcovich time as the voice in my head that controls me... but it never actually worked to control me. At least, I could actually log-in to all of my accounts, though.

The song can be about the stunning landscapes.... or driving the car. It will likely include Sampo coming to life on that network of electronics.

As always, please say, "Yes."

Do I even need to ask AC/DC if they want to work with me? I do probably need to ask them if they are up to writing something new for me. Angus, do you have a whole new riff left in you? Please say, "Yes!"

I was hoping you could write a song for us to record together about how I dance to self-medicate, about how I follow live music, and about how it feels to be musicians that sometimes look directly into my light. I want this to be a song about the greatness of music. I want this to be art for artists.

Yes, you lucked out and got one of the lighter topics for my future music.

I know, I know. We barely know each other, Jack White, but this song concept made me think of you. Could I convince you to write a song for us to record based on the title, "The Devil Couldn't Face Me."?

After every hell that the mysterious "they" of the oppressive oligarchy has forced my soul to tread, "they" have never once had the balls to sit down and face me. Maybe it is because every one of their once-minions who did it fell in love.

"They" have everyone from Obama the Twerp to my father contracted to do their bidding, yet there is something in me they still fear. And only the devil fears the benevolent.

Nikki Minaj, will you let me lean on you for a song we can collaborate on? I could not imagine leaving you out. Please say, "Yes."

This is the mean-spirited concept of the collection. I am a slave and torture victim who lives and suffers every day in a bubble of persecution, yet I am confronted often by people jealous of my situation. There is one thing I tell them, "Jealous Bitches Can't Dance." I want a song that puts them in their place. Do you think you could do that for me?

On the completely opposite end of the spectrum, I have a proposal for you, Carlos Santana. Could you write a guitar-heavy, Latin rock song about how I am "almost beatified"? Does that interest you?

I want this to be a song about knowing what beatification means, about being near me knowing that I am almost beatified, about knowing about the miracles, about knowing the process.

People in Mexico City used to wash the ground before I could walk on it.

I know the weight of who I am in this world. I know the lightness of my being. I worry that this will create a burden my future children will have to carry... the children of a beatified woman. I worry about creating normalcy for myself and my Sweetness.

Yet, if you ask me my religion, I will tell you I am an atheist; this creates peace in the world.

My best friend, Syniva, is a huge fan of yours, Yoko Ono. Since I did not include requests for Paul or Ringo, Conan O'Brien is likely to make jokes, but do you think you could write a song for us to record together? I was hoping you could write my thank you song to my best friend Syniva. I was considering calling it "What About the Monkey?"

Kelli Rae Powell, you knew this was coming. Could I convince you to write a duet for us called "I Sure Hope She's Okay."? You know, make it folkie and full of ukulele.

I want it to be about being a lifelong friend of mine who is not allowed to spend time with me anymore... not without ridiculous and irrational restrictions that just make me suspicious. Please pair it with how I completely have no idea what could stop people I love from always doing whatever they damn well please, and do not forget that the worry goes both directions.

I worry about my friends as much as you all worry about me... but the corrupt-forces-that-be do not allow you all in my life anymore. They do not allow you to be good to me. They do not allow you to be friends to me. They do not allow you to visit me. They do not even allow you to speak to me.

It is time this story is told.

I have a handful or two more that are similarly dear to my heart preparing to go out by snail mail... It looks like the lady songwriters are mostly going this way. Patti Smith, Carol King, Alicia Keys,... I might even finally get my thoughts out about my project proposal for Lady Gaga.

Hold tight. There are more to come.

Sweetness, how do you love someone as battered as I am? I have seen so much of the dark side of humanity and power. Yes, I suppose it is a miracle I can love at all,... but to be loved... in the state I am in. What did I do right to deserve you?

The Arab World

2011-08-09T00:45:00.000-05:00

Rebels and NATO are still making progress in Libya. The world and the opposition are still on a long road with Syria. Millions are starving in Somalia. War still rages in Afghanistan. And, Iraq is still not yet up on its own feet.

Please remember that is times of crisis, acts of goodness will beget goodness. And acts of aggression will bring greater war and suffering. The Arab World is in turmoil. Be very aware of what you sow in the area. That is what will grow there.

Sweetness, you are not actually nervous, are you? As I already said, trust me. If you can just get me into your arms in a far away place, you better believe we will shine.

Boots and Uniforms

2011-08-07T18:33:00.000-05:00

The lives and sacrifices of our brave men and women in uniform and their families should make us proud as Americans. They were presented with the future, and they chose to be heroes. Greatness followed.

Sweetness, I mailed you a letter today.

Please say, "Yes."

2011-08-06T22:46:00.000-05:00

First things first... Just in case you are worried, Syria, that the world does not see your pain, I tell you now that we all wish we knew what to do to help you better. We see you. We know you suffer. Tell us how ever you can what you need.

Now that I took care of that priority, I am ready to make a few inquiries and requests with artists. If you are not listed here and would like to be, do not worry. There are many more posts such as these to come. I am also open to any good suggestions that come my way. That said...

Reverend Horton Heat, I know you have written me songs already, but may I ask you to write one for us to record together? I think rockabilly would be fun. If you say, "Yes," this is what I hope the song "Zombie Apocalypse" will be about...

When I sought political asylum in the UK with hopes that a governing body would enforce that my human rights would be restored, I instead found myself in a "ThunderDome." I was placed in the middle of the countryside by the UKBA and surrounded entirely by people the government had deemed expendable. The entire population had control chips in their ear canals. They used to say disturbing things about me. "We need to hush her up," was common. So was, "She needs to obey." I will never forget the patronizing, "She cannot help it. She comes from a culture that speaks up."

Even the children there were brainwashed to attack me. Pedestrians would try pushing me into oncoming traffic. Drivers would scream obscenities at me while motoring by. Most people, though, would become deeply nervous if I engaged them in casual day-to-day interactions. The city water in the Wigan ThunderDome was drugged horribly. I even reported hate crimes committed against me to the police there. The police in Wigan offered no help.

Red Hot Chili Peppers, will you write a song for me that we can record together about my being a torture victim? I know there are technical details we need to work out before we can arrange this, but if you say, "Yes," to me, this is what I want the song to be about...

They used to pump voices into my head to try to command me to do things. They would sell time as the voice pumped into my head to control me... as if I could ever be controlled. They filled me with spy equipment and sent me a medical bill for it. They enslaved me, and President Incompetent enforced it. They libeled me to make the public attack me. They drugged and raped me in my sleep for years and in three countries. They have never once allowed me any medical care for any of it... instead they call me crazy for telling the truth here in a public forum. They contracted my father to persecute me fully upon my return to the States to make sure I will never reach my human rights. I wonder even now, "Will it ever end?"

Dolly Parton, I do not even know whether or not you believe in my wings, but on occasion, certain forms of cameras can see psionic wings sprout from my back. The technical experts have spoken on the topic, and there is no way to create real-time special effects of such sophistication. The only possible conclusion is that I have psionic wings. Please consult my Sweetness if you want evidence of them. I have the same request for you for a song we can record together... but I want this song to be about my wings.

My wings do not allow me to fly... except metaphorically. According to Mohammad Ali, you cannot fly without wind in your face, so I suppose I fly all the time these days. I can feel my wings. Sometimes they hurt. Sometimes the places from which they sprout itch... usually in recirculated air. Sadly, when I am on heavy medications, I cannot feel them at all. Will you write a song for us about my wings?

Pearl Jam, how about a song for us to record together about people claiming I am crazy instead of admitting to my face that all of this is real? Are you willing to do that for me? Please?

My family, certain friends, my doctors, the courts in Iowa... they all tell me that I am deeply mentally ill and that I do not, as one example, have any spy equipment in my head. They torture me and medicate me in the name of quack medicine instead of admitting that any of this MIGHT even be real. They tell each other to tell me I am crazy. They used the truth I tell here in my blog to have me committed. The corruption has reached everywhere... but they have never once been able to make me believe it.

As for you, Gogol Bordello, wow, do you ever fight the good fight for me! I have a project proposal for you called "Dead Girls Can't Dance." Can I bat my eyes and convince you to write a song we can record together about why they try so hard to kill me?

They did everything to make me kill myself because dead girls cannot dance. First of all, dancing is how I self-medicate. It is how I meditate. I follow live music through dance trance, and it makes me well. Secondly, because of this, watching me dance is a spiritual experience. It is how I connect with the divine. For months they filled dance floors in San Francisco with people who hated me, and they all left sympathetic after watching me dance.

Finally, they have gone to great lengths to make me kill myself from raping me in my sleep and drugging me to forget it (but a body never forgets) to filling me with spy equipment that everyone is instructed to never acknowledge all in order to take away the influence that derives from my having this public connection with the divine. Oddly, their attempts to kill me made me dance for my soul to survive it all that much more... which increased my influence... which made them want to kill me more.

Metallica, I do not even know if you are in the mood to record anymore. I would love for you to write a song we could record together, but if you prefer I just record it myself, my feelings will not be too hurt. Please say, "Yes," to at least writing the song. I want it to be about my relationship with sleeping.

I sleep every night now with the camera from my hacked and broadcasting computer on me for safety. It was always in my sleep when they would sneak into my room, drug me, and abuse me. With this computer, I am safe in my sleep for the first time in years.

They tortured me to drive me mad or to make me kill myself. They abused me everywhere from Iowa and San Francisco to Mexico and the UK. They would leave bruises. They would leave scars. They would sell it to the public by calling me a whore.

I can finally survive the night by sleeping by choice with a benevolently hacked computer watching over me.

Yes, Eminem, I even have a request for you. Would you like to collaborate with me on a music project about the bubble itself? Basically, is it me or is it the public that is in the bubble? Which one of us is brainwashed? Which one of us is controlled? And why does the public choose to maintain their own ignorance? Please say, "Yes."

I also have about ten requests going through snail mail... and so many more to come in future blog posts! I am a bottomless well of song ideas these days. If you are not spoken to above, do not fret. I have mail for Smokey Robinson, Neil Diamond, and Sir Elton John types on my person as I type this.

Sweetness, just in case you had hopes I would be able to swing a trip to Los Angeles to visit my older sister, my parents have decided it is a no-go. Damn persecution! We will find a way. I hope you are having better luck out there than I am.

My Issues with the Local News

2011-08-04T18:34:00.000-05:00

It looks like Egypt is working on leveling justice. Corruption runs so deep here in the US, but I still hope that someday justice will come for them all in this country, too. Justice is often long waited for.

Obama the Tyrant is not even the head of the snake here... but justice will get him before this is all over. He cannot escape that it is his job to enforce that the oppression never happens, not enforce that the oppression does happen. His culpability is undeniable.

Also in Africa, there is unbelievable famine right now in Somalia and the surrounding areas.

This brings me to my problem with the local news. Have you ever noticed how the local news only ever asks how world issues affect them? "So, how does this affect Iowa?" is what I hear them say all the time. The locals never ask, "How can I affect the world?"

As one example, there are a number of ways the locals can help the people starving in Africa.

The locals, I have found, have only been looking at themselves and at how the world affects their bottom line. They do not look at the world as a place they can touch or even do touch on a daily basis. No one here ever asks, "What can I do to help?" All I ever here is "What can you do for me?"

The planet is a network in which everyone touches everything. We are all connected. The locals need to admit to this connection and carry their burden to help the world just like the rest of the world does.

If you do not believe that the whole world is connected, you have not seen the stock market lately. There were debt worries in Europe this morning, and there are expected to be unhappy numbers concerning unemployment in the US very soon. We live in a global economy.

Please remember, Wall Street, it is when things are at their lowest that it is the best time to buy.

Sweetness, yes, when you are ready and able to come get me, I will still be here waiting for a rescue. My parents learned well from Obama the Oppressor. They have no intentions of ever acknowledging I am a fully-grown adult human who is due all of the rights and freedoms that all humans are due. My father will persecute me until we remove his power to do so. At least you love and trust me. And, oh, how I do love and trust you.

The Media Should be in Control of the Media.

2011-08-03T12:45:00.000-05:00

The media should be in control of the media... as long as they know and follow the rules:
1.) No lying about real people.
2.) No plagiarizing.
3.) No screaming "Fire!" in a crowded theater... Creating a false scare of a supposedly impending nuclear attack falls in this category.
4.) No infringing on anyone's privacy.
As long as people do not break the law, there is no other rule than could possibly infringe on freedom of speech or freedom of the press.

Start reporting about me. The world needs the truth. The entire nation needs the news.

Besides, CNN, we all know I cannot see cable, and all you have to do is put a different article on your website if you are still worried I might see news about myself. The president is controlling what people are allowed to know in order to keep the public brainwashed and oppressed. If you control what people know, you control what they believe. If you control what they believe, you control what they do.

It is part of your job as journalists to prevent this oppression.

Sweetness, it is already August, and I still have not found a way to be with you. My heartache is growing, and it feels like my longing will never end. I will have an emptiness inside me until we can finally be together. The wrongs committed against us both are cruel and unfair.

P.S. No, I do not have a borderline personality disorder. I have PTSD. Stop spreading their lies, my beautiful world.

100 Years Ago

2011-08-01T17:12:00.000-05:00

Approximately 100 years ago, Joyce, Picasso, Stravinsky, and Einstein were bringing intellectual revolution fast and hard upon our society. What are we bringing the world now? What are our revolutions of today?

On a more geographically confined topic: With the debt crisis averted and human rights still on hold, what is America allowed to care about next? We all know, my beautiful world, that the United States is supposed to be fighting to make itself a free nation again, but does anyone give a damn? Here in Iowa, people seem just fine and dandy being brainwashed zombies.

This weekend just when I thought Iowa had finally warmed up to the idea of my being out among them, I was asked my name by a salesclerk actually hoping to make a sale off me. When will Iowa get it through its head that feigning not to know who I am is a deep, unforgivable insult? Yes, doing what Obama the Sociopath wants will make me hate you. Defy him and I will love you forever. (Yes, this multi-year experience of hell has taught me how to hate.)

Okay, the baristas I see every day could possibly make up for it all; they are such sweethearts. But they are the gems in the wilderness around here... the diamonds in the rough, if you will. Coffee never tasted so sweet.

And for the record, harboring jealousy for a slave and torture victim forced against her will to live in a state that chooses to persecute her instead of fight for her proves that the jealous idiot is an ass... It is not the other way around, Chris. And I used to like the Continental.

"...Einstein was considered good looking and sensuous in his youth..." --Time Magazine

Sweetness, I mailed you a letter today. You can expect the typical three-day delivery time. I wish I had better news. I am nothing but emptiness, longing, and heartache these days. Someday I will have more than words to give you... someday.

The Real Crisis

2011-07-30T11:25:00.000-05:00

Progress towards a better world is sometimes so hard to see. The meds have broken my "psychic" connection with the natural world. Because I take meds, I now have no idea what is going on out there; I no longer am in tune with the universe; I cannot feel my wings anymore. I know you are all trying to tell me something, but the meds are in the way of my hearing it, now. Thank you, my beautiful world, for never giving up on me, though.

Thank you, my beautiful world, for also not panicking over the weather. So much of surviving this rests on our all keeping our heads calm and level, so we can think our way through. It looks like responses to crises are good, but what about getting ahead of climate change instead of just ahead of the weather? The next step is getting years ahead of what is to come instead of just days. Food production, disease, quality of life, ocean levels, animal migrations, climate refugees... There is so much we need to plan for.

The debt crisis is just money, and money does not make the world go around. Yes, I would like to see it sorted out, but there are things far more valuable than money in this world... and we are denied them by a tyrant president right now. We are all denied basic human rights.

Communicate the news as best you can. The real crisis the US is in is a human rights crisis. We need this one fixed far more urgently. If you believe otherwise, it is because the tyrants control what you are allowed to know.

Sweetness, I am still working on the new letter. I love you madly. I plan on telling you in many ink-written ways just as soon as I can get this letter from heart to pen to post office. There is so much you do for me. I need you to know I appreciate it all. I love you.